Sitting here browsing bluelight when I should be doing homework I am starting to question my motivation for college. I took adderal just to do this shit instead im listening to youtube and posting like theres no tommorow. I dunno Bill Withers is the shit though I think I cant write left handed may be my new favorite song. I know that teaching history is my calling but I dont think im gonna be able to pass my other classes to get there. It sucks because I truely have a gift for history. I gotta get it together at some point but I have so many issues that I dont even know where to start adressing them. I exhausted all the appointments I had with the school counselor which sucks because I dont feel like I got much accomplished. Its like I have all these things I need help with but once I get in the office I blank out cant ever think of what I really wanna say. I always just end up getting prescribed the drugs I want and not addressing the issues that make me an addict. Its a fucked up state of affairs.
