life

always said "life is pain and misery, so learn to enjoy pain and misery and you can always be happy."

in retrospect cant see whether it helped or hurt more. was made as a defense ended up being a prison. sometimes ill find myself in horrible situations at the worst points in my life i usually cant help but laughing and taking a masochistic sense to heart. it usually helps me get through bad situations but at the same time made me numb to alot of shit and now it seems like when everything is good about my life im most unhappy. like im inviting pain now. im so dependent on mine and others misery that i seem to start fights just to be upset all day.

 

life is pain and misery. it's also pleasure and joy. sometimes it's a strange combination of both. or sometimes complete neutrality.

don't let yourself get too stuck on one side of the spectrum. listen to your feelings. don't let them control you, but don't try to repress them.