Yen
Bluelighter
I wrote this a couple years ago comming off of a 5 day coke binge.
I was kicked out of my house and in a pretty rough time.
I hope it has meaning to some of you.
Dear Mommy:
If only you knew, the life Ive pursued
My whole life was a lie, I couldnt handle the truth
The bags on my eyes are the proof, of a life gone aloof
Ive seen it and done it from the crack to the booze
These past few years I was left with no one to keep me in line
Mom, Im searching for that ruler, you know, to keep me in line
At night I cough blood, theres no fluid in my spine
But when you ask how Im doing, I say "Im doing juss fine"
And you know that Im lying, but theres no use in prying
You cant help someone change when you know they aint trying
And my boys are watching the life fade out my eyes
Cuz the only thing real in my life are the tears that Ive cried
Friends dont recognize me, sum say that Ive died
Im going downhill and my brakes are untied
Mommy, this is my cry for help, to bring me back down from my cloud
In all my fucking life, Ive prolly not once made you proud
So this Im yelling out loud
Till the weekend approaches and I sink back in the crowd......
Dear Dad:
Its been about four months since Ive actually seen you
I havent eaten for 3 days, Im practically see-threw
The rents almost due, yet Im sniffin, sippin brew
At the end of the month Im probably gonna have to move
This last while you left me to grow with no guide
If you only knew what its doing to me inside
My heart and my pride
All feelings aside, and I dont mean to be rude
If I see someone too comfy, then Ill probably go jack dude
Juss imagine living off less then a cat would
Its not easy being greezy, Ive actually ate cat food
I got your letter last June, Ive been meaning to get back to it
You asked if I plan to go to school, if you only knew the half of it
My P.O. said he knows where Im headed and theres no turning back
Hey Dad, remember that Christmas you got me that race car track?
Ill never forget that....
Anyways do you think you could spot me sum money?
I got sum bills to pay and Im really starting to get hungry
I swear next year things’ll be different, Ive almost quit sniffin
You said you found my baby tapes, maybe we could sit down and listen
You said you hope Im still alive, Ill always be around for you and mom
Oh god Dad, what the fuck have I done..........
I was kicked out of my house and in a pretty rough time.
I hope it has meaning to some of you.
Dear Mommy:
If only you knew, the life Ive pursued
My whole life was a lie, I couldnt handle the truth
The bags on my eyes are the proof, of a life gone aloof
Ive seen it and done it from the crack to the booze
These past few years I was left with no one to keep me in line
Mom, Im searching for that ruler, you know, to keep me in line
At night I cough blood, theres no fluid in my spine
But when you ask how Im doing, I say "Im doing juss fine"
And you know that Im lying, but theres no use in prying
You cant help someone change when you know they aint trying
And my boys are watching the life fade out my eyes
Cuz the only thing real in my life are the tears that Ive cried
Friends dont recognize me, sum say that Ive died
Im going downhill and my brakes are untied
Mommy, this is my cry for help, to bring me back down from my cloud
In all my fucking life, Ive prolly not once made you proud
So this Im yelling out loud
Till the weekend approaches and I sink back in the crowd......
Dear Dad:
Its been about four months since Ive actually seen you
I havent eaten for 3 days, Im practically see-threw
The rents almost due, yet Im sniffin, sippin brew
At the end of the month Im probably gonna have to move
This last while you left me to grow with no guide
If you only knew what its doing to me inside
My heart and my pride
All feelings aside, and I dont mean to be rude
If I see someone too comfy, then Ill probably go jack dude
Juss imagine living off less then a cat would
Its not easy being greezy, Ive actually ate cat food
I got your letter last June, Ive been meaning to get back to it
You asked if I plan to go to school, if you only knew the half of it
My P.O. said he knows where Im headed and theres no turning back
Hey Dad, remember that Christmas you got me that race car track?
Ill never forget that....
Anyways do you think you could spot me sum money?
I got sum bills to pay and Im really starting to get hungry
I swear next year things’ll be different, Ive almost quit sniffin
You said you found my baby tapes, maybe we could sit down and listen
You said you hope Im still alive, Ill always be around for you and mom
Oh god Dad, what the fuck have I done..........
