so i made big plans to go cop today and then a friend of mine who is clean showed up right when i was gonna go and i had no good excuse to get away cuz i knew he would know maybe it was meant to be i dont know
i do know that today i was goin through some stuff and i found another bag of fresh points omg i just put them back not gonna get rid of em now but not gonna mess with em either altho i still have some handy anyway
so the last two nights were not easy i actually got a lil dope sick from the tiny bit that i did well at least tiny in comparison to what i used to do its crazy how fast my body started to physically need opiates again i kinda knew that would happen but at the same time it took me by surprise thats def why i was all depressed my last entry cuz i was feelin crappy
i just dont know what i really want right now but i know i am playing with fire ... fire that feels really good but wont take me anywhere good
and by the way it really sucks not having my car my license is suspended over some bs ticket but then it makes it a huge mission now to get high cuz i have to do like an hour commute involving the bus and train
i do know that today i was goin through some stuff and i found another bag of fresh points omg i just put them back not gonna get rid of em now but not gonna mess with em either altho i still have some handy anyway
so the last two nights were not easy i actually got a lil dope sick from the tiny bit that i did well at least tiny in comparison to what i used to do its crazy how fast my body started to physically need opiates again i kinda knew that would happen but at the same time it took me by surprise thats def why i was all depressed my last entry cuz i was feelin crappy
i just dont know what i really want right now but i know i am playing with fire ... fire that feels really good but wont take me anywhere good
and by the way it really sucks not having my car my license is suspended over some bs ticket but then it makes it a huge mission now to get high cuz i have to do like an hour commute involving the bus and train
