Well what drew me here originally was a desire to find information on a substance with benzo like properties that does not fall in the benzo family. But I have a general curiosity about drugs as I enjoy a variety of different recreational uses.
I do a lot of mountain biking, skiing, rafting, anything outdoors and I like danger. Over the years I've broken some bones so I like to smoke a little grass before doing these types of things to ease the pain of age and to slow my incessant trainwreck of rambling thoughts.
I'm not going to sit here and pretend it's all medicinal, I like to get a little baked put on red tinted goggles, blast some techno through my head phones and ski down the side of a mountain pretending I'm on Mars and I don't see anything wrong with that. I'm thinking I can substitute some jwh or something and still have that goofy part of my life. Everyone at probation is smoking a mixture called Zombie Killa. I haven't tried it and it claims to be all natural however I highly doubt that.
As far as quiting goes I just don't want to and being forced to only makes it worse. I tried NA and it seemed rather cultish to me. Plus they all say that if some people can go out there and successfully use then they are happy for them but they can not and have accepted that fact. Then somebody does go out and successfully use and you have never seen such a pack of haters. And I know NA has helped tons of people it just is not what I'm looking for. So that's where I'm at now and any help would be appreciated.
