Well I went to a sick ass underground warehouse party on Saturday night. Ya know for a few moments I lost myself in the music, the people and the vibe. It was great. But as it was ending and I was on my way home I was forced back into my misery. A few more days have past since the beginning of this train wreck that has now become my life. It was cool as shit though to see that a few people actually took the time to read my fist blog entry, and even leave a comment.
Well here is the update. I have a few moments were I am still down, but it is still somewhat controllable. But then come the overwhelming fits of pain and disillusionment. They happen far far to often, and they seem to get worse and worse. I don't know if I've written about it yet, but when someone asks me what my current plans are with my life, I look at em and chuckle. Then I ask if they really want to know. If they say yes I tell them that the best plan I have as of right now is to sit alone in my apartment for the month that it's rent is already paid and fall deeper and deeper into depression.
I wish life was one big endless dance party. Then I could escape myself long enough to fill this hole inside myself. Well anyways that's what is going on with myself today and as of late. As the title says, life goes on and the beat continues.
PLUR,
Rollz
Well here is the update. I have a few moments were I am still down, but it is still somewhat controllable. But then come the overwhelming fits of pain and disillusionment. They happen far far to often, and they seem to get worse and worse. I don't know if I've written about it yet, but when someone asks me what my current plans are with my life, I look at em and chuckle. Then I ask if they really want to know. If they say yes I tell them that the best plan I have as of right now is to sit alone in my apartment for the month that it's rent is already paid and fall deeper and deeper into depression.
I wish life was one big endless dance party. Then I could escape myself long enough to fill this hole inside myself. Well anyways that's what is going on with myself today and as of late. As the title says, life goes on and the beat continues.
PLUR,
Rollz