*life changing choices*

[ForAnAngel]

i still dont know know what i have done
you were such a huge part of my life but now you are gone.
not because you died or ran away,
not because you got lost in all the confusion or grew to hate me,
but because i chose something i thought was more important to me over you.
i am paying for what i did everyday
i often cant find the right words to describe what i am feeling.
so unclear was the right answer in the past, but now i see the truth of reality in my path.
not having you in my life anymore is the huge price i pay for not making a wiser decision.
marked up with emotional scars, i thought i knew what i wanted
but really i still dont know what i want.
im unmotivated, depressed and unsure of myself.
all things i use to obtain are now just a thing of the past.
the thought that everything ive had you is gone, makes my heart cringe and ache.
deep down i feel like you still care for me,
and then doubt crosses my mind and brings me to my knees to cry.
up until the end you tried to make me see things right, and you never gave up.
instead i pushed you so far away and told you to leave me alone.
and now im left here with nothing but an empty space that will stay until the day that i die.
and all for what?
to live in ecstasy for a mere few hours.....

 

[Dtergent]

funny how love is better when it's gone.
i know it, it happens, and time does not heal all wounds. some people are just embedded in your heart, your soul, forever. no substance, no wave of happiness and euphoria can compensate for love given up.
it happens. ü

 

[Hedonistic Angel]

Wow!!! ForAnAngel..... I loved it. There really is a deep message in there....and I don't think I've ever heard it so eloquantely put as Dtergent did.
"Some people are just embedded in your heart, your soul,
Forever. No substance, no wave of happiness and euphoria can compensate for love."
Fantastic Man. I just wrote that down in my diary. An important message to remember.
Drugs are nothing with out love.
The Angel
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[This message has been edited by Hedonistic Angel (edited 19 May 2000).]

 

[cherub]

There is nothing better then to know love in the purist sense. Even if you lost the person the love never dies. To me the pain hurts but
there is something there in you, in Your Soul that never dies or fades. We are lucky to have that even though the pain tears at you it still makes you feel alive.
Reading that really tore open some feeling for me. thanks for making me feel alive today.