I've been thinking about starting T lately. I want to wait until the custody papers are signed and he would have no reason to change his mind. Then again I feel like running downtown tomorrow.
I'm only thinking about the now now now because of the curse all FTM's hate each month. Its gotten me a little fed up and a little depressed.
I'm cutting my hair tomorrow, which has me happy. I only did it for the sake of my daughter asking me to keep it long at least until her birthday. I fulfilled her wish and now I can cut this lop off. Its the longest I've had it since elementry school and my parents were too cheap and more into crack then getting my hair cut. The one time my mom did take me out to chop it off, the hair dresser refused to do a "boy cut" on a "girl" Oh with my firey attitude, you can guess what I said before I promised never to return to their establishment, and promised to make sure I tell all my family and friends not to go there either and I stormed out. WTF? A "boy cut" i never knew haircuts were gender based too.....sheit.
Oh well, I got my own clippers now, don't need some schmo to do my hair I got ______ to cut my hair and he did good the last time, so I okay for him doing it tomorrow.
I can't wait to be at that point that I can be as happy as TransOutlaw in http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FQ47uhGHUM
Well he's not happy but the song is just a YAY! type song of becoming all that we dream to become and not have to settle for the ultimate mix up like some people I know that have "settled" for.
I can't wait to start y journey as I believe most of my mental issues stem with my GID.
In June I am going to start working out at the Y again, so I think that will be about the time I can start my journey. As long as "cheese dick" signs the papers and not causing us to go to case conference on April 16th.
Apparently he works construction now during the day and has no time, like WTf?! no time to sign papers to stop the BS and stress and get on with life so your kid doesn;t end up more fucked up? Ya, priorities. I fucking hate the bastard.
He has now lied severely on a legal document and might even be doing welfare fraud. My lawyer already had suspicions of the financials. i emailed her to let her know what is going on. I have yet to recieve a reply, I might not get one until Monday though.
Seriously, if he were to sign the papers this could all be done within a month and we could all move on with our lives and do what we need to do to get healthy. I have CBT in April, I can;t be missing a shitload of sessions because he wants to drag it out in court, plus doesn;t he realize that if he DOES have this "job" he would most likely LOSE it from missing work due to court.
Seriously he needs his head checked.
I also can;t wait for my show tonight, despite who is in it tonight I love Geneology and "Who Do You Think You Are" is a fab show about the very subject. If only they did NORMAL people too and not just famous people. Maybe they will if it picks up and they run out of interested famous people....LOL who knows....
Seriously who wouldn't want to know more on William Hay and Bruce The Great. I sure would love to know more about William Hay, fuck I know more about an ancestor from almost christs time more than I do my grandparents, how the fuck is that possible? Eh well. Apparently churches burn down and apparently there was alot of Emery Robert ******'s and Dora Parent was born but hey, no more info besides her birth. Stats Canada, you are a fucking joke. Blah!
Off to watch the show. I could go on for ages about Trans and Geneology. I better run now for the remote before I get stuck in here on the topic LOL
I'm only thinking about the now now now because of the curse all FTM's hate each month. Its gotten me a little fed up and a little depressed.
I'm cutting my hair tomorrow, which has me happy. I only did it for the sake of my daughter asking me to keep it long at least until her birthday. I fulfilled her wish and now I can cut this lop off. Its the longest I've had it since elementry school and my parents were too cheap and more into crack then getting my hair cut. The one time my mom did take me out to chop it off, the hair dresser refused to do a "boy cut" on a "girl" Oh with my firey attitude, you can guess what I said before I promised never to return to their establishment, and promised to make sure I tell all my family and friends not to go there either and I stormed out. WTF? A "boy cut" i never knew haircuts were gender based too.....sheit.
Oh well, I got my own clippers now, don't need some schmo to do my hair I got ______ to cut my hair and he did good the last time, so I okay for him doing it tomorrow.
I can't wait to be at that point that I can be as happy as TransOutlaw in http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3FQ47uhGHUM
Well he's not happy but the song is just a YAY! type song of becoming all that we dream to become and not have to settle for the ultimate mix up like some people I know that have "settled" for.
I can't wait to start y journey as I believe most of my mental issues stem with my GID.
In June I am going to start working out at the Y again, so I think that will be about the time I can start my journey. As long as "cheese dick" signs the papers and not causing us to go to case conference on April 16th.
Apparently he works construction now during the day and has no time, like WTf?! no time to sign papers to stop the BS and stress and get on with life so your kid doesn;t end up more fucked up? Ya, priorities. I fucking hate the bastard.
He has now lied severely on a legal document and might even be doing welfare fraud. My lawyer already had suspicions of the financials. i emailed her to let her know what is going on. I have yet to recieve a reply, I might not get one until Monday though.
Seriously, if he were to sign the papers this could all be done within a month and we could all move on with our lives and do what we need to do to get healthy. I have CBT in April, I can;t be missing a shitload of sessions because he wants to drag it out in court, plus doesn;t he realize that if he DOES have this "job" he would most likely LOSE it from missing work due to court.
Seriously he needs his head checked.
I also can;t wait for my show tonight, despite who is in it tonight I love Geneology and "Who Do You Think You Are" is a fab show about the very subject. If only they did NORMAL people too and not just famous people. Maybe they will if it picks up and they run out of interested famous people....LOL who knows....
Seriously who wouldn't want to know more on William Hay and Bruce The Great. I sure would love to know more about William Hay, fuck I know more about an ancestor from almost christs time more than I do my grandparents, how the fuck is that possible? Eh well. Apparently churches burn down and apparently there was alot of Emery Robert ******'s and Dora Parent was born but hey, no more info besides her birth. Stats Canada, you are a fucking joke. Blah!
Off to watch the show. I could go on for ages about Trans and Geneology. I better run now for the remote before I get stuck in here on the topic LOL