Hey what's up with you these days? I'm relatively happy, but once again this cocksucking lack of money is a huge thorn in my side. Because of the garnishment, Mom, & having to go through this exhausting ordeal regarding more money with her each week, then the final straw being IRS wanting to sue me for back taxes....are there any more dick heads that want to fuck with me & put their fat, greedy, palms out for the rest of my pathetic little check every week? Fuck! I'm gonna consult my tax man Monday about the above. He's damn good, but damned expensive like $600/year to file, but he always gets me $1000-$1800 back---after I manage to fork up that huge fee, which for me is impossible all at once paying rent/car payment/ect.
I got an extra night of work a week, but it's not enough with the garnishment they take 25%. I'm tired without meds, & although Mom can say what she wants, complain when she only gets even $200-$400/mo....2 months rest from not paying her, hell even one month would help bucketload to play catch up, but that ain't gonna happen. Since shoppin for other work is not what I want, I've seriously been feeling moving out & living in car for 10 wks like I did in 2005, half time at Linda's if I wanted I could put away $600. I don't think it's a wise move, as that's how I got in trouble by those nosy, busy body pigs in the first place though, last time I tried that.
Thought about escorting, or getting a sugar daddy, but haven't the mindset. Two nights ago Javier called me. He's the dude I had as a roommate for awhile back in 1998 when we each rented a room from this very cheap landlord, right after I moved out of your garage. We got along great, he's cool, I know him, he knows me & we pretty much have an idea of how the other lives. I have seen him off an on cause we bumped into each other a couple times shopping, then again when we both went to AA/NA.
He never did drugs, but he's had 3 drunk driving starting 1981, last one 2007, but he's been sober since, still is blah blah, no cigs, drugs, or vices to live with. He's lived here since he was in High School, maybe longer, 2 years older than I am. Apparently, unless he marries he will be deported back to El Salvador, even though he has clearly cleaned up, in fact he supports his 7 year old daughter, & the woman he knocked up--her mom. He's been working steady, makes better $ than me as a waiter, & although I know green cards go for $10,000-15,000 a pop, he can't pay me that kind of money, but it's not about me wanting a nice lump sum of cash, but more about practical way to help each other out.
We went looking at apartments yesterday & he got one for us, 1 I saw & liked. The rent is $1200/mo & the deal is if I marry him, I get my own room I don't have to share with anyone. The other bedroom & rest of the place they can do as they please. Because he has a kid, he don't want a bunch of tweekers over there, which I can certainly understand & there won't be. He & the child's mom are not an item, but stay together to parent the girl & because it's practical. She works full time, don't make much money so Javier pays the major bills. I really never want to marry anyone, I'm not the marrying kind, but the arrangement could benefit both of us. Mom wants her $146/mo for the lawyer which I'd finish paying for, but thats it.
Javier is not a damn tweeker & is responsible otherwise I'd never consider it. You and Linda are the only 2 people that use that I'd completely be sure wouldn't rip me off when my back is turned, unlike everyone else, ok and Erik. He wants to hurry up & get married, but I said sorry not until we sign a pre-nup. Granted, not mind you that I have fuck all to rip off, that is a joke in itself, but I told him if Mom still does decide to leave me her house or whatever she may or may not leave me, he's not getting half of my inheritance, that would be merely a 2nd social security for the last 5-10 yrs of my life, if I live to be 63. I told him when I was going to marry Erik, it was 5 years Erik would of had to stay married to get his green card.
Erik agreed to sign the pre nup regarding above...Javier said no problem, & I also said the pre nup works both ways, that I will sign saying I agree not to get any of his pension or whatever. So he called last night said, "I want to do this on Monday." That's a bit fast & not until these contracts are drawn up & signed. He said,"Come on Tanya, you know me....I wouldn't....you wouldn't...." LOL. No matter. No contracts. No marriage. I'd get $500 before the marriage, $500 day of, $500 after or something like that. He'd give me a little fridge, microwave for my room, or whatever crap he has which is a lot. That's not a lot of money, I know, but free rent for 5 years....$7,200/yr in rent for 3 years = 21,600, which isn't bad.
I could come & go as I please, have my own life, & at least he's someone I've known for some time. He can't marry his kid's mom, she only has a permit to live here, but seeing as how I don't have to sleep with the guy, I would be in a safe family like environment. He did say, "I don't want you to have gay people over here." LOL. He probably said that because I mentioned Erik is, but bullshit on that & I told him so. He didn't like "people with tattoos," to which I laughed & said, "Won't the INS be asking you if I have any? Because I have 4," LOL. Obviously, that 1 not gonna fly. I know, too if he fucks up & pissed me off during the first 5 years, I could have him deported, so my way or the high way in terms of that crap. I'm not thrilled about dealing with the INS, though but it should be way easier than trying to keep an Egyptian, like Mom did.
The only way I could ever be married is to have my own space, but unless I pay 1/2 rent there's no way I can find an arrangement where I can stifle the fucking rent scene for a while without having to be cook, maid, & whore to some guy cause what would he get out of it otherwise? Finally, in spite of this poverty, I have something of equal value to contribute in exchange for not constantly having to worry about bleeping rent. Everywhere we looked it's so damned expensive! Someday once again, I can't wait to get this stupid crap off my back, the IRS, the garnishment, then retain some sort of financial freedom.
This sounds like some hair brained craziness, I know & the thought of being legally bound to someone freaks me out because it's not a road I've been down before. Last time when Erik & I were going to marry, you said Robin knew some notary official dude? That was 5 years ago, she may not know anymore, but what the hell is involved in the type of pre nup I want? Does it have to be a family law lawyer, paralegal? What's the cheapest way to make a contract stick? After he is legal, he said he didn't care one way or the other if I stay married or not, so assuming I had such a pre nup & he cooperated, any idea the quickest, cheapest route to dissolve a marriage without paying a king's ransom?
I got an extra night of work a week, but it's not enough with the garnishment they take 25%. I'm tired without meds, & although Mom can say what she wants, complain when she only gets even $200-$400/mo....2 months rest from not paying her, hell even one month would help bucketload to play catch up, but that ain't gonna happen. Since shoppin for other work is not what I want, I've seriously been feeling moving out & living in car for 10 wks like I did in 2005, half time at Linda's if I wanted I could put away $600. I don't think it's a wise move, as that's how I got in trouble by those nosy, busy body pigs in the first place though, last time I tried that.
Thought about escorting, or getting a sugar daddy, but haven't the mindset. Two nights ago Javier called me. He's the dude I had as a roommate for awhile back in 1998 when we each rented a room from this very cheap landlord, right after I moved out of your garage. We got along great, he's cool, I know him, he knows me & we pretty much have an idea of how the other lives. I have seen him off an on cause we bumped into each other a couple times shopping, then again when we both went to AA/NA.
He never did drugs, but he's had 3 drunk driving starting 1981, last one 2007, but he's been sober since, still is blah blah, no cigs, drugs, or vices to live with. He's lived here since he was in High School, maybe longer, 2 years older than I am. Apparently, unless he marries he will be deported back to El Salvador, even though he has clearly cleaned up, in fact he supports his 7 year old daughter, & the woman he knocked up--her mom. He's been working steady, makes better $ than me as a waiter, & although I know green cards go for $10,000-15,000 a pop, he can't pay me that kind of money, but it's not about me wanting a nice lump sum of cash, but more about practical way to help each other out.
We went looking at apartments yesterday & he got one for us, 1 I saw & liked. The rent is $1200/mo & the deal is if I marry him, I get my own room I don't have to share with anyone. The other bedroom & rest of the place they can do as they please. Because he has a kid, he don't want a bunch of tweekers over there, which I can certainly understand & there won't be. He & the child's mom are not an item, but stay together to parent the girl & because it's practical. She works full time, don't make much money so Javier pays the major bills. I really never want to marry anyone, I'm not the marrying kind, but the arrangement could benefit both of us. Mom wants her $146/mo for the lawyer which I'd finish paying for, but thats it.
Javier is not a damn tweeker & is responsible otherwise I'd never consider it. You and Linda are the only 2 people that use that I'd completely be sure wouldn't rip me off when my back is turned, unlike everyone else, ok and Erik. He wants to hurry up & get married, but I said sorry not until we sign a pre-nup. Granted, not mind you that I have fuck all to rip off, that is a joke in itself, but I told him if Mom still does decide to leave me her house or whatever she may or may not leave me, he's not getting half of my inheritance, that would be merely a 2nd social security for the last 5-10 yrs of my life, if I live to be 63. I told him when I was going to marry Erik, it was 5 years Erik would of had to stay married to get his green card.
Erik agreed to sign the pre nup regarding above...Javier said no problem, & I also said the pre nup works both ways, that I will sign saying I agree not to get any of his pension or whatever. So he called last night said, "I want to do this on Monday." That's a bit fast & not until these contracts are drawn up & signed. He said,"Come on Tanya, you know me....I wouldn't....you wouldn't...." LOL. No matter. No contracts. No marriage. I'd get $500 before the marriage, $500 day of, $500 after or something like that. He'd give me a little fridge, microwave for my room, or whatever crap he has which is a lot. That's not a lot of money, I know, but free rent for 5 years....$7,200/yr in rent for 3 years = 21,600, which isn't bad.
I could come & go as I please, have my own life, & at least he's someone I've known for some time. He can't marry his kid's mom, she only has a permit to live here, but seeing as how I don't have to sleep with the guy, I would be in a safe family like environment. He did say, "I don't want you to have gay people over here." LOL. He probably said that because I mentioned Erik is, but bullshit on that & I told him so. He didn't like "people with tattoos," to which I laughed & said, "Won't the INS be asking you if I have any? Because I have 4," LOL. Obviously, that 1 not gonna fly. I know, too if he fucks up & pissed me off during the first 5 years, I could have him deported, so my way or the high way in terms of that crap. I'm not thrilled about dealing with the INS, though but it should be way easier than trying to keep an Egyptian, like Mom did.
The only way I could ever be married is to have my own space, but unless I pay 1/2 rent there's no way I can find an arrangement where I can stifle the fucking rent scene for a while without having to be cook, maid, & whore to some guy cause what would he get out of it otherwise? Finally, in spite of this poverty, I have something of equal value to contribute in exchange for not constantly having to worry about bleeping rent. Everywhere we looked it's so damned expensive! Someday once again, I can't wait to get this stupid crap off my back, the IRS, the garnishment, then retain some sort of financial freedom.
This sounds like some hair brained craziness, I know & the thought of being legally bound to someone freaks me out because it's not a road I've been down before. Last time when Erik & I were going to marry, you said Robin knew some notary official dude? That was 5 years ago, she may not know anymore, but what the hell is involved in the type of pre nup I want? Does it have to be a family law lawyer, paralegal? What's the cheapest way to make a contract stick? After he is legal, he said he didn't care one way or the other if I stay married or not, so assuming I had such a pre nup & he cooperated, any idea the quickest, cheapest route to dissolve a marriage without paying a king's ransom?