Hi it's Tanya, how you been? Haven't heard from you in a while, but my Belfast babe insisted I get this hotmail/MSN messenger to have illicit video conversations online, lol. Anyway, hotmail deleted my old account I guess, and wanted to maybe chat sometime or hear back from you.
How are things on your side of the world? I miss talking to you, but I assume you're very busy, having fun, ect. What's new with you? Still hot and heavy with Aidan I'm sure, good for you for having the courage to actually go get and live out your dream. That's something I always admired about you.
Brendan got back in touch with me a month ago. That was a trip. I happened to be in a very sentimental, loving, romantic, mood when he IM'ed me at work. I forgot the heartache, but had this selective good memories of him only, next thing I know emailing and IMing him now feel like a continuation of where we left off.
I'm not even getting my hopes up, but I haven't had any proper sex for 8 yrs, the last time I was together with him. He lost his cushy job of 30 yrs a couple wks back, that was a shock, but we want to see each other, but this damn distance thing is a giant pain in the ass. Sigh. I wish I was rich.
If anything, he and my girlfriend Aimee helped me to feel beautiful again, because I put on sooo fucking much weight after stopping you know what, for 2 years I saw myself as terribly unattractive and considered my appearance an embarrassment. Aimee and her friends convinced me to wear pretty, sexy clothes so I feel and look good.
I did not want to show Brendan a current pic of me, but he wasn't gonna let me off the hook so I got that out of the way, then did the cam thing, God I was so embarrassed, but he insisted he liked me better, Christ. If anything, I no longer walk around wearing nothing but old ladies clothes because of my weight.
I quit eating just because it feels like I should. When cous left, no her, no pills, no nothin, almost felt kind of like I HAD to eat out of muscle memory or some bullshit. Mom quit smoking cigs 7 yrs ago after 38 yrs of 2-4 packs a day, so she still puffs on an unlit cigarette 2 appease the craving.
I've heard no cous where ur at is that still true? I think about you every so often and say a prayer for you and your family. I don't have a clue whether or not I'll ever be able to afford a trip, but Brendan wants to see me if I do, and I'd also like to see you, if I'm ever fortunate enough to make it out there again.
I've looked for guys that are sweet, romantic, and treat you like a lady in this country, the same kind of guys that are way more abundant in your neck of the woods, but I swear I've never found any. I wish So Cali men were like Irish ones, out here they're more out to get you in the sack ASAP, but over there, the culture is a bit slower paced, which I like in that area.
When I was a horny 16 y/o, I never appreciated that Mom always told me my generation got ripped off as far as dates because they expect sex a lot quicker, but now I GET it. Anyway, if I can see Brendan I will, if not, then guess it wasn't met to be. He got me jonesin for sex and romance all over again. I wish all men took their time.
Hope life is treating you well and wonderful, Debbie. I spoke to Tom (Dubby aka dublincastle) remember him? He's such a sweet man bless his heart, but still very addicted to dilaudid and morphine I think. I understand how that goes more than anything, but I hate to see him TRAPPED by and because of it. Know what I mean girl? Of course you do. You're prolly being good, I guess, do you still like Mary Jane?
God bless you girl,
Love,
Tanya
How are things on your side of the world? I miss talking to you, but I assume you're very busy, having fun, ect. What's new with you? Still hot and heavy with Aidan I'm sure, good for you for having the courage to actually go get and live out your dream. That's something I always admired about you.
Brendan got back in touch with me a month ago. That was a trip. I happened to be in a very sentimental, loving, romantic, mood when he IM'ed me at work. I forgot the heartache, but had this selective good memories of him only, next thing I know emailing and IMing him now feel like a continuation of where we left off.
I'm not even getting my hopes up, but I haven't had any proper sex for 8 yrs, the last time I was together with him. He lost his cushy job of 30 yrs a couple wks back, that was a shock, but we want to see each other, but this damn distance thing is a giant pain in the ass. Sigh. I wish I was rich.
If anything, he and my girlfriend Aimee helped me to feel beautiful again, because I put on sooo fucking much weight after stopping you know what, for 2 years I saw myself as terribly unattractive and considered my appearance an embarrassment. Aimee and her friends convinced me to wear pretty, sexy clothes so I feel and look good.
I did not want to show Brendan a current pic of me, but he wasn't gonna let me off the hook so I got that out of the way, then did the cam thing, God I was so embarrassed, but he insisted he liked me better, Christ. If anything, I no longer walk around wearing nothing but old ladies clothes because of my weight.
I quit eating just because it feels like I should. When cous left, no her, no pills, no nothin, almost felt kind of like I HAD to eat out of muscle memory or some bullshit. Mom quit smoking cigs 7 yrs ago after 38 yrs of 2-4 packs a day, so she still puffs on an unlit cigarette 2 appease the craving.
I've heard no cous where ur at is that still true? I think about you every so often and say a prayer for you and your family. I don't have a clue whether or not I'll ever be able to afford a trip, but Brendan wants to see me if I do, and I'd also like to see you, if I'm ever fortunate enough to make it out there again.
I've looked for guys that are sweet, romantic, and treat you like a lady in this country, the same kind of guys that are way more abundant in your neck of the woods, but I swear I've never found any. I wish So Cali men were like Irish ones, out here they're more out to get you in the sack ASAP, but over there, the culture is a bit slower paced, which I like in that area.
When I was a horny 16 y/o, I never appreciated that Mom always told me my generation got ripped off as far as dates because they expect sex a lot quicker, but now I GET it. Anyway, if I can see Brendan I will, if not, then guess it wasn't met to be. He got me jonesin for sex and romance all over again. I wish all men took their time.
Hope life is treating you well and wonderful, Debbie. I spoke to Tom (Dubby aka dublincastle) remember him? He's such a sweet man bless his heart, but still very addicted to dilaudid and morphine I think. I understand how that goes more than anything, but I hate to see him TRAPPED by and because of it. Know what I mean girl? Of course you do. You're prolly being good, I guess, do you still like Mary Jane?
God bless you girl,
Love,
Tanya