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Bluelighter
Dear Shawn,
Years have now gone by,
And I still have the image of your face burned in my mind.
Still have the sound of your laughter in my mind
I still have your smile in my heart
But its slowly fading away
Words can't say how much I miss you
Nor can they possibly describe the pure pain I feel each time I think about the day I lost you.
I feel like such a fool for not calling,
For not telling you that you weren't alone.
Sometimes I wish it would have been I that where gone.
Not you.
I talk to you each night before I go to bed.
I cry as if I still have you right here to cry on.
Because I feel that you are always here even if only in spirit.
You know I love you,
And I swear I always will.
Life has sucked so bad lately,
J and I are permanently over,
My lil brothers (yeah the ones that where REALLY bad) are going up for adoption,
And the one living person who I really trusted with everything just turned her back on me.
Good news is I've lived threw the stupid shit I have done
Well, You probably already know.
I know I told you I wouldn't do that shit, And I'm sorry.
I'm 16 in exactly three months and I'm getting better with soccer each day
There's something that I have to say Hun,
I am truly sorry
I was immature about a lot of things when you where still here with me
And sorry can never take all the shit I did back
But I am.
Sorry for all the times I was mean, Sorry for all the times when I was stingy about everything.
If I could go back I would give you everything I had just so you would be happy,
Heaven knows I love you more then anything.
Well, I'm off, I'll be by to drop flowers off to your grave tomorrow.
Love you forever and always, See you again soon.
Sarah C.
Years have now gone by,
And I still have the image of your face burned in my mind.
Still have the sound of your laughter in my mind
I still have your smile in my heart
But its slowly fading away
Words can't say how much I miss you
Nor can they possibly describe the pure pain I feel each time I think about the day I lost you.
I feel like such a fool for not calling,
For not telling you that you weren't alone.
Sometimes I wish it would have been I that where gone.
Not you.
I talk to you each night before I go to bed.
I cry as if I still have you right here to cry on.
Because I feel that you are always here even if only in spirit.
You know I love you,
And I swear I always will.
Life has sucked so bad lately,
J and I are permanently over,
My lil brothers (yeah the ones that where REALLY bad) are going up for adoption,
And the one living person who I really trusted with everything just turned her back on me.
Good news is I've lived threw the stupid shit I have done
Well, You probably already know.
I know I told you I wouldn't do that shit, And I'm sorry.
I'm 16 in exactly three months
and I'm getting better with soccer each day There's something that I have to say Hun,
I am truly sorry
I was immature about a lot of things when you where still here with me
And sorry can never take all the shit I did back
But I am.
Sorry for all the times I was mean, Sorry for all the times when I was stingy about everything.
If I could go back I would give you everything I had just so you would be happy,
Heaven knows I love you more then anything.
Well, I'm off, I'll be by to drop flowers off to your grave tomorrow.
Love you forever and always, See you again soon.
Sarah C.
