I keep having these odd flashbacks, of bad memories. Scenes like a movie in my mind, of a life that seems so long ago. I'm going along with my daily routine, and out of nowhere, I am distracted from what I am doing, and pulled into the past. Images so perfect, and so real, that it has to be present time, not just a memory.
The memories are painful. Will I ever be free? I've been a prisoner to addiction, for so long. Addiction not only to heroin, but to treating myself badly. To hating my self, and torturing myself with bulimia. I finally realize that I have a lot of "stuff" locked deep inside. Does this have to be delodged and cleared out before I can move on? Before I can finally let go?
The memories are painful. Will I ever be free? I've been a prisoner to addiction, for so long. Addiction not only to heroin, but to treating myself badly. To hating my self, and torturing myself with bulimia. I finally realize that I have a lot of "stuff" locked deep inside. Does this have to be delodged and cleared out before I can move on? Before I can finally let go?