Learning

I was told something this weekend that I had never heard before about myself. I didn't like hearing it but I'm trying to accept things nowadays. Acceptance has its benefits.

I have now learned another variable that has contributed to my past relationships not working. I NEVER FUCKING KNEW THIS, noone was honest enough to tell me. I wish it wasn't a factor that I need to be aware of. My self-esteem and confidence is all fucked up now. I'm re-evaluating my perceptions of others and myself.

I'm aggravated that I don't measure up to others that have been there before. There are things about myself that I can improve and there are things about myself that I can do NOTHING about.

I almost talked myself into using

It ain't worth it.

Acceptance, man, acceptance.

 

Whats up OD?
Talk to me..........you know how to reach me
Stay Strong.

 

Thanks, ocean. Its just stupid, bullshit insecurities. I was just blinsided by info that surprised me. I should have known this info after 38 years.

I might catch up with you later but not to whine over this petty nonsense

 

Fuck all the bullshit OD, stay strong. There are sooo many different perspectives out there remain true to the ones that matter and those come from yourself. Keep writing I enjoy your journal.

Peace,
TSeedless

 

Thanks B, you're right about the varying perspectives. I think I just allow my ego to get in the way sometimes. I accept who I am, what I am and what I have (for the most part) but sometimes its a drag not bein or having what others are accustomed to.

I'm good now, though. Thanks for reading my nonsense!