Tsukasa, I didn't take melatonin+B6, just bought a couple of grams of melatonin, and took it alone.
I do quite well in social situations, I don't 'do' body language, unless its completely blatant, at least, not automatically, if I want to, I can work out what a persons body language means logically, but it doesn't come automatically (or should that be autie-matically?
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But, I don't have the classic NT symptom of social addiction, I can take it or leave it, I like getting together for a chill and a bong or twenty as much as the next guy of any neurotype, but were I to be stuck in the middle of some jungle, I wouldn't get depressed and lose focus, if you follow me (as long as I was with my gal of course, I wouldn't ever want to be without her
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Its a tradeoff really, I see all the little details in life which people miss a lot of the time, and I guess I swap the ability to read people instinctively, for the ability to think in a cold, calm, systematic and logical manner (at least most of the time), and the ability to more or less suppress emotional responses at will, in fact, although I can and do feel emotion, I think I quite likely have less of it, than do most NT people.
From my observations of them, I see every day, people getting worked up into emotional states, depression, sudden anger causing them to lose control, my mates for example, get pissed off, and they might throw their phone on the floor and storm off in a rage, I on the other hand, will do something about the problem at hand, or if nothing is doable, plot and scheme until the time is right to remedy it, and usually act decisively.
There are negatives, mostly the adrenal overload, and insomnia, but with the right medication both of those are easy to suppress, the overwhelming majority of the time, the negatives are overshadowed almost completely by the positive aspects, I know I really, really wouldn't want to be any other way, and all the talk I see by the abomination of a 'charity' Autism Speaks, and their ilk of curing, knocks me sick to my stomach, as I know most likely, the prospect of a pre-natal test, which they sponsor research into, would mean not a cure for the autist who has a bad time of things and wishes of their own free will to be cured (when in fact with the right outlook and interventions they could possibly or probably, depending on the case, turn their autism to serve their purposes), it would mean the end of us almost completely with todays outlook in the public mind, in the same way that you no longer see many people with Down's syndrome, they get tested for, and aborted before they are born.
That could have been me, if that kind of test was available, or it could have been the woman I love, or even most of my friends too, and thats not something I want to see.
Also, autism is responsible for me having what in the lingo, they call 'special interests', which subjectively observing and comparing with my NT friends, and the general public, I seem to get a lot more enjoyment from them, due to my ability to hyperfocus on the subject(s) at hand.
For me, its less of a learning disability, as a learning ability.
Nuke, are you aspie/autie ?
You might like this place if you are:
http://spectrumites.proboards104.com/index.cgi
That site is temporary though, within a few weeks we are moving to spectrumites.com which promises to be bigger, beefier, better and all together flappier than the technologically limited proboards hosted site
@echo off
:loop
Echo <handflap>
If 'autie' goto loop
if not 'autie' goto end
:end
Hehehe.
