Late Night Lullaby

[Jennyfur_Karma_Kin]

To be near you
Is to be caught on fire
Yet you seldom light the match
I almost can't stand
To feel you burn me
From the inside out
Yet I will always bring the kindling
To your door
I am doused in petrol
Ready to shine bright with flame

This is our secret
I walk to you in darkness
So that we can revel in private
Exploring people that we become
Or maybe for me it's the big reveal
Only for you
I don't know why

The silence that comes from within you
Settles me in a way I can't explain
Your reassuring stature
Safety in the danger of you
I need it so much
But I can't find the words to explain to you
So I creep out at sunrise
In silence

I expect nothing
You never reveal your reasons
Yet now I fear that this is the end
You have always been an eventuality
But now I just don't know
This predicament that has pained me
Has suddenly saved me
But buried secrets may be revealed
By the rolling waves of my thought

If I could just make them stop
I could be glad of one last late night lullaby
Be grateful for the taste of whiskey on your mouth
Remembering always your handprints
Strewn across my skin
And the things we'll never say
That you will never feel
Hidden in the darkness of my heart chamber
Too scared to come out
Lest they be bashed into bits

I know you feel nothing
I'll try and numb this heart-twist
So that I can sleep again
Because somehow
I can still smell your skin on my sheets
Even though
You were never here.

 

[neversickanymore]

Damn good and powerful.. touched me on a strong emotional level.. even made me feel uncomfortable for a bit..