wooger
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So after my recent act of stupidity which culminated with a unpleasant hospital visit, I was released, now the thing is I had decided enough really is enough this time...
the discharging dr asked me if I was on any daily medications and I said yeah and told her (venlafaxine and diazepam - I was at 28mg a day) she asked me if I would take them if she prescribed me some... I was like 'I am so done with taking pills' but she gave me some anyway, 10mg diazepam a day (obviously a huge reduction) and the same dose of venlafaxine....
anyway, I wasnt really thinking very rationally and chucked them in the bin...
I felt fine for about a week...
then this agonizing 'whooshing' started shooting through my brain, it was so fucking painful... and weird but I decided I would wait it out...
I called my dr and asked if I could get a repeat on my propanolol (I was prescribed these for panic attacks but wanted it this time to try and control my hand tremor) which was fine and noticed the diazepam and venlafaxine were on repeat so I thought 'fuck it, I cant deal with this anymore' and caved in and ordered some more... I notice they gave me another repeat for the same amounts...
now the thing is... even tho the first week went fine... I am having horrible twitching in my hand... like really bad and although the low dose of diazepam and propanolol is controlling it a bit... it still goes wild every day and I mean it shakes ALOT then occasionally it will form like a contorted claw which is very painful and my fingers will separate!
I also hardly sleep now and keep sweating, really racing thoughts etc... and thats with me taking 20mg of diazepam a day instead of the 10mg prescribed (I would hate to think what it would be like if i actually took just the 10mg)... and the repeat is only for every 2 weeks but at my rate it will run out every week...
so my question is I guess... what the hell do I do?
the discharging dr asked me if I was on any daily medications and I said yeah and told her (venlafaxine and diazepam - I was at 28mg a day) she asked me if I would take them if she prescribed me some... I was like 'I am so done with taking pills' but she gave me some anyway, 10mg diazepam a day (obviously a huge reduction) and the same dose of venlafaxine....
anyway, I wasnt really thinking very rationally and chucked them in the bin...
I felt fine for about a week...
then this agonizing 'whooshing' started shooting through my brain, it was so fucking painful... and weird but I decided I would wait it out...
I called my dr and asked if I could get a repeat on my propanolol (I was prescribed these for panic attacks but wanted it this time to try and control my hand tremor) which was fine and noticed the diazepam and venlafaxine were on repeat so I thought 'fuck it, I cant deal with this anymore' and caved in and ordered some more... I notice they gave me another repeat for the same amounts...
now the thing is... even tho the first week went fine... I am having horrible twitching in my hand... like really bad and although the low dose of diazepam and propanolol is controlling it a bit... it still goes wild every day and I mean it shakes ALOT then occasionally it will form like a contorted claw which is very painful and my fingers will separate!
I also hardly sleep now and keep sweating, really racing thoughts etc... and thats with me taking 20mg of diazepam a day instead of the 10mg prescribed (I would hate to think what it would be like if i actually took just the 10mg)... and the repeat is only for every 2 weeks but at my rate it will run out every week...
so my question is I guess... what the hell do I do?
