Kundalini Awakening - "You can't force a seed to sprout"

[RobotRipping]

^what do you mean by sense though? I think sense as in something that gathers information from the world around us. For example, you hear vibrations with your ear. It's like raw input that is read by something, like a computer scanner or mouse. Balance isn't taking in any information, it is the brain using information from the senses (touch) to perform a certain task (balancing weight).

the imagination is not a sense, it doesn't read any information from the external world, it's not 'sensing' anything.

I had a prof who would talk about how a bat perceives the world entirely through sound and has a completely different interpretation of reality than humans do, sonic vs visual. It seems that our senses shape our interpretation of the world.

i watched the video, i just don't see how one can claim there is some sort of magical power at the bottom of the spine, what evidence is there for that? To me, it sounds more like a symbol for something, not as something to be taken literally.

 

[Chris Timothy]

Well there's the vestibular system..

But like I said it's really not important to differentiate. There aren't really separate things that sense, since the very fact they sense means they're not separate things. It's all connected, it's one integrated process of sensing.

 

[Ismene]

Yoko used to tell Lennon when she didn't feel like sex in the late 70s that abstaining made your kundalini "move up your spine" and the longer you went without sex the more chance it would go up to your skull and reach enlightenment. Lennon usually ended up at the Korean whorehouse down the street before that happened.

 

[eye_wide_open]

I guess it's been a while for me. lol!
Have a girlfriend for 8 years and tell me you still get it two-three times a week. If at all...

According to a few people from the past, you're supposed to forget earthly desires and focus on the more important.
"You can't take any of it with you when you die"

I wonder if there is any way to prepare for the afterlife.
I guess the Egyptians say that would be the book of the dead.

i watched the video, i just don't see how one can claim there is some sort of magical power at the bottom of the spine, what evidence is there for that? To me, it sounds more like a symbol for something, not as something to be taken literally.

It's multiple Chakra points throughout your body coming/working together/in tune,
not just one power at the base of your spine. It may make your entire body shake like an earthquake. It's a spiritual takeover.

Yes, you're gonna need a bit more open mind than the average citizen to try and understand it with any amount of belief. It sounds like a pile of BS, but it's not.

the point was not how what happened to her happened to her, the point was what happened to her. Also, her readiness. Her will to find that something else we all know is there but never can put our finger on.

How it happens or which chakra released matters not. Multiples of possibilities between the variants of people.

We each have the possibility/capabilities of amazing things, locked away inside of us.

 

[RobotRipping]

i get the whole chakra thing but i think there is probably a neurological explanation for the experiences that people have. They are focusing, calming the mind and likely releasing a flood of certain/particular neurotransmitters and thus having such an experience. Given the side effects i'd say it would be DA/NE release that is creating a large part of the effect (the mention of an orgasmic like feeling). Sounds like a good hit of speed lol.

It could certainly be powerful and special but is it biologically any different than smoking some meth? What does one do with all this power anyhow, aren't they still constrained by the same rules/laws as everyone else anyway? What special thing has anyone achieved by unleashing their kundalini power? I think i actually have awoken this thing once and then suffered a psychotic break but i had the exact feelings described in the wiki article i was reading. I also felt enlightened, like something had opened up inside of me and i could feel my divine connection. I was on a spiritual journey before hand and it all kind of freaked me out. I had to put a lid on it all and deny it away so that i could function properly afterwards. In the end though, you could say it was a result of far too much psychedelic use.

 

[Chris Timothy]

It's the overcoming of compulsive mental modeling that causes the experience. Of course you were in for a rebound if you chemically forced it without understanding how to carry it along naturally through a change in mental organisation.

Once you start doing science in your head again, you're back to the level of modelling. You can't grab the mystical experience through simple Newtonian cause-effect mechanics, with all its anomalies it believes to have not yet explained. Ignoring that a cause-effect chain only unites events through fundamentally separating them, into cause and effect. Or believing infinite iteration into the past solves this problem. And believing that it's not impossible to strive for a model describing the universe, contained in the mind of an individual contained in that same universe. It's what Russell's theorem explains: the universe can't be contained by any separate thing, for it would not be the entire universe.

Gödel's theorem already gave the important hint you can't model the universe inside the universe with a finite set of axioms. Once your model is intricate enough to give you the feeling you're about to contain the universe, you realize you can't make the last step logically consistent without introducing an element of infinity, without giving up the illusion of being anything other than the infinite universe itself. That's the only explanation why you can have the feeling of containing it. You are it.

This begs the question: are You actually unintelligent, random, cold and uncaring?

 

[atara]

Gödel's theorems state that no axiomatic model of Robinson arithmetic can be consistent and complete, nor can it prove its own consistency. Gödel's theorems have specific relevance to axiomatic models of Robinson arithmetic and axiomatic systems which are equivalent to Robinson arithmetic as well as supersets of Robinson arithmetic such as Peano arithmetic. They do not apply to the general case of axiomatic systems, nor to e.g. Presburger arithmetic, but were a specific invalidation of a technique called Hilbert's program which aimed to demonstrate the consistency of Peano arithmetic.

 

[Chris Timothy]

It's been a while since I cared for higher math, I admit. I can't tell whether you're trying to one-up me with technical details, or whether you're trying to explain I'm making an error by likening enlightenment dynamics to the elegance of Gödel's thinking.

 

[eye_wide_open]

What does one do with all this power anyhow, aren't they still constrained by the same rules/laws as everyone else anyway? What special thing has anyone achieved by unleashing their kundalini power?

You use the power to "see". You can also ask it questions.
It's a form of enlightenment. It can also send you images.
You may be awarded a shit ton of information during the process, or might even be able to talk directly with your third eye using ESP or telepathy or the likes.

I'm quite certain you are able to use it to "Free yourself", "Learn stuff you never knew", Connect with the universe, ask it things you want to know.. etc etc. It's like having the power of "all knowing". Whatever you want to know at the time it happens it will tell you. You can then go look the shit up online and verify it, as I did. lol

It's called "All seeing Eye" because it sees all. Lies do not escape the all seeing eye.
It knows all, sees all. It'll show you things you don't want to see and things you do want to see. It will take you places, give you hints in your daily life, all kinds of weird crap.
It comes and goes on it's own, for me. I haven't figured out how to focus enough to hold it there. I love when it comes though, I can feel it, and I let off a small warm smile.

It's pretty crazy dude. It's not desireable to shoot for, but once you already fucked up and gave it to yourself on accident like me, it's kinda interesting and cool. But there is also the times it leaves me completely flustered and wondering. It brings more questions than answers.
There's a ton of stuff going on about out there that many very smart humans have no idea about and would never believe you. The Third Eye is a way to find out about all that stuff.
You may not like what you find either.
The world is an evil place. Do you want top know just how evil?? Why?

Do you really want to know everything you ever wanted to know?
Are you being careful what you wish for?
Ask yourself why you want to try opening the third eye before you do, if you do.
It's an interesting thing, but I think it can easily lead people to insanity.

therefore, if you try and open the third eye on drugs, it's vary dangerous.
Better to have it happen on accident or something, or go see a spiritual guide who may be able to help you.

The Christ Consciousness part is the best part.
Becoming one with god.
Oh, the love~! Not enough words on our planet to explain how good the love felt!
Unfathomable.

Imagine the best thing on earth you ever felt or did or had and multiply it by a number so large it's not a possible number on earth. Now you're getting close to how good it feels to become one with god. But it's still 100000000000000000000000000000000000 times better than I can explain or make jokes about.

Becoming one with god was the most love I ever felt anywhere in my life. I loved it.
I don't get much affection in real life so that was really really cool, for me.
Something out there loves the living shit out of us so hard you can't even imagine it.
I think my spirit's jaw was hanging wide open in amazement. lol

IT seemed like I saw people I knew inside god. He's made of souls, btw.
IT felt like they were welcoming me back like they knew me and I knew them. I Was elated to see these long lost people I didn't know from my current life. I didn't know the people and they didn't know me but it didn't matter. We were part of god. We were all extremely happy and loved.

Unspeakable unfathomableness. Tongue twisting tittliators.

Love you guys. Peace and love.

 

[RobotRipping]

I can relate to your experience of God, that universal affection, eternal love and becoming one. It was with an experience on 5-meo-dmt and also sometimes on high dose DXM.

I've experienced the very things you are talking about but after years i have felt that they were a result of mania or psychosis and i can't really say whether it was all real or i just went crazy or if there's even a difference. I consistently have strange experiences of leaving my body and having lucid dreams, waking up paralyzed and hearing strange things like people talking in rooms from miles away (while out of body, not in waking life).

Last time i had an out of body experience, after a little bit it turned into a lucid dream. In the dream i tried using computers and gathering email addresses and passwords so that i could go back when i was awake to test them. I forgot the addresses but if i really wanted to i could do it again i'm sure. Would they have worked? probably not but if they did work i think i'd end up losing my shit lol.

What i'd like to hear is how this awakening has affected you. What did it show you? How were things evil? what didn't you know before that you realized? What have you asked for and what was the answer? I've been very spiritual my whole life and very skeptical as well. My father had a therapist who was big into this stuff and worked on channeling with him, awakening his chakras and all sorts of stuff i can't remember. The channeling however was extremely profound and either by coincidence or not, he got what he asked for.

I'm genuinely interested in all of this and your experiences. There is this little part of me that doubts it all though, sees it as some way to make meaningful our absurd little existence. When i had that psychotic break it felt so magical, so powerful, mystical, everything was connected and had meaning, it all came together. Realizing the cold hard nature of reality after this sucked and it's kind of been that way ever since with the odd psychedelic experience breaking it up.

 

[eye_wide_open]

What i'd like to hear is how this awakening has affected you. What did it show you? How were things evil? what didn't you know before that you realized? What have you asked for and what was the answer? I've been very spiritual my whole life and very skeptical as well. My father had a therapist who was big into this stuff and worked on channeling with him, awakening his chakras and all sorts of stuff i can't remember. The channeling however was extremely profound and either by coincidence or not, he got what he asked for.

I'll be back after I rest up to answer that with paragraphs. lol
I really need to write a novel. I've written a short one over and over again around here.
I'll try and keep it short for ya and just get the important stuff. lol
Tomorrow sometime. Now, time for rest.

If I survive long enough, I'll have a book available eventually to those who want it.
Free. When I move state, I will be in the perfect atmosphere to begin writing.
Too much going on right now. SoCal is a bit on the hustle side.

 

[eye_wide_open]

What i'd like to hear is how this awakening has affected you.

IT has effected me negatively and positively.
Everyone was saying I Was crazy, and I thought I almost might be for a minute there.
But then I realized not many people know what I went through, so of course, they are going to say what I was trying to convey is crazy. I know I'm not crazy, and now I've even been evaluated for sanity while in the hospital for bath salts and MXE use, so I know I'm not insane. I'm perfectly normal sanity wise... besides some painful anxiety attacks from too much drug use and a kidney problem.

Positively,
it embraced everything I knew deep down in my heart since I was born and raised. It confirmed all the beliefs and feelings I was having were true, and why. One thing is did positively change about me was that I Was completely anti-religious because of my upbringing. I hated anything to do with god or church with a HUGE passion. I was forced to go to church by my step father. My mother would pay me $5 to go just to shut up and make my step father happy and go to church.
I Would always take the $5 and ditch church and go smoke weed. Fuck being forced to do anything... right?!

Well, now I am about 100% certain there is a god. I know why people think they became or are god, too.
I do not think I am god. I may have thought I was a prophet at one point, and that's still up for depate, depending on how you see it. But I realize, talking like that is insane. I can't walk around society telling them I'm a prophet of god.
That's just not going to work. lol!

I believe I may not be deserving enough to be a prophet of god.
Rather, I'm just telling you what he told me to say. I'm more like a fuckin' broken puppet on a stick.
Just echoing a transmission that we should all know.

I believe the third eye may have freed me. I have always been the free soul type, but now I really know what it means to be free. I see all the people in chains like zombies latched on their habits focused dead ahead.
That is not me anymore. I can see around the zombies. I am free of being locked in. I'm out of the invisible cage.
In this sense, I've never felt more alive.

What did it show you?

It showed me images and feelings. Things you can't relay with words.
IT showed me colors, it touched me with things I can't describe, I became one with energies so great I can't explain them,
I became one with a cloud comprised of souls that told me it was what we refer to as "god". It's so much more that god, though.

Not only that, but it showed me things in our terms. It showed me a massive comet hitting earth and killing everything in the time of the dinosaurs. It showed me there is beings who have control over these things and can steer them and change earth when they want. It showed me they did it before and will again.

It showed me Jesus Christ really existed. Weather or not he was Jesus Christ, or the famous prophet from (enter your favorite religion here), It happened. They all refer to the same guy who was here talking to us about god one point and we fuckin' killed him. It showed me parts of the bible are true. It also told me parts of the bible are made up and wrong, to deter us from the truth of what really happened to to take our money.

IT showed me alcohol and cigarettes are part of the plan to keep you all zombies and tax you for life while you slave away for money, which is paper and rules your world and can take your life, house and food. Yet, it's paper.

It showed me that we let everyone suffer all day yet have the technology to stop it all.

It told me about the NWO and that they are real and I need to watch out for "an event".
It told me to prepare.

IT told me I can't know when. IT told me "in your lifetime". So I will be alive to see this event.
(little does "it" know I've almost died on drugs a few times now lol)

It told me I can become a god. It told me a piece of god is in me. It told me we are all gods. We are all divine.
We all have a piece of god in us. God is comprised of us. We are life force. God is life force.
People who deserve it will feel it some day.

How were things evil?

IT showed me all the evils of the world, and begged me to come to you all about what happened to me so that you can all heed warning too.

This is evil to me, because when I try to do this, you all think I'm crazy.
I'm lucky they haven't locked me up in a ward yet, but I'm not insane, so that would be pointless.
People describe these same exact experiences, without drugs, in the NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCES forum.
I think, when we get so fucking high we almost die... we get to go see god and try to be god and become one with god.. .etc etc etc. Perfectly understandable to me. That's because I'm perfectly open minded.
I accept you for who you are while you turn me away. I'm not racist. I'll try anything once. I Want peace, I want crime to stop. I wonder why people beat each other, I'm a pacifist. I don't understand the arguing and divorce and kids with no fathers or mothers. I Want things that are right for the entire world. I can see that it's possible, but we ignore doing it.

The third eye has shown me that even though very special, the human race is for now a lost cause. We have much more potential and we're brainwashed and ignoring it.
We basically almost have "super powers", in a way.
But, you're not allowed to believe that because of your conditioning.

what didn't you know before that you realized?

I made a trip report that has some of the details on it, but not all of them, because I was high as a kite and possibly out of body while trying to record it.

Like I Said before, I Realized the existance of a supreme being comprised of life force.

I also realized aliens exist, and are also driven by life force.
There is more than one species.

I Realized that whatever happened to get the pyramids there is hidden from us, and has something to do with other than things were were told in school. I realized we were lied to about a good many things and brainwashed in school.
We've been majorly diss-informed about many things in life to purposely stunt us from coming to any form of power and regain control.

I realized so many more things it's ridiculous. I can't get them all down here. If you want more info, go researching my posts. I've wrote all this over and over and over again and keep getting shot down by people who hate on me for explaining my experiences. I don't give a shit though. I do it anyway.

What have you asked for and what was the answer?

I forgot already. It's in the one trip report. Some of it.
I can't remember it all by now. Look up "the eye opening and the cosmic energy" or something like that.
Or just use the button by my name to look up my created posts, and look for my crazy trip reports.
I don't get it all down in the trip reports though, that's the only problem. There's so much more left out.. as it happens.

I've been very spiritual my whole life and very skeptical as well. My father had a therapist who was big into this stuff and worked on channeling with him, awakening his chakras and all sorts of stuff i can't remember. The channeling however was extremely profound and either by coincidence or not, he got what he asked for.

I was always extremely anti-spiritual and hated religion because my step father took me to churches with fucking WEIRDOS who "spoke in tongues" and put their hands on me and splashed me with holy water until I finally freaked out and pushed them all away and ran out of the building cussing and yelling at them. They must have thought I Was possessed. lol!

fuck churches all the way. BRainwashing. Just like your television. Stay the fuck away from that thing.

But know that there is a real supreme being. I conversed and became one with it for a short while before it chose to send me back instead of take my life when I had a NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE that opened my third eye.

IF you want to find somebody to talk to who believes this shit and won't sit here and call you crazy for what you may or may not have experienced that you want to get off your chest, you have found the right guy.

They get annoyed with us type here quickly it seems so feel free to go to PM if they boot us off here for talking like weirdos when it's really stuff that's just too far over their heads because they haven't hit this level yet. If they did, they're too scared to talk about it or don't understand it exactly. It's not easy to understand.

Plain and fukin' simple.

If it ever happens to you, though, you WILL KNOW IT FOR SURE.
It will tell you it happened to you! lol, quite literally!
I knew I was using and conversing with the third eye when it happened.
Fucking amazing.

I even called it a "she" on my recordings just like I found out yesterday the eastern dudes call it.
Just one more stitch of proof, for me. The third eye is as real as the keyboard I'm using to type this to you. The only problem is, this keyboard isn't fully capable of describing it.

 

[eye_wide_open]

You make no sense to me so... yeah. lol
I can believe what I want.

There's plenty of illusions.

You telling me Houdini didn't trick people? Cause you're wrong. Might be int he wrong thread too.

I don't understand how people who don't like to hear this insist on reading and disagreeing with it.

If I sat around reading shit I didn't agree with all day where would I be? Annoyed?
Well that's no fuggin' fun now is it?

If you see small black squares in between the big black squares..
Illusions exist.

 

[eye_wide_open]

There's a difference between him and I though.

He was told he's gonna be somebody special.

I did too many drugs and found out the hard way.
Nobody wants to listen to a "Bath Salts and MXE weirdo".
I don't think I'm any more special than you and anyone else here.
I don't need a show or fame or attention or people telling me I'm crazy, either.

IF they make fun of him, watch what they do to me.
People in this forum cannot grasp the concept. How will the rest of the world?

Also, my case is drug related, so I chose to post it here.
I'm sure sooner or later they'll be sick of me.

I try to do this in a manner that's not quit so offensive. All I'm doing is reporting the messages I received on drugs.
I don't know how else to explain to you guys what happened to me on drugs. I'm sorry if it's pissing people off. I Feel like here is the right place to post it. To warn you guys.
I can't help it if you dont' want to listen.

I'm mostly trying to warn you not to do to much of the drugs I did and get third eye shit going on like me. lol

The NEAR DEATH Experiences forums are a good place to talk about it too.
Those people dont' shun me because they've almost died or have died before and have the same experiences as me without any drugs.

People would believe them more than me. Those people where proved dead on the operating table and came back.. etc etc.
Same thing happened to me, I was just at home alone instead of with a doctor on an EKG.
Aliens or god defibbed me back to life.

to be perfectly honest, I think I might have said something about a "godhead" in my trip report when this happened to me. I think.. it sounds very familiar. Mybe I called it a wowhead. I'm not sure, I forget.

 

[eye_wide_open]

Aliens do exist, and are in cooperation with our government.
They trade things. Each has their own hidden agendas as well.

[Although I disagree with your explanations; as being language-bound concepts!
Here: everyone likes this guy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CfNt-ZIqYEU]

"This is a real failure of science"- Terrence McKenna"

Been saying that for a while. hehehe

"science has undercut itself and now exists in a state of unrecognized crisis that hopefully the psychedallic experience will exacerbate to the point where this will arrive on the plate of every experimentalist and observer of nature.

and people think Terrance sounds crazy.
That's because they don't have the doors unlocked to listen and understand.
The man is genius.

You can't force the deaf to hear, Seed to sprout, and so on.
They have to want to understand it to listen and learn.

All this is on the plate of everyone I know.
They can do with it as they please.

I don't want to control people. I want to offer an alternative.
If you have the time to listen to my bullshit that came from seemingly nowhere through my head transcommunication device.

 

[eye_wide_open]

THIS ONE... helps my theories.
.http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=kxL6Hd-xA5c&feature=fvwp

You are a divine being, above the angels. Like a brother of god

We are not fallen beings

"You come from the realms of unimaginable power and life, and you will return to those realms"

-Terrence

I Was saying it before I found those videos. Just found that now..

So where do you think Terrence and I got it?

Who you think we talked to, to find this info?

You telling me, Terrance and I both came up with this in our minds?
I don't buy that.

We connected to something external.

He used shrooms and Deem. I used MXE. Sometimes Deem and shroom too. IT opened us to the universe of information.
Terrence himself says we are like brothers of god. Higher than angels.
If you can't take it from me, listen to him.

PS...
Aliens=angels.

It seems Terrences' main issues is you can speak things into existence.
Mine is that god really does exist in one form or another, along with other external beings.

 

[eye_wide_open]

"Crazy is what you make of it" - EWO

I believe the aliens are real. As well as a massive life force god, in some form or another.

I know I say this all the time but it kinda looks like a nebula full of souls.

Maybe I'll try to draw it one day.

Some people call it "the tree of life" and depict it as a tree in a big rainbow sphere.
Some say, it is eden.
Like this...

I saw it a bit different. To me it looked like a rainbow cloud full of souls.

I believe this artists rendition and what I saw are referring of the same thing.

you might see I fail to understand duality. It's a concept I haven't looked up, because I haven't felt it. What I felt on drugs is that we are all one. And I had a third eye opening event that gave me lots of information. We joked back and fourth.

 

[eye_wide_open]

Ok, let's say that aliens are real

BINGO! There we go! Now was that so hard?
Some people in existance don't even possess the "what if" feature in their life or way of thinking. Amazing, isn't it?!
Must be boring be told everything is the way it is by someone you can't even see but controls everything you do.
I.e. "The man!"

- it is still impossible to communicate with them in any meaningful way; just as it is impossible for us to communicate with any other species on the face of this earth in a meaningful way. Would you agree with that?

No, I do not agree with that.
I believe I have communicated with god or aliens and received meaning from it. But that's just me.
It actually happened to mean quite a bit to me, to be honest. lol

you are also saying the exact opposite. It just depends on how the reader reads your comments. To understand this is to be free from the ties of language based concepts, but "you can't force a seed to sprout"! (Turned the tables on you there!!!)

I Can fathom this. Most times people think I mean the exact opposite of what I do..
Makes perfect sense to me why communication is so hard from one human to another, let alone beings in other dimensions.
I was only able to do that with any effect one time in my entire 30 years.

Well, I guess there was the aliens on smoked DMT also, but that didn't seem to have half the meaning of the space god ride.

BTW, that was 10 minutes of some pretty pictures.
I could assume a lot of that is made by the imagination, and possibly some of it is even renditions of what one perceives to be real things. Who am I to say, I haven't spoken to the artist. I don't know what he did to come up with such things. But it's quite clear I believe there is a higher level than smoked DMT. I don't know that's possible for sure though.

Although, I contacted the aliens on DMT and MXE both. But on DMT it was rather quick and meaningless. When I broke through for hours on MXE and kept redosing in the hole, it was a whole ;nother story.

If I saw things like your link on DMT, I wouldn't be scared of it.
I get something much much more intense than that.

 

[eye_wide_open]

Conversing with and being repaired by aliens on DMT isn't getting smashed enough on it?

Now you try: what if language was meaningless? Where are your concepts of god, oneness, and infinity now, without the words???!!!

If language was meaningless, I'd still have feelings and body language.
I'd still be able to tap the third eye, too. So, I'd still know god.
It was a feeling and images or immersed in another reality. Not words.

I'm just forced to try to explain it with words because nobody can read my mind.
If they could, they'd believe me.

I wouldn't mind being hypnotized and recorded, to see what you guys could probe me of.
Surely speaking with my subconscious could make things a bit more clear.
but, I'd only agree to do so on a voluntary basis.
If this was forced on me, it may not work.

 

[eye_wide_open]

That's good and all,
But I was asked to indulge, and did.
Some people here want to hear this stuff.
Let them decide for themselves.
If they can't understand, then let them take it wrong.
They are free to perceive what they will.
I have the best of intentions.

What meaningful exchange could I have with a tree? How can I ever know the world that a tree inhabits? We are surrounded with millions of alien species and we have achieved meaningful communication with none of them. Perhaps one could say that we have achieved some semblance of communication with a dog, or a cat, but that extends only so far as to give them food. If we as a species are really so smart then why have we not achieved inter-species communication? Because it is impossible - show an ant an iphone and it means nothing to it.

Hmmm,
You have much more work to do my friend.
I can feel nature when I walk through it. The trees and rocks and water and air have spirit.
I bring piles of trash home with me when I go fishing.
I Catch a fish using an artificial lure, so the fish doesn't swallow the lure.
I cu the barbs off the hooks so it slips right out of the fish's lip.
I kiss the fish, and I let him/her free to play another day.
I hike to Mt. Whitney, alone, because all my friends are pansies, and spends weeks in nature trying to climb the highest mountain in California. I don't make it to the top at 14,500'... but I don't care. I tried, and I made it to 12,000'. And I went, and everyone stayed home like the pansies they are because they can't open their mind to what is outside the gate. I stay alone nights in the woods by my self wondering what more is out there. What more I can conquer.
How much more I can show the world I lived it up to the fullest while I Was here instead of slaved away for nothing.

Stay connected to the TV's then. Stay feeding what you are forced. It's your choice. Nobody has to listen to what I say. You'd be surprised, I'm asked to spill the beans more often than not.
People may get something out of me and people may think I'm a quack. I Suppose that's the fun part now..
seeing where all this gets me.

Who the hell knows.

For somebody who used to be who I was,
I think, minus the health problems, I'm in a better mind frame now.
My sight/mind is crystal clear.

I'm much happier now, knowing that we aren't just some random anomaly in the entire shebang.

Every time I'm asked, I'm gonna keep throwing it on the table and seeing the reactions I get.

The best part is, I came up with this. Nobody told me. No church said I had to believe this.
This is something I figured out on my own. Nobody brainwashed me into this. Nobody offered to sell this to me. That's why I'm following along.

everytime I See another psychedallic video on youtube everyone of them confirms what I found out, too. It's not just me on the coattails of the subject.

I even just caught Terrence telling us we are equals with god. You were right here for that one. You've been hearing me say it for months. I had no idea he said that before. The fuckin' proof is right there.