Plus, since quitting and letting my brain equalize closer to normal, I feel more clear and connected to things... like my spirituality and connection to others and the environment is slowly coming back. I forgot what it felt like. .
Omg yes, the feeling of spiritual connection is better than any high anywhere. And i found even when the withdrawal was at it's worst at day 3, i was noticing smells and the feeling of the air outside, and even through such a horrible sickness you already feel more connected just because you're not numb. Also, kratom is weird that way. Tolerance goes down extremely slowly, I remember once a few years ago I waited 3 months for my tolerance to go down, and i took a dose and it felt like i just teleported back to the end of my last compulsive usage, dull effects and noticeable after effects even though it was just one dose. The mental part is worse? As long as it doesn't last more than a month, that would be tough if it did.
Drewbocop how'd your progress going? I always seem to pick up some kind of habit, somehow, over the last 10 years as well. i'm sure having been through deeper opiate withdrawal makes kratom withdrawal seem very doable, I hope you're doing well!