Howdy everyone,
I'll try to make this not too long but it's still kind of long. So Back in the beginning of February I was on an antibiotic known as Ciproflaxcin. On the 5th day I had a massive panic attack, I wasn't anxious or anything. My body and breathing just became very odd and next thing I knew I was freaking out and thought I was dying because I never knew anxiety. I've never suffered from anxiety or any mental issues in the past, I was stable and loving life. I read and found out there are many hate groups towards Cipro and its family medicine called fluoroquinolones. That they mess with GABA receptors or something. Since that initial attack I suffered from anxiety for roughly 3 weeks with a bunch of weird chest sensations, the typical anxiety chest burning and tightness that I had read about, went to a cardiologist and everything looked good. After 2 weeks of Xanax as needed and Prilosec, I was anxiety FREE for around a month or so. I once again felt on top of the world. My timeline may be skewed, I've been an absolute mess recently.
Until roughly the middle of April where I was peer pressured into taking a few hits off of a strain of marijuana called "Blue Cheese". I regret this so much. I was anxious after doing it and started pacing around but kept a level head until I had massive confusion. It was like my body was there but my mind wasn't. I repeatedly asked the same question 3 times in a row without even realizing it. It was like I was asleep, and then I snapped out of it. When I came to and realized I lost myself for a moment there, I freaked out. Full blown panic attack. For a week after that night I was bed ridden with anxiety, I couldn't move. I came to find out I was suffering from massive Depersonalization and Derealization induced from the marijuana after that night, everything seemed foggy and fake, like my vision lacked clarity or vividness and I was constantly zoning out. Things didn't seem real and sometimes I felt like I wasn't in my body. I also was getting frequent headaches on top of the head which I had never gotten before. I did have an MRI at this time and they said it looked good without contrast.
I ended up building a tolerance to my Xanax dosage of .25mg as needed that week after the marijuana and asked my GP to be switched to something else, where he prescribed Klonopin. (Screw this drug). I was given .5 mg to take daily, but it forcefully knocked me out so I split my dosage into .25 mg twice daily for roughly 3.5 weeks. My anxiety was gone while on it, but I occasionally got headaches on top of my head which would happen after taking the Klonopin. After 3.5 weeks I decided to come off Klonopin since I had beaten anxiety before and it was gone while on this medicine. I didn't wean myself off, and as a result, 2 days later I got POUNDING headaches all over my head and so much pressure in my head I thought it would burst. I had never felt like this ever before. I had extreme dizziness all day and had balance issues as well. I couldn't function. They never stopped, it was an all day thing. Then the neurological symptoms came in, I started getting nerve pains, tingles, burnings and now to this day, a little over a month after I stopped the klonopin, I still can't feel my right arm and that numbness intensifies depending on position.
Here I am now, doing much better but still messed up. I get occasional head pains, but mostly retain head pressure. When that head pressure intensifies, I get a little dizzy. I clench my jaw a lot too and grind teeth without realizing it. I do have chest pains and tightness that feel muscular, different from anxiety. I have had some rebound anxiety from these withdrawals, mainly because I occasionally get this extremely weird sensation at night.. The pressure in my temples intensifies and as it does, everything goes in slow motion visually. If you've ever seen how the screen is after getting hit by a grenade in Call of Duty, that's how my vision turns when I have these weird episodes. It's tunnel vision, slurred and delayed, and then my ear starts to ring. When I put on my glasses though, my perception changes. The weird sensations go away, it stops the episode, but my vision makes everything then look far out when I put them on.
I still suffer from Depersonalization and Derealization, so I'm still very disassociated although I do have my occasional good days. I still have head pressure which kinda gives me whiplash and dizziness when I have visual overload. My anxiety can appear in the middle of the day but it's super manageable for the most part. But it gets worse at night because I'm scared of having whatever the hell kind of episode that was, and it makes me a little nervous to go to sleep when my mental state and visual perception is disassociated right now on top of having limbs that are numb.. Makes me feel like I'm not in my own body at all.
I'm only 21 years old, I'm too young for this crap. Can anyone help? Tell me I'm not going crazy and that this will all be behind me soon or something? Advice? I've made so much damn progress through the withdrawals but mentally I'm still messed up a little, especially with this stupid ass DP/DR vision. I don't even have derealization thoughts anymore, it's all visual symptoms.
Thanks,
-Cody
I'll try to make this not too long but it's still kind of long. So Back in the beginning of February I was on an antibiotic known as Ciproflaxcin. On the 5th day I had a massive panic attack, I wasn't anxious or anything. My body and breathing just became very odd and next thing I knew I was freaking out and thought I was dying because I never knew anxiety. I've never suffered from anxiety or any mental issues in the past, I was stable and loving life. I read and found out there are many hate groups towards Cipro and its family medicine called fluoroquinolones. That they mess with GABA receptors or something. Since that initial attack I suffered from anxiety for roughly 3 weeks with a bunch of weird chest sensations, the typical anxiety chest burning and tightness that I had read about, went to a cardiologist and everything looked good. After 2 weeks of Xanax as needed and Prilosec, I was anxiety FREE for around a month or so. I once again felt on top of the world. My timeline may be skewed, I've been an absolute mess recently.
Until roughly the middle of April where I was peer pressured into taking a few hits off of a strain of marijuana called "Blue Cheese". I regret this so much. I was anxious after doing it and started pacing around but kept a level head until I had massive confusion. It was like my body was there but my mind wasn't. I repeatedly asked the same question 3 times in a row without even realizing it. It was like I was asleep, and then I snapped out of it. When I came to and realized I lost myself for a moment there, I freaked out. Full blown panic attack. For a week after that night I was bed ridden with anxiety, I couldn't move. I came to find out I was suffering from massive Depersonalization and Derealization induced from the marijuana after that night, everything seemed foggy and fake, like my vision lacked clarity or vividness and I was constantly zoning out. Things didn't seem real and sometimes I felt like I wasn't in my body. I also was getting frequent headaches on top of the head which I had never gotten before. I did have an MRI at this time and they said it looked good without contrast.
I ended up building a tolerance to my Xanax dosage of .25mg as needed that week after the marijuana and asked my GP to be switched to something else, where he prescribed Klonopin. (Screw this drug). I was given .5 mg to take daily, but it forcefully knocked me out so I split my dosage into .25 mg twice daily for roughly 3.5 weeks. My anxiety was gone while on it, but I occasionally got headaches on top of my head which would happen after taking the Klonopin. After 3.5 weeks I decided to come off Klonopin since I had beaten anxiety before and it was gone while on this medicine. I didn't wean myself off, and as a result, 2 days later I got POUNDING headaches all over my head and so much pressure in my head I thought it would burst. I had never felt like this ever before. I had extreme dizziness all day and had balance issues as well. I couldn't function. They never stopped, it was an all day thing. Then the neurological symptoms came in, I started getting nerve pains, tingles, burnings and now to this day, a little over a month after I stopped the klonopin, I still can't feel my right arm and that numbness intensifies depending on position.
Here I am now, doing much better but still messed up. I get occasional head pains, but mostly retain head pressure. When that head pressure intensifies, I get a little dizzy. I clench my jaw a lot too and grind teeth without realizing it. I do have chest pains and tightness that feel muscular, different from anxiety. I have had some rebound anxiety from these withdrawals, mainly because I occasionally get this extremely weird sensation at night.. The pressure in my temples intensifies and as it does, everything goes in slow motion visually. If you've ever seen how the screen is after getting hit by a grenade in Call of Duty, that's how my vision turns when I have these weird episodes. It's tunnel vision, slurred and delayed, and then my ear starts to ring. When I put on my glasses though, my perception changes. The weird sensations go away, it stops the episode, but my vision makes everything then look far out when I put them on.
I still suffer from Depersonalization and Derealization, so I'm still very disassociated although I do have my occasional good days. I still have head pressure which kinda gives me whiplash and dizziness when I have visual overload. My anxiety can appear in the middle of the day but it's super manageable for the most part. But it gets worse at night because I'm scared of having whatever the hell kind of episode that was, and it makes me a little nervous to go to sleep when my mental state and visual perception is disassociated right now on top of having limbs that are numb.. Makes me feel like I'm not in my own body at all.
I'm only 21 years old, I'm too young for this crap. Can anyone help? Tell me I'm not going crazy and that this will all be behind me soon or something? Advice? I've made so much damn progress through the withdrawals but mentally I'm still messed up a little, especially with this stupid ass DP/DR vision. I don't even have derealization thoughts anymore, it's all visual symptoms.
Thanks,
-Cody
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