Kinda Emptied

[tyranarus]

Yah so this is how broke my heart for the first time on acid i hate to be a downer but ive literally talked to no one about this since it happened months ago and its really still bothering me, essentially i have this friend will call him adam me and adams sister had a fairly large mutual attraction but i honestly have no fucking clue why nothing ever happened between us there was a lot of mixed signals and miscommunication but not to drag on that. In the end it had just taken to long for something to happen and then one day out of the blue when i was tripping on acid with 2 of my friends she just randomly texts my best friend asking him to come over and fuck. From there it just got worse while i was still tripping really hard we ended up going to her house and i ended up laying on the couch tripping out watching her grope my friend (who was in a relationship atm). nothing ever happened that night cause they got sketched out and i dont know if anything happened the next day i never asked either of them. Mind you this was honestly the first female i had felt any actual connection to and since this day i just feel drained i have lost so much of my usual happiness just based off the fact that all that shit had to happen while i was tripping and in a extremely fragile emotional state i just feel like the whole universe was screaming fuck you in my face, i just feel drained, emotionally broken, and find it hard to even try to get interested in other people i still think about her every day even though its just completely done. Im sorry if this is horribly worded i still find it hard to sum up what happened all i know is i feel fucking emotionally branded.

 

[Lunchboxor]

Well, let me tell you one thing besides the pain you feel, you lost your respect for her. Any and all respect you had for this girl is most likely gone after seeing her behave like a slut around your friends. Trust me, ive been in that situation before. Nothing good will come of any type of relations with her, besides being a friend(and try and distance yourself as her friend for a while, so you can heal) Hoes are hoes bro, she tried to get nasty with a dude who has a girl, thats a giant red light.

Dont stop thinking about her, and dont attempt to. Think about this for the next week, maybe two. Try and see why she had this rope around you, able to give you pain, and avoid allowing it from happening again untill AFTER your in a relationship with someone. You are like me, you wear your emotions on your sleeve. The amount of pain you describe sounds similiar to when my girlfriend of three years cheated on me, yours will be an easier quicker lesson then mine. Good luck, dont do drugs to get away from the pain, it never works.