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Trip, you are doing really well. You don't want to end up a 40 year old junkie like me, having pissed your whole life and youth down the toilet.
Get off it now, and have a life. Keep going!
 
I am not that far away from 40, i just celebrated my 35th birthday some days ago. Yesterday i bought two packs heroin (bad quality) and also used 30mg methadone, which makes me the most angry. Still i wake up and am in very bad shape today. I want to skip every opiate today, and go on subs tomorrow. I will continue the fight when the time is right. And this will be July, when i have completed my education.
Subutex is a big improvement compared to 100mg+ i.v. methadone and heroin. Still i am very disappointed.
 
Hang in there trip, you are trying, that is a big part, you have the desire, what do you mean when you say you woke up in bad shape, you mean withdrawl?? Can yout get on subs before you finish out school?? The sooner the better...
 
yes i can get on subs, i actually bought 8x8mg pills yesterday. I took 4 mg today but still feel bad. Today we had really good weather and i was still shivering and freezing, even the leg pain came back. I know i 'll be back on the methadone or dope soon enough. This makes my angry and sad for my girlfriend.
 
Sorry trip, take more sub, I know my tolerance was high and I needed a full 8mg just to get minimal relief, you have them, why suffer, hope you feel better soon.
 
I'm really glad that you are feeling the resolve to see this through. I'm glad that you survived your scare. What strategies do you have for when the immediate memory of the scare goes away? Get lots of support wherever you can.<3
 
It's terrifying... I've kicked methadone cold turkey before and I wouldntb wish it upon my worst enemy.... (well.... my ex mother-in-law could use some "humbling" but you know what I mean). Anyway, I'm on day 2 of no methadone and I still can't believe I'm even considering kicking dones again, but here I am.... Im just so tired. Tired of worrying about running out, tired of walking on egg shells around my done guy, deathly afraid that he will play one of his fucked up head games and cut me off.... tired of going and scoring some h when I'm low on dones. I can't do it anymore but I honestly can't imagine being happy or even functional without pills... every morning for 10 years, the first thing I've done is grabbed my pills to start me day. Anyone who has kicked methadone and has some advice, PLEASE! Your knowledge is more valuable than gold to me right now.. in fact it's priceless and could save my life.♡
 
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