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Bottleofsun,

Thank you ever so truly very much. Have you tried methadone in the past? It works for many people, but frankly I was miserable on it but to its credit it kept me away from heroin and my detox - although rather drawn out - was managable. If you have any questions about it I'll answer everything I can according to my experience.

Thank you once again for your kindly words of encouragement - I am without an absolute doubt going to plow through this next two weeks and reach that longed for milestone. I'm fucking done to death with it.

Enjoy your high, miss. Please do stay safe.
 
I've been done with it so many fucking times. When I've had long clean periods, it's always been there, missing that high. It never leaves me alone.
I function, chip and kick, but things have been so tough, this run turned into a mini habit. No doubt ill go back to just getting well, missing my rush, sick of copping, and want done with it.
But I'm not there yet.
Part of me wants to od and die. But not tonight. Tonight ill just enjoy my high and forget the pain
Stay strong, you sound determined. It won't be long before you are feeling well.
No, I've stayed away from methadone. But no long term option is viable now.
Try living with all this shit and not touching it. Hell.
 
Sending my love and support to you, Sun, and to you all, including newcomers to the thread :)

I've had a busy day so sorry I wasn't around.

I'll check in.

For now I hope you are OK in the present moment, breathing deeply.

Love and peace.
 
Love back, better. How are you today?
I'm breathing, trying to hold off getting high for a while.
 
Hey Bottle, I am glad you could find some relief. I hate to see suffering for ya right now. Hang in there.
 
Hello.I really want to try ecstasy but i dont know is it safe since i have a hormon disorder that my hipofisis does not make enough growth hormon.Im 17 years old btw i took half pill once nothing happened it was a pretty shitty pill so im interestet if any of you can help me and share your expirience.
 
Trance, look through the forums, find the one most appropriate for your drug, and post a new thread there hon.

Good luck. You will get more responses that way, instead of posting in an unrelated thread.

Peace.
 
Well, nice to meet you :)

A great place to start here is to go to the new members forum and introduce yourself, then read through some other forums a bit and acquaint yourself with the vibe.

Peace.
 
Trance,
Nice :)

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Getting back on track in this thread...

How are you hanging in there today, sun?

You are on my mind. I know you're torn.

You will make the right decision. You just need time to think. I hope you can find some help with maintenance honey.

Big hugs to you, no one deserves to struggle like this. God.

Love and peace.
 
He's still difficult, but I realised I still love him. I try to see the person I love and encourage them "out" over that snatching, shouting person.
I can't go on maintenance, they won't let him be cared for by someone known to be an addict, apparently.
I'm almost at an understanding about my use, with him.
I'm hanging on in there.
Trance, thanks for the laugh, this serious thread with people talking about caring for dying loved ones and their opiate issues, and you breeze in asking how to get high on Molly! Made me laugh so hard. Watch out, darlin, you are me at 17....
 
Big hugs to you better and bono.
My dearest friend and drug buddy od'd in front of me, died. Methadone and heroin...chasing the high. I swore then I'd never touch it. Now I need to and can't.
Endless, how's the kick going?
 
Well the new rules are I can't get high till late when he's sleeping.
It's like 3.30pm, I'm starting to get wds badly, and it's hellish. He holds my bag, I get it later.
I'm going to have to get a secret supply..and go back to hiding my habit.
This is the man who used to shoot anything and everything, and gave himself a stroke last run.
I love him. I've loved him a long time.
Deep breath.
I need to go on maintenance.
 
Wow, wow and wow! Someone likes to be in control. You got your work cut out. I would try maintainence, for now, I know you said you didn't want to get clean but it beats the alternative. You should be able to, and still care for him, what did you mean when you said "they " won't let you be on maintainence ? ? As far as I know your medical records are confidential. Do what you need to do to stay sane and strong right now. Youre in my thoughts, I don't pray but I am pulling for you. Fondly, bono.
 
Methadone mixed with thc is very good.
Bottleofsun said:
I wish I had some lyrica. I've been shooting 40mg a day. Oxy are evil, tolerance is a huge problem, worse than tar. I've got lope. I can do withdrawal, but can't live clean and sober.
Is there any high with methadone, or does it just get you well? I've stayed away from it, it seems like being handcuffed to the clinic. I know if I shoot dope on top, which I would, ill end up od'ing, like so many I've known.

I'm pathetic right now.
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His primary care won't write if there was a drug user in the house. Asked again and again and got him to sign saying there was not a user living at the address.
Yup Mr control...he has to be King.....of everything when he's speeding, and his brain has stuck there. Poor bastard.

I'm trying...he was so sweet, kind, funny, talented, crazy, adorable...bits of him shine thru.

I'm doing my best here. I'm dying, and need my shit. Bad enough with no rigs.

Methadone and pot...I'm not a fan of pot...but worth a try...
 
Oh, I got it now, because of all his scripts, ouch. That makes sense cause they wrote for so much, but, seriously, who would admit to that, anyway. Hang in there, you will figure out something, I used to hear people tell me that what I am doing will be rewarded someday, well, I am not a believer anymore, but in your case I do think and feel that you will be rewarded for your strength and perseverance . Sending you + vibes! Bono
 
I'm finding it hard to believe God loves me.
If I go for methadone she won't write for him.
It's ok, I prefer smack.
I'm a fucking saint believe me....
When I picked up his ms contin, dillies, and oxy I wept.
 
I got high, and immediately he woke up, picked on me for eating ice cream, and when I got upset he told me off for being upset.
Fuck this.
I'm very nicely high, and want to enjoy it.
I want to die. I can't leave him but can't live like this
 
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