One time. Thats all it was, one hit, one time. But apparently after all my experience in psychedelics, smoking weed is the one thing that can make me flip out. Ive read thats what can happen if you quit smoking and then try it again. Some people just freak out. Honest to god it was like i was on 45 mg 2C-I with the headspace of acid. Crazy CEVs. Crazy tachycardia. I llooked like a fool too. I went back to the high state where I think i know pretty much everything, so I was basically an arogant, high mess. Thats why I quit smoking weed in the first place.
It seems that one hit of a spliff caused a reawakening of the manic episode I had just spent 3 months trying to kill.
So the next day I began loading myself up on Zyprexa and got a friend to convince me to get rid of all the drugs I have. So I hand off a lot of moneys worth of RC's to another friend, and that leaves me here. Im basically trying to keep active and enjoy being sober for a while. Im even going to Charleston SC with a group from my school.
But man its so disappointing, I feel like im stuck in the same place I was 3 months ago.
It seems that one hit of a spliff caused a reawakening of the manic episode I had just spent 3 months trying to kill.
So the next day I began loading myself up on Zyprexa and got a friend to convince me to get rid of all the drugs I have. So I hand off a lot of moneys worth of RC's to another friend, and that leaves me here. Im basically trying to keep active and enjoy being sober for a while. Im even going to Charleston SC with a group from my school.
But man its so disappointing, I feel like im stuck in the same place I was 3 months ago.