kicking pills with a broken ankle.

[withlove]

i just need to vent.

im kicking and i broke my ankle.

the percs i was on made me kinda crazy so im doing a super duper rapid taper which almost isnt a taper just cut my dose 75-80% and took it in morphine equivalent when they set my ankle which they gave me because that fucking sucks. ( which was at 20 hours out after waiting all day in the hospy not on meds)

i feel like garbage and i have to use crutches which is hard enough.

fucking opiates.
i managed to take them for the last 4 years and never get dependant til the last 3 months when my pain flared up huge and i made a switch to percs which really did me in.


i can do this i can do this i can do this.

 

[Sadie]

yes you can do it love. Wounds heal and you sound like you're in the right frame of mind not to let it take over. You'll be okay but you've always got support when ever you need it.

I'm guessing you must live in the states. As an American living in the uk I can say pain meds suck here. I've broken each ankle ( not at the same time thankfully ) and managed to lob the tip of my middle finger off. Pain meds I was given...... coco's

Had my wisdom teeth removed in bootcamp back home, got vicodine.
Had a biopsy when pregnant and was given percocet ( didn't take it though) given to me by US medics.

Pain is pain, sort your pain out but just be careful. Seems you already know that though....

Get better soon xxx

 

[Moreaux]

You got this! It sucks but it will get better, just give it time. Are you open to maintenance therapy or postponing a rapid taper as right now doesn't seem the best time given your ankle. Can you postpone for a week or two? You're in legitimate pain and your body needs to heal, and putting yourself into a withdrawal is probably going to delay the healing time for your ankle. You ankle is an essential part of the body, you want it to heal properly. You should focus on taking it easy, eating healthy fresh whole foods and getting proper sleep. I wish you a speedy recovery!

 

[withlove]

im 49 hours out now. its not too bad.
the headache is honestly the worst part.
i have a shit ton of pills if want to taper i can but im the kind of person whos done when they are done and i just hit a wall.
the percocet was making me very anxious and dissociative. it stopped completely even before 24 hours after the last dose of them so there is no way ill touch them again, i was getting really weird.
i just wanna be sober for a bit. i'll likely end up back to using morphine when my pain (chronic) get out of control but after what the percs did to my head i just really need to be chemical free for a bit.



i'm in canada, i have chronic pain thats well documented so i have prescribed meds.