metalman343
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 14, 2015
- Messages
- 23
Hi everyone, this is my first post here. The reason i felt compelled to post about this is because after searching the internet for hours i have not found a case as bad as mine. When I say I had a very large fentanyl habit, I really do mean it. I was doing about a 1g of Acetyl Fent in 2-3 days. Or 100mg of Fentanyl HCL in 2-3 days. I know these amounts sound ridiculous to some of you but trust me, It happened to me. The reason being is I am able to get a steady supply of this stuff in powder form for very cheap. Just to give you an idea, on the days that i would run out of fent, even 25 bags of dope snorted wouldn't completely make me feel fine. I could have probably done 50 bags in one sitting and still not nod. That is how bad my tolerance had gotten from fentanyl. So this summer in a month i have to go to another country far away for 2 weeks of vacation. No way in hell im bringing fent with me. So i decided to get on suboxone yesterday. I have extensive experience with subs and good amount of scientific knowledge. I love researching about drugs and their mechanism of action. I knew i was going to need a very high dose of sub. And btw i do know that less is more with sub but you have to understand how high my tolerance is. Back in the day when I was doing just dope, 4mg of sub was plenty to induce. So on sunday nigh i did my final sprays of fent solution. This was after a week taper to get to half my regular dose of fent. Monday around noon i was ready for the sub. Definitely 26 on the cows score. I have had Precip WD before and believe me it is no fun. So at first i took 2mg, 30 mins later i did not feel any worse. maybe slightly better. So I knew that I could take more now. So I took another 6mg, waited 30 mins. felt just mildly better. Now im up at 8mg. I took another whole 8mg strip around 2pm, and that somewhat did the trick. My physical symptoms went to about 40%. Still definitely not normal. So thru-out the day i kept dosing 2mg as i need until i felt my leg cramps subside at 24mg total. I was actually able to get 30 mins of sleep here and there last night. That is a first for me on the first day of subs. Now it tuesday and my 2nd day of subs. I had to go to work today. It was very hard to get outta bed. I did another 8mg thru-out the early morning hours. and before work I took another 4mg at 8am. Now im sitting here with probably about 32mg of sub in my system. Thats the total amount I have taken since noon yesterday. I still have light chills and back ache. Absolutely no motivation. Cant even bend over to tie my shoes. Slight stomach pains also. Zero appetite. Im just sipping water to stay hydrated. This is the first time subs did not make me feel practically 100%. In the past i felt totally normal when i went on subs. So I know how bad my habit of fent had become. Im posting this to share in case there are others like me out there with insanely huge habits. I feel like when i was on fent, my spit could have been enough to OD an opiate naive person. lol. I know this is no joke. But Im trying to take it lightly as i feel horrible right now. Im ready to quit. Last summer I was completely clean for 3 months before I relapsed so this time hopefully I will quit and not relapse again as I now know to never again do the "just one dose wont do anything" bullshit. That sucks me back in every time. Admins, please move this to the correct forums if i screwed up. Thanks for reading.