Kicking drugs but Amphetamine has this at a stand still

[Tony Williams]

Ok, I made it 2weeks without any drugs bar Methadone script. Which is the very first time ever. Before this I was on:

Benzos, Opitates, Pregabalin, Ethylphenadate, GBL and always just a combo really of drugs. So I went without Ethylphenadate (2-3yr daily) and did well however I've began buying Amphetamines. I don't understand what I get from them, motivation? but I am spending a fair bit on em every few days. Honestly I could think I wanted to be fucked day-in day-out but deep down I think it's underlying.

I have alot of trouble concentrating and mainly with motivation. The fact I go put my way and spend money I barely have - baffles me. At least it's semi on and semi off unlike having unlimited ethylphenadate there. Without Amphetamine, I'd be near drug free. I am even tapering my Methadone 60mg>55mg next week!!

I crave them mostly when I am in the house also. I can be fine then I hammer 'em and think - why'd I not of stayed sober? I think this everytime and never learn.

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey Tony.. congratulations on the two weeks.

 

[Maya]

Yay Tony! That's great! keep it up man! I did slip last Thurs too and learned a very important lesson yet again so I am with you there bud

 

[RobotRipping]

Amps are awful in that regard. Eventually the pros outweigh the con's and ull quit. I don't think anything short of death would have stopped me. I have ADHD but my symptoms are better without stims. If a Dr gave me a script now I'd be in trouble after a month clean. I Ruined stims for myself tho so I don't really crave them. I was a polydrug addict too stims benzos opiates as much as possible.

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

Maybe you should see a doctor about possible underlying issues that you may have.

There are drugs which increase motivation which aren't classified as stimulants. One that comes to mind is bupropion. Some are able to stabilize their stimulant dosage, but once abused they are hard to respect again. From what I read, you don't sound like you actually need it.

 

[gr33n3y3z]

^^ so true my amps are so fucked, my scripts last me ten days and I have no ampy feeling. 8)

 

[Eveleivibe]

Hiya Tony Williams,

Well done on two weeks and best of luck with your recovery.

Evey

 

[tocooperate]

Maybe you should see a doctor about possible underlying issues that you may have.

There are drugs which increase motivation which aren't classified as stimulants. One that comes to mind is bupropion. Some are able to stabilize their stimulant dosage, but once abused they are hard to respect again. From what I read, you don't sound like you actually need it.

Yes. It's the fact you cannot respect the substance for its rightful purpose any longer, well put.