i've tried ketamine a few times before, but most of the times it was just one of a multiplicity of powders to go up my nose, and thus i was never able to isolate the effects of the ketamine amongst the effects of the others.
after a recent two bump attempt which did not result in the level of effect i was after, i got serious...
armed with an undisclosed amount of ketamine which had recently been stolen from a hospital and boiled down into a powder, myself and two others dimmed the lights and racked up...
i'm about 60kg, male, 18 years old, light build, not on any medication and in good health. i'm fairly experienced with psychadelics & drugs in general... the ketamine was not cut.
00:00 - i snort roughly 50mg of ketamine. it burnt like all hell and the drip tasted like shit. got a bit of a prep-talk from the more experienced user.
10mins - feeling very drunk, as if i have had 4 beers. snort 50mg more.
15mins - my vision lags slightly as i look around. things such as the cat hold much more interest than normal for me. i decide that the room has gained an eerie atmosphere.
25mins - realise i had been staring at a winamp plug in for 10 minutes. "a k-hole?" i wonder... obviously not, i hadn't had enough ketamine and was not feeling very dissociated by that point. i was able to make my way to the bathroom without making much noise. was glad to see that ketamine doesn't do to penises what amphetamines do...
30mins - time to go for the k-hole. i rail about 100mg. sit back and grimace from the pain, then when the pain passes, grimace from the drip.
40mins - i did not expect ketamine to be as strong as it is. we were railing pure stuff and i'm a light weight, so that probably played a part in it... delighted with the intensity, i sat back and got lost in a winamp plugin.
1hr - i saw movement in the mirror and heard the others talking... i look away from the plugin feeling like i just woke up. the other two are silent. i look around the room. everything appeared slightly different in the room i was in, but past saying "i took ketamine", i was stumped as to why. i note that ketamine is a very inverted drug. i thought deeply about my life, but naturally the thoughts were altered, and at times bizzare. an example of the many thoughts i had, and how they were affected by the drug: i think about my workplace... an image slides into my head, it looks like a photo taken on a 45 degree angle of the main room at work. the walls assume slightly different dimensions, as do the patterns on the carpet. the colours are all darker than in reality too.
thinking slightly philosophically, i realised at this point that my ego was long gone. i smile and consult the others.
1hr10mins - offered another line which had to be at least 100mg. at this point i attempted to get up from the spot i'd been in for the last 30 minutes. i fall back down. taking great care and using all the coordination i could muster, i moved the two meters to the line. railing half of it, i say i'll have the other half if this doesn't put me in a k-hole. i lie on the bed.
1hr20mins - lying between the other two people on the bed. we're all silent and still. pink floyd comes on. staring at the lampshade above the bed, i felt as if it was coming toward me, and the rest of the room moving away... no one moves, nor makes a sound. i then lost all remaining motor control of my body. i could have moved if i had to, but there was nothing that could happen which would result in that. i felt tingles in my body, like mild mdma body rushes, but with a much heavier feeling to them. i was satisfactorily in a k-hole. the audio hallucinations worked in synergy with the music... i felt as if i was spinning round and round in space, my movement somehow guided by the music and the pulses i felt moving down my body (the tingly rushes). i felt myself melt into the bed. i became one with it. my mind filling it's mass, my mind taking over it. my body unimportant. branching off from the bed, i felt myself spilling into the other objects around the room. gradually, i become one consciousness with the entire world. i have no idea how long this took, but i could see/imagine my consciousness spilling into landmark objects from across the world. i didn't need my body - i was one with everything. this was an intense feeling/thought/belief... but it soon died, and i continued through a kelidoscope of my own thoughts for some time...
1hr45mins - i had come out of the k-hole at some stage, but felt no desire to move. i was still inebriated beyond the point of coherent movement anyway. we begun reflecting upon what we'd just seen, thought and felt. i couldn't put sentences together very well, and thus i simply listened to the others.
2hrs - i get up from the bed and move to a chair. i feel like i'm coming down off acid and back to reality. the room looks different to normal, but once again i can't say how. sit around listening to the others talk and thinking about odd things.
2hrs30mins - i am pretty much back to baseline. i have motor control over my body, and i can speak coherently. my head is feeling very fuzzy. i feel tired, warm and content in light of the very deep, personal and psychological trip i've just had. we discuss things, laugh about it, "ohh" and "ahhh" at each others insights and such... i feel a little sick.
3hrs15mins - i get home after a 15 minute drive. no, i was not behind the wheel. everything still looks weird. i feel exactly like i've just come down off acid.
i was alseep by 3.30.
sorry about how dumb i was when writing this, i think i changed tense about 5 times.
all in all, an extremely powerful, psychadelic and satisfying experience. i was glad that i only had a little nausea, and it was at the end anyway. i thought ketamine was a simple anaesthetic... i suppose that was my reminder that it's a dissociative anaesthetic, and thus has thoroughly enjoyable effects.
after a recent two bump attempt which did not result in the level of effect i was after, i got serious...
armed with an undisclosed amount of ketamine which had recently been stolen from a hospital and boiled down into a powder, myself and two others dimmed the lights and racked up...
i'm about 60kg, male, 18 years old, light build, not on any medication and in good health. i'm fairly experienced with psychadelics & drugs in general... the ketamine was not cut.
00:00 - i snort roughly 50mg of ketamine. it burnt like all hell and the drip tasted like shit. got a bit of a prep-talk from the more experienced user.
10mins - feeling very drunk, as if i have had 4 beers. snort 50mg more.
15mins - my vision lags slightly as i look around. things such as the cat hold much more interest than normal for me. i decide that the room has gained an eerie atmosphere.
25mins - realise i had been staring at a winamp plug in for 10 minutes. "a k-hole?" i wonder... obviously not, i hadn't had enough ketamine and was not feeling very dissociated by that point. i was able to make my way to the bathroom without making much noise. was glad to see that ketamine doesn't do to penises what amphetamines do...
30mins - time to go for the k-hole. i rail about 100mg. sit back and grimace from the pain, then when the pain passes, grimace from the drip.
40mins - i did not expect ketamine to be as strong as it is. we were railing pure stuff and i'm a light weight, so that probably played a part in it... delighted with the intensity, i sat back and got lost in a winamp plugin.
1hr - i saw movement in the mirror and heard the others talking... i look away from the plugin feeling like i just woke up. the other two are silent. i look around the room. everything appeared slightly different in the room i was in, but past saying "i took ketamine", i was stumped as to why. i note that ketamine is a very inverted drug. i thought deeply about my life, but naturally the thoughts were altered, and at times bizzare. an example of the many thoughts i had, and how they were affected by the drug: i think about my workplace... an image slides into my head, it looks like a photo taken on a 45 degree angle of the main room at work. the walls assume slightly different dimensions, as do the patterns on the carpet. the colours are all darker than in reality too.
thinking slightly philosophically, i realised at this point that my ego was long gone. i smile and consult the others.
1hr10mins - offered another line which had to be at least 100mg. at this point i attempted to get up from the spot i'd been in for the last 30 minutes. i fall back down. taking great care and using all the coordination i could muster, i moved the two meters to the line. railing half of it, i say i'll have the other half if this doesn't put me in a k-hole. i lie on the bed.
1hr20mins - lying between the other two people on the bed. we're all silent and still. pink floyd comes on. staring at the lampshade above the bed, i felt as if it was coming toward me, and the rest of the room moving away... no one moves, nor makes a sound. i then lost all remaining motor control of my body. i could have moved if i had to, but there was nothing that could happen which would result in that. i felt tingles in my body, like mild mdma body rushes, but with a much heavier feeling to them. i was satisfactorily in a k-hole. the audio hallucinations worked in synergy with the music... i felt as if i was spinning round and round in space, my movement somehow guided by the music and the pulses i felt moving down my body (the tingly rushes). i felt myself melt into the bed. i became one with it. my mind filling it's mass, my mind taking over it. my body unimportant. branching off from the bed, i felt myself spilling into the other objects around the room. gradually, i become one consciousness with the entire world. i have no idea how long this took, but i could see/imagine my consciousness spilling into landmark objects from across the world. i didn't need my body - i was one with everything. this was an intense feeling/thought/belief... but it soon died, and i continued through a kelidoscope of my own thoughts for some time...
1hr45mins - i had come out of the k-hole at some stage, but felt no desire to move. i was still inebriated beyond the point of coherent movement anyway. we begun reflecting upon what we'd just seen, thought and felt. i couldn't put sentences together very well, and thus i simply listened to the others.
2hrs - i get up from the bed and move to a chair. i feel like i'm coming down off acid and back to reality. the room looks different to normal, but once again i can't say how. sit around listening to the others talk and thinking about odd things.
2hrs30mins - i am pretty much back to baseline. i have motor control over my body, and i can speak coherently. my head is feeling very fuzzy. i feel tired, warm and content in light of the very deep, personal and psychological trip i've just had. we discuss things, laugh about it, "ohh" and "ahhh" at each others insights and such... i feel a little sick.
3hrs15mins - i get home after a 15 minute drive. no, i was not behind the wheel. everything still looks weird. i feel exactly like i've just come down off acid.
i was alseep by 3.30.
sorry about how dumb i was when writing this, i think i changed tense about 5 times.
all in all, an extremely powerful, psychadelic and satisfying experience. i was glad that i only had a little nausea, and it was at the end anyway. i thought ketamine was a simple anaesthetic... i suppose that was my reminder that it's a dissociative anaesthetic, and thus has thoroughly enjoyable effects.
