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Ketamine in public

AffaAhoy

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I took a large line of ket on the bus and had no idea where I was or who I was when I got off. I ended up asking a stranger for help. He walked me home and supported me the whole way. He spoke broken English. He was from Ukraine and had been shot in the face, so he only had one eye.

I was floating in some kind of void, where time didn’t make sense. I didn’t remember who I was, what I had done, or what it meant to exist. Everything around me was just a mess, like a fog with no way out. None of my thoughts connected, except one: I had done something really bad.

That feeling sat deep inside me, even though I couldn’t remember what had happened. It felt like everything around me was falling apart, like I was being dragged deeper into a darkness where nothing felt familiar. I had no body, no senses. Just my thoughts, repeating again and again: I am lost. Who am I?

After a while, I started to hear my own voice. First, from far away, like someone else was saying, ‘Who am I?’ But slowly, I realized it was me. I kept saying it over and over, as if it would bring me back to reality.

Then, just at the edge of my vision—if you can call it that—I saw a small face. It slowly became larger and clearer. It was a friend, someone I knew, but couldn’t quite place. He was speaking to me, trying to pull me back.

Beside him, another face appeared, softer and more comforting. A woman with a calm voice, telling me that everything was going to be okay. The two of them became like an anchor, slowly pulling me out of the chaos, bit by bit.

The moral here is probably to think a little about time and place before you take something unknown, because sometimes the substance is stronger than you think, and suddenly you find yourself asking a one-eyed Ukrainian for directions home. So, next time: maybe save the experiments for a safer place than the bus. It’s stupid to give in to temptation and end up like that. I scared the people I met, and the whole thing could have gone much worse. Definitely a wake-up call for myself...
 
I took a large line of ket on the bus and had no idea where I was or who I was when I got off. I ended up asking a stranger for help. He walked me home and supported me the whole way. He spoke broken English. He was from Ukraine and had been shot in the face, so he only had one eye.

I was floating in some kind of void, where time didn’t make sense. I didn’t remember who I was, what I had done, or what it meant to exist. Everything around me was just a mess, like a fog with no way out. None of my thoughts connected, except one: I had done something really bad.

That feeling sat deep inside me, even though I couldn’t remember what had happened. It felt like everything around me was falling apart, like I was being dragged deeper into a darkness where nothing felt familiar. I had no body, no senses. Just my thoughts, repeating again and again: I am lost. Who am I?

After a while, I started to hear my own voice. First, from far away, like someone else was saying, ‘Who am I?’ But slowly, I realized it was me. I kept saying it over and over, as if it would bring me back to reality.

Then, just at the edge of my vision—if you can call it that—I saw a small face. It slowly became larger and clearer. It was a friend, someone I knew, but couldn’t quite place. He was speaking to me, trying to pull me back.

Beside him, another face appeared, softer and more comforting. A woman with a calm voice, telling me that everything was going to be okay. The two of them became like an anchor, slowly pulling me out of the chaos, bit by bit.

The moral here is probably to think a little about time and place before you take something unknown, because sometimes the substance is stronger than you think, and suddenly you find yourself asking a one-eyed Ukrainian for directions home. So, next time: maybe save the experiments for a safer place than the bus. It’s stupid to give in to temptation and end up like that. I scared the people I met, and the whole thing could have gone much worse. Definitely a wake-up call for myself...
Disso’s are so scary.
 
The moral here is probably to think a little about time and place before you take something unknown, because sometimes the substance is stronger than you think, and suddenly you find yourself asking a one-eyed Ukrainian for directions home. So, next time: maybe save the experiments for a safer place than the bus. It’s stupid to give in to temptation and end up like that. I scared the people I met, and the whole thing could have gone much worse. Definitely a wake-up call for myself...
good advice.
as someone who suffers from dissociation/derealization i have a hard time understanding why anyone would want to experience that kind of thing voluntarily, because it can be *very* scary.
but to each their own.
 
good advice.
as someone who suffers from dissociation/derealization i have a hard time understanding why anyone would want to experience that kind of thing voluntarily, because it can be *very* scary.
but to each their own.

It was a terrifying experience because I was alone at night, completely disoriented, and didn’t feel safe. My ability to speak had almost vanished, but I managed to mutter 'help' to nearby bystanders. Thankfully, one of them walked me home. The confusion I felt was akin to the ego death experienced on a high dose of psychedelics like shrooms or DMT, combined with the intense alienation of a full-blown panic attack.
 
Disso’s are so scary.
They are the most physically destructive drugs on the internal organs in my opinion also. They are the most psychologically addictive drugs that exist imo. Crack was less addictive to me.

They are extremely underestimated in their danger and it’s becoming trendy now to do ketamine for depression.

And the potential for full blown pcp like psychotic breaks is there.

I don’t know many disso addicts that haven’t had some kind of pcp psychotic like public episode like OP.
 
They are the most physically destructive drugs on the internal organs in my opinion also. They are the most psychologically addictive drugs that exist imo. Crack was less addictive to me.

They are extremely underestimated in their danger and it’s becoming trendy now to do ketamine for depression.

And the potential for full blown pcp like psychotic breaks is there.

I don’t know many disso addicts that haven’t had some kind of pcp psychotic like public episode like OP.
They are the most physically destructive drugs on the internal organs in my opinion also. They are the most psychologically addictive drugs that exist imo. Crack was less addictive to me.

They are extremely underestimated in their danger and it’s becoming trendy now to do ketamine for depression.

And the potential for full blown pcp like psychotic breaks is there.

I don’t know many disso addicts that haven’t had some kind of pcp psychotic like public episode like OP.
I’m going to leave this thread forever so I can forget. For those who haven’t done them. Just avoid them.
 
There's a time and a place for everything - disso's on public transport (or in public in general imo) are a hard 'no'!

Thanks for trip report - if it encourages one single person to think harder about set and setting it's a winner
I used to live life work do everything on mxe.

Also had accidental public meltdown.


Dosage is key!🔑. Pun intended
 
I used to live life work do everything on mxe.

Also had accidental public meltdown.


Dosage is key!🔑. Pun intended
I did DXM the night before (1g+, OD Territory), although zonked out and barely consious, techniccally stayed up all night. My mum told me I had a blood test that morning and for some reason i didnt say i was fucked up. I went to the shopping centre and could barely walk, falling over and embarassing myself. my sitster helped me balance and i could barely talk to the lady at blood test. I was hallucinating like all fuck and I was so anxious. i have nightmares about situations like that. FUCKKK NOOO! NEVER AGAIN!
 
Well MXE is a stimulating dissociative. Took the first time a Ket sized line,
Smart test the water with a heroic dose unknowingly. There was a reason for this.

But MXE unlike K holed me while biking, kept me lucid enough to think oops no lights,
one cop and i am stopped, and fined. During, so got of slipped deeper in the M-hole and where i was heading to, a suburb with a shopping mall turned into a alien illumiated platform.
Walking at 6 meteres below sea level the ground felt spongy. It was not solid, it isnt in reality too.
Its not rock just oversaturated moisteres Turf ao. But the first time i felt it.

That point i decided to head home, well home. Not excactly as the reason for snorting that ammount.
Was a lil bitchy act of my wife, so i took off and run from my house.

What to do ? Yeah my mom lives there too. "hey mom, can stay here for a while, i did something stupid".

One of the most scaring looks on her face appeared: "you killed your family ?"

😮 WTF. That MXE not only holes you but keeps you up, lucid and reasonable.
Also ables you to be shocked.

No ma, i took a for me new drug in a too large of a dose.
And now i am tripping balls, btw the fam is ok but asleep.
Just had a word-fight and was fought out of the house.

Had a good laugh [internal] who gets to know his ma like this, not know your own son.
Me psycho killer Norman Bates, while holing awake.
Obviously woman/ mothers have less of a sixth sense, well my mother at least, then men.

btw very nice stranger, on K that would be a absolute necessity, or lay in a park.
 
I'm a schizophrenic and dissos feel exactly like a psychosis. Awfull

There was a US study in the 1960s (so presume ethics weren't an issue) in which a group of people diagnosed with schizophrenia but appropriately medicated were, without informed consent, given PCP.

What do you know, they all displayed the full range of positive and negative symptoms of schizophrenia.
 
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