Ugh myswell and post it. This is me on Low dose Ketamine, like it or not. 
(this part is mostly live)
I snorted 2 small bumps into each nostril, no problem. Some milk for the drip and on the computer I went. It slowly crept in, and in with it came the music euphoria, I was really into the music. Everything sounded just great. Looking out over my computer I saw the familiar workings of the ketamine world. I describe it like this:
The fabric that made my field of view became thin and fragile. It seemed fake, the lights became bright, It was almost as if I could reach out and touch the background in my field of view, that stuff behind the monitor was like a wavy curtain, how does such matter exsist? Another bump and things become more different and whoa before you know it I'm in that familiar world, Why is it so scary at higher dosages? I don't know. Now the music is far away, But it is still a wonderful thing, less music euphoria know, The music is so far away. It is becoming increasingly harder to describe the feelings, as the intensity increases. 2 seconds ago it was 12:31, now it is 12:51, where did that song go? I was just listening to it how did it end? Obviously very coherent still, a slight warp in balance, but no problem moving or typing for that matter. I feel like I want to talk to every one again, Every time on Ketamine I become so sociable. No inhibitions now, everything is alllright. Hey why did that song end already? Time to load another. Should I bump again? This is a low dose experience but it seems Ketamine is like Alcohol ahh Just one more, just a little bit more buzz. *bump* I feel good, why does it feel so good when the world has a different spin to it? My perception of time is way out again, as always on ketamine, the time perception.... Everything is getting wavy, I feel light headed and floaty, My perception of the universe is changing, but to what? I must remember Ketamine brings no answers.
I believe it is pretty much impossible to explain how I perceive now, light weight? wavy? everything is so defined. That pole im looking at is so contrasted compared the the dart board behind it. Very comfortable, so far, no nausea yet. It seems I've lost my sense of volume, is the music too loud? I am very tired, thats the 2nd dimenhydrinate kicking in, I feel like im in a my protective bubble of weirdness.. What should I do? another bump? I better listen to this song first.. I definitely enjoy the low dosages of ketamine, I can't say for sure I've experienced the K-hole, I mean who knows?? But this space im in now is nice.. I don't feel like moving... one more bump and i'll call it a night.
What the? It seems im returning to normal head space, I should have taken that bump sooner.
Tomorrow I will debate wether I should actually post this. tomorrow my inhibitions will be back and I will feel to shy too post this. If It was typed properly and did not need editing I would post it now, before I feel foolish for writing this. I just went up stairs to take a leak, Too much moving around, that familiar tingle of nausea could flare up if im not careful. Im starting to get a bit uncomfortable, a bit uneasy with the state that im in right now, I better not go further, my perception of this dimension has been warped enough. I am tempted to go further, I feel comfortable again, like im sitting on a warm heat register with the furnace blaring on a cold winter day. *bump* Another bump to make this feeling last longer..
I closed notepad then and began to watch the milkdrop plugin, at some points I got amazing combinations of the effects of milkdrop and it was very intense. I think it may read like a higher dose of ketamine, But you can tell it wasn't by how coherent I was and my ability to type and walk. I was also able to play guitar, at a considerably reduced ability, however.
This has completely smashed the notion I had that Ketamine was either go for the K-hole or dont bother. Having tried to get to a k-hole at really high doses and experimenting with lower doses I have learned that I defiantly enjoy the low dose range (so far).
Indecision is something I always struggle with on Ketamine, It seems impossible to make a decision on what I should do, and I can often ponder what to do for what seems like forever, usually following the exact same thought pattern over and over, which can become scary. This time at least I realized what I was doing and was able to correct it and shrug it off with a laugh.
Anyway there is my over analization of my experience this weekend, hopefully it held your boredom at bay for a bit.
If any of you are considering Ketamine, I highly suggest you start with a low dose, even if your aren't impressed at first. If you try and rush into the K-hole like I did, you may not want to return.![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
(this part is mostly live)
I snorted 2 small bumps into each nostril, no problem. Some milk for the drip and on the computer I went. It slowly crept in, and in with it came the music euphoria, I was really into the music. Everything sounded just great. Looking out over my computer I saw the familiar workings of the ketamine world. I describe it like this:
The fabric that made my field of view became thin and fragile. It seemed fake, the lights became bright, It was almost as if I could reach out and touch the background in my field of view, that stuff behind the monitor was like a wavy curtain, how does such matter exsist? Another bump and things become more different and whoa before you know it I'm in that familiar world, Why is it so scary at higher dosages? I don't know. Now the music is far away, But it is still a wonderful thing, less music euphoria know, The music is so far away. It is becoming increasingly harder to describe the feelings, as the intensity increases. 2 seconds ago it was 12:31, now it is 12:51, where did that song go? I was just listening to it how did it end? Obviously very coherent still, a slight warp in balance, but no problem moving or typing for that matter. I feel like I want to talk to every one again, Every time on Ketamine I become so sociable. No inhibitions now, everything is alllright. Hey why did that song end already? Time to load another. Should I bump again? This is a low dose experience but it seems Ketamine is like Alcohol ahh Just one more, just a little bit more buzz. *bump* I feel good, why does it feel so good when the world has a different spin to it? My perception of time is way out again, as always on ketamine, the time perception.... Everything is getting wavy, I feel light headed and floaty, My perception of the universe is changing, but to what? I must remember Ketamine brings no answers.
I believe it is pretty much impossible to explain how I perceive now, light weight? wavy? everything is so defined. That pole im looking at is so contrasted compared the the dart board behind it. Very comfortable, so far, no nausea yet. It seems I've lost my sense of volume, is the music too loud? I am very tired, thats the 2nd dimenhydrinate kicking in, I feel like im in a my protective bubble of weirdness.. What should I do? another bump? I better listen to this song first.. I definitely enjoy the low dosages of ketamine, I can't say for sure I've experienced the K-hole, I mean who knows?? But this space im in now is nice.. I don't feel like moving... one more bump and i'll call it a night.
What the? It seems im returning to normal head space, I should have taken that bump sooner.
Tomorrow I will debate wether I should actually post this. tomorrow my inhibitions will be back and I will feel to shy too post this. If It was typed properly and did not need editing I would post it now, before I feel foolish for writing this. I just went up stairs to take a leak, Too much moving around, that familiar tingle of nausea could flare up if im not careful. Im starting to get a bit uncomfortable, a bit uneasy with the state that im in right now, I better not go further, my perception of this dimension has been warped enough. I am tempted to go further, I feel comfortable again, like im sitting on a warm heat register with the furnace blaring on a cold winter day. *bump* Another bump to make this feeling last longer..
I closed notepad then and began to watch the milkdrop plugin, at some points I got amazing combinations of the effects of milkdrop and it was very intense. I think it may read like a higher dose of ketamine, But you can tell it wasn't by how coherent I was and my ability to type and walk. I was also able to play guitar, at a considerably reduced ability, however.
This has completely smashed the notion I had that Ketamine was either go for the K-hole or dont bother. Having tried to get to a k-hole at really high doses and experimenting with lower doses I have learned that I defiantly enjoy the low dose range (so far).
Indecision is something I always struggle with on Ketamine, It seems impossible to make a decision on what I should do, and I can often ponder what to do for what seems like forever, usually following the exact same thought pattern over and over, which can become scary. This time at least I realized what I was doing and was able to correct it and shrug it off with a laugh.
Anyway there is my over analization of my experience this weekend, hopefully it held your boredom at bay for a bit.
If any of you are considering Ketamine, I highly suggest you start with a low dose, even if your aren't impressed at first. If you try and rush into the K-hole like I did, you may not want to return.
