Ketamine - experienced- Gliding into the Meta-center of Consciousness

[~_Hiss_~]

A cold, lousy, rainy night started the urge to slip away. Lonely and bored, I prepare a 150mg IM shot as I recall my past relationship with Miss K, summed up at the end.

It begins with a Shot

10:05- Shot in leg, got it to dissolve just right; 150mg in 0.5cc hot distilled water. Some dries on spoon, some probably in cotton, so this may be 140mg in me now. Slight burn; rubbing it helps. I put away the supplies.

10:10- Feeling the "static" creep up. It almost reminds me of an antihistamine but less intrusive. I put on Pink Floyd- Animals, my traditional K-Hole music, and lie down in the dark, with the blacklight on.

10:15- Heavy numbness is strong enough to keep me still and glued to the bed. My mind drifts... turns off somewhat but also tuning in... I keep my eyes closed. The music guides my body, as it slips off the couch as if on a raft floating gently. Sense of movement, visual and tactile, very real. I spin, I lose concept of mySelf, I am just a consciousness, a very computerized, magical view of one. I am taken to the center of some huge matrix-like network that I can't quite remember. I do feel though, that this is it- this is where some secret of pure consciousness lies. What a discovery...

10:20+ Rapidly slid down a hole going very fast. There isn't much color in any of these visions but they are very interesting to experience. I see an owl and a huge reddish glowing jukebox looking machine taking up an entire room. I try to see it more clearly. I believe I am mostly aware I am just having visions from a substance I took, but part of my identity is lost. There are voices speaking in my head, my thoughts... I can sense their electrical activity! My thoughts are dissociated; I think something then hear an echo of it in a few different voices. I've had this happen quite a few times, and it is amazing; it gives me the feeling I am discovering something science can't explain; fundamental ideas and concepts of consciousness.

I open my eyes. The clock, bouncing up and down, reads 10:34. Only out about 20 minutes this time.. it used to last at least twice as long. Hmm, hope nothing bad changed in my brain. The staticy weird feeling lasts a while; my vision recovers by about 11:00 but still a little off. Then the stimulated mania feeling kicks in and I feel quite well! A little on the strange psychotic side but not too bad, its fun.

K is quite a mysterious character to me still, even after near or over 100 k-hole doses. After all these doses, the character has changed somewhat, and tolerance increased, even after months away from it. I don't know if it has had negative effects on me, even when I did it a few times a week at times a few years back. Its always interesting to do, and because of this I've found myself using a bit more than intended, especially after coming back from a K-hole with an amazing eureka feeling but forgetting what it was and wanting to go get more. Not addicting euphorically, addicting intellectually almost.

Well time for bed and the weird dreams that usually follow after doing K.

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[SpellmanT7]

Sense of movement, visual and tactile, very real. I spin, I lose concept of mySelf, I am just a consciousness, a very computerized, magical view of one. I am taken to the center of some huge matrix-like network that I can't quite remember. I do feel though, that this is it- this is where some secret of pure consciousness lies. What a discovery...

Very similar to my own experiences (roughly 20 insufflated doses between 200-300mg).

10:20+ Rapidly slid down a hole going very fast. There isn't much color in any of these visions but they are very interesting to experience. I see an owl and a huge reddish glowing jukebox looking machine taking up an entire room.

Was the red colouring around the outline of the jukebox? I have had ketamine visions that involved images being outlined in a neon-like red outline.

I open my eyes. The clock, bouncing up and down, reads 10:34. Only out about 20 minutes this time.. it used to last at least twice as long. Hmm, hope nothing bad changed in my brain. The staticy weird feeling lasts a while; my vision recovers by about 11:00 but still a little off. Then the stimulated mania feeling kicks in and I feel quite well! A little on the strange psychotic side but not too bad, its fun.

I have a projection clock that displays the time on my ceiling. When I feel ready to open my eyes, the display is blurred and my binocular vision is screwed initially but I can manually attempt to focus. With one eye closed I can generally make out the time.

Like you, my experiences typically last less than 30 minutes - sometimes as little as 15. There is always a transition stage where I feel should I allow myself to go back to that bullshit reality? but there are often a few visual disturbances that I am happy to cast off.

 

[mr light]

great report, i definitely want to try this again someday. do you think its reliable to cure or treat addiction?

 

[cerebralinnovation]

K is quite a mysterious character to me still, even after near or over 100 k-hole doses. After all these doses, the character has changed somewhat, and tolerance increased, even after months away from it. I don't know if it has had negative effects on me, even when I did it a few times a week at times a few years back. Its always interesting to do, and because of this I've found myself using a bit more than intended, especially after coming back from a K-hole with an amazing eureka feeling but forgetting what it was and wanting to go get more. Not addicting euphorically, addicting intellectually almost.

Well time for bed and the weird dreams that usually follow after doing K.

Yeah... Frequent use will most definitely wear out that "new car smell". Honest question: Have you noticed any short term memory loss issues as a result of long-time use? Also, that "eureka" feeling you speak of. Amen. Funny when you climb out of your hole with the feeling that you've made an amazing revelation, then realize you can't put your finger on what it is. =]

 

[psychedelicious]

Last night, I had my first k-hole, and it was like going into another world where science and logic aren't quite the same as on Earth, floating around for a bit without any questions, existing as a normal entity in the alien universe, then regaining my human memory and wondering how the hell I was going to explain this crazy world when my mom and dad try to bring me back to "real life".

nice report, dude!

 

[Ximot]

. do you think its reliable to cure or treat addiction?

reliable is a strong word but my guess is is that it has potential due to the insights into one's mechanisms that it provides. One just might be able to reprogram one's thought patterns, redirect intent, and thereby debunk the foul play of what we call "craving" ... but K is a double-edged sword... one might find oneself hooked on the detachment K provides, effectively replacing whatever other addiction one may have had with an addiction to K ... just my experience, and one reason I am making a conscious effort not to use K too often.

 

[~_Hiss_~]

I had minimal luck with it when I had opioid addiction issues. Sometimes the day after I'd get even worse cravings, either from the hangover feeling nasty or the afterglow feeling good and making me feel more invincible. It can go a few bad ways but only one, rare good way. Usually I was too dissociated to think about who I was exactly, let alone my addiction. I always shot for the high doses, pun intended. I could never mess with the stuff nasally; it just sucks that way. So those who have trouble controlling their K sniffage, stay clear of the needle, although it is a much better, cleaner and more magical experience by far.