Symmetrical Daze
Bluelighter
I take a K adventure on average of 10 times a year or less these days. I used to do it weekly and sometimes a few times a week during my heaviest usage. It is addictive but not nearly as some other things I've been unfortunate enough to try.
This adventure last night was for self exploration involving some personal issues. I prepared the materials, sterilized a spoon, etc... and proceeded to inject 150mg of K into my leg. My tolerance has gone up over the years.
It started out feeling staticy and slightly disorienting. I laid on my bed with the blacklight on listening to trance as I usually do. Soon I was riding the wave. The journeys usually begin with a wave taking my consciousness and moving it, which feels physical. Then i was falling down tunnels going very fast, it would almost scare me but that part of my brain is numb. Primal concerns are gone; it seems only our new brains, evolutionarily speaking, are lit up with action.
I was constantly thinking about stuff I remember. I was too far out there to be concerned with my petty issues; I'd taken too much for this. I was thinking about consciousness and the universe; but in ways I can't recall since the experinece is so odd. Its hard to remember exactly what all happened. I usually remember, just a guess 0.001% of what happens in the K-hole. This number on average seems to get smaller each new K adventure, unfortunately. I remember an image of my brain getting rolled out like a very long tongue or carpet. Then I was sitting on a log being worshipped by a bunch of people in a very primitive scene. I felt the power of this position and it was amazing. I'm pretty sure I knew it was just a dream image but it felt and almost looked real.
Then I began to come down some. Occasionally I would open my eyes and be in a part of the room I didn't expect from the blacklight. It messes with perception that severely. I was on my bed the whole time. At one point I thought I was on the same side of the room as the blacklight but in reality i was on the other side. I'd close my eyes and go back under into strange consciousness movement and sight seeing then come back up, looking around at the room jumping up and down. I tried thinking of the issues that I'd taken the K to help analyse but it wasn't much use.
Afterwards I felt kind of fried; my brain was becoming overactive to make up for some of the neurons being shut down I assume. It was mildly uncomfortable. I went to sleep ok after reading some and had very odd dreams I can't quite remember. Today I felt slightly guilty for taking it again for the 100th x time and not getting anything useful out of it other than a strange inner random journey.
I think I'll abstain for a long time. I wish I could remember and write a much clearer trip report like I used to be able to do but as I've said, I remember less and less each time and the experience has changed from originally being a depersonalizing journey to all kinds of strange worlds to something less memorable with much less ego loss.
This adventure last night was for self exploration involving some personal issues. I prepared the materials, sterilized a spoon, etc... and proceeded to inject 150mg of K into my leg. My tolerance has gone up over the years.
It started out feeling staticy and slightly disorienting. I laid on my bed with the blacklight on listening to trance as I usually do. Soon I was riding the wave. The journeys usually begin with a wave taking my consciousness and moving it, which feels physical. Then i was falling down tunnels going very fast, it would almost scare me but that part of my brain is numb. Primal concerns are gone; it seems only our new brains, evolutionarily speaking, are lit up with action.
I was constantly thinking about stuff I remember. I was too far out there to be concerned with my petty issues; I'd taken too much for this. I was thinking about consciousness and the universe; but in ways I can't recall since the experinece is so odd. Its hard to remember exactly what all happened. I usually remember, just a guess 0.001% of what happens in the K-hole. This number on average seems to get smaller each new K adventure, unfortunately. I remember an image of my brain getting rolled out like a very long tongue or carpet. Then I was sitting on a log being worshipped by a bunch of people in a very primitive scene. I felt the power of this position and it was amazing. I'm pretty sure I knew it was just a dream image but it felt and almost looked real.
Then I began to come down some. Occasionally I would open my eyes and be in a part of the room I didn't expect from the blacklight. It messes with perception that severely. I was on my bed the whole time. At one point I thought I was on the same side of the room as the blacklight but in reality i was on the other side. I'd close my eyes and go back under into strange consciousness movement and sight seeing then come back up, looking around at the room jumping up and down. I tried thinking of the issues that I'd taken the K to help analyse but it wasn't much use.
Afterwards I felt kind of fried; my brain was becoming overactive to make up for some of the neurons being shut down I assume. It was mildly uncomfortable. I went to sleep ok after reading some and had very odd dreams I can't quite remember. Today I felt slightly guilty for taking it again for the 100th x time and not getting anything useful out of it other than a strange inner random journey.
I think I'll abstain for a long time. I wish I could remember and write a much clearer trip report like I used to be able to do but as I've said, I remember less and less each time and the experience has changed from originally being a depersonalizing journey to all kinds of strange worlds to something less memorable with much less ego loss.
