@ GodSpeedK, this bit here makes it sound just as if it's the quality of the K that is why your saying your questioning your use.
To be honest it doesn't sound like you've really been caining it previously if you've never had any of the cramps etc. Calling it a horse tranquilizer just kind of bugs me sorry my post was probably did hit it off on the wrong note to be fair. I get exactly what your saying as it does play on your mind a bit. I would love nothing more than a few grams of nice shardy ket right now. I have used it as an escapist drug in the last, the hole kind of lends itself to that anyway.
What I feel is the greatest thing about ketamine though is the afterglow and general positivity after. The point I was trying to make is if there was no drought and you were still getting bang on stuff I don't think these kind of thoughts would be flying around your head. It's just the situation right now is making you feel like that in my opinion.
I also kind of agree with this
The problem is this bit of fun is missing. I think there's probably alot of people who feel a bit like this lately.