Ketamine Addiction

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Has anyone here experienced ketamine addiction on any level? I could really use some advice...

I'm struggling to understand how I have managed to get myself so far into this drug that I am almost totally disinterested in the real world...

I have been using Ketamine for about 16months daily, and have been injecting for the past 6 months...I use between 1g and 10g a day depending on whether I snort it or inject it or who I am with, what I am doing etc. On average I probably use around 2-3g IM a day.

I have managed to get incredibly addicted to tripping off of IM'ing K. For the past 2 weeks I have been trying not to use it at all in the day, and have somewhat succeeded but am now drastically beginning to slip. I just live for the evenings when I can come home and go into another world. I'm quickly losing all interest in the real world and all I want to do is take K from the minute I get up. I go to college every day and really have made the effort to get up early and stay there late, but its starting to not work anymore (and I've only done it for 2 weeks so far) It's getting very hard to cover up from friends and people around me, needles are hard to hide, and the world is getting increasingly more confusing and difficult to operate in.

Any advice or experience of this would be greatly appreciated. I am really at a loss. I'm finding it difficult to even write this so I hope it makes sense.

Thank you :)
 
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thanks moonmixer... perhaps that is something to think about seriously at this point. it's a difficult call. thank you for your reply, its most appreciated x
 
I've tried not buying it, it works for a day or so and I get such bad cravings I can't handle it. I've tried giving up so many times, the best I've done is what I've done recently and not taken it in the daytime...

I seem to find that when I have none at all I want more and end up using more, and when I have it around me I crave it less because I know I can easily have it....

It's way to easy for me to get hold of to not buy it, I live in London, its always an hour away at most, no matter where you are in the city...I think moving from the city is looking like an idea.
 
Moving away from London didn't work for me. I guess I'm similar to you. I crave it a great deal if I don't have any, but if I do have any it just disappears.
 
My best friend is VERY addicted to Ketamine. We started raving using E, and eventually learned that they make a rather enjoyable combination =D

Unfortuantely, because Ketamine related to Weed a lot, as you can "always" be high. My friend does it before work, sometimes at work, every day after work and ALWAYS when she parties - which is now only on weekends. she spend all her savings from each paycheque, and puts it towards her Ketamine fund. SHe has even pickeed up another job, so more money can go to this...

She experuiences a lotof bladder and back pain. She refers to them as K pains... if you have ever experienced them, they are not enjoyable.

She loves it so much because she is always distatched from her mind, environment and body...

She has crashed her car 6 times this year, and one of those is because she juiceboxed half a gram while "parked" on the side of the road, and then proceded to K hole, press her gas (as she forgot to put her car in park) and hit a van and a tree.

It's ruining her life, but all she can think about. Her goal it just to get money and get more ketamine. She will use boys (she is a very attractive blonde) to get drugs..

Now she is started to love GHB as much as she loves KEt.. it's not good. She fallows her nose, and that is going to make her homeless real soon. Friends have tried talking to her, but it's waht she wants right now.. I suppose as a young female...
 
Hey Olive. I was using ketamine for a long time in early 2008. Near the end i was IM'ing atleast a vial a day for a month. I wanted to stop using it but the k hole seemed like the best possible experience all the time.

Everything else, friends, family, studies, the outside world had become of no importance.. when I wasn't tripping on k , I was confused and lost all the time. Nothing made sense, I didn't feel anything for anyone or anything except in a mild intellectual way. It was a bad time...

I finally got sent to rehab by my family. i got out of there after 3 weeks and was on heavy medications.. I kept trying to get ketamine again after it but this time there was the thought that the price of doing ketamine is too too high and I did use it again a few times, I eventually stopped doing it and it's been more then a year since I did it.. I haven't written off using it ever again but now I know what effect it has on me and I try to know my limits and keep inside them.. I can't risk going back to that confused state again... there are too many things in my life right now that I can't risk losing over ketamine.

I can relate to the situation you are in right now... and I really wish I could help you in any way. Do you have any close friend/s who know about your k problem? You could ask them for help... or take the plunge and look for outside help.. can you go away somewhere for a while? can you leave your area and go somewhere different for a while? A new environment , new people etc all help in distracting from the cravings or atleast make it easier to keep from using.

i really really wish you the best and I'll be hoping you get out of the mental state you're in.. <3

p.s. I have a question related to long term ketamine use.. does long term ketamine use affect a person even after stopping using it for a long time? Does the person permanently become different in any significant way?
 
spacenomad thanks so much for posting your experience...<3...in some strange way it gives me some hope that this wont go on forever, even though the situation is a bit crap. Well done so much for getting off K, that is an amazing achievement :) and a massive inspiration also....

...I think I just need to have a really long think about what to do, Ive got a couple of days out the city coming up so maybe then is best. I really got to do something about this before I get lost somewhere because I am in too deep. At least I know that though, which I am thankful for.

Your question about long term K use, I dont think there's a lot known about it, but the UCL study that just came out a couple of weeks ago had SOME info, though how reliable it is considering the sample numbers is dubious maybe...
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=472784
 
^^^ yeah man just when you get any cash just go spend all of it on like food or some video games somthing like that then you have no money to get your junk but if you have a dealer that will front that plan is out what really works good is if you have a girl tell her you want to stop and stay around her 24/7 she will keep you in line its worked out for many people

sometimes it takes more than just yourself to quit
 
I love injecting k, personally dont find myself needing/craving for it when can't get it, always thought it wasn't (comparitively) addicting like other substances are. *shrug* different for everyone I suppose.
 
If you really feel like K is affecting the quality of your life for the worse, the best thing to do is to try some sort of rehab program.

Either that, or find a friend or family member who can help you control your cravings. It might help if they're a recovering alcoholic or former drug addict who can really understand how badly you need to quit.

The only reason I say look for outside help is because you seem to be beyond the point of being able to stop yourself.

Other than that, I can't really help you, never having been through an addiction myself... :(

Best of luck.

This is the best advice. my brother is a k addict currently on 6gs a day. yesterday he went to my mum who used to be a h addict and has only just managed to get out of being an alcoholic. she is an accupunturist who specialises in detoxing poeple who have been abusing substances. hopefully he will be alright but i think it has fucked his mind up, his body up and his life up
 
K is just one of those drugs i don't like to buy...but when its around i indulge in it....and let me tell you once you start with that first bump/line you just keep wanting to do more....for me more so than coke
 
If it's the feeling of detachment that you like, then maybe you could learn some of the meditation techniques or other mental exercises which teach you to distance yourself from what's happening around you. It's not healthy to be checked out from reality full-time, but it's a bit less destructive if you can find a drug-free way to do it.

You're probably going to find re-engaging the world difficult without some kind of structured programme, so I second the suggestion for rehab even if it's on an outpatient basis. You're probably going to find your tolerance threshold for reality is really low at first and that you find it hard to be "present".

While you haven't totally lost your way yet, you can obviously see that's where you're heading - and once you totally disconnect from reality it's going to be very difficult to find your way back. Learning to tolerate reality and engage the world again is going to be harder than getting clean, so try to find some solid support for that. The good news is that you don't have to do it all at once.

And without trying to scare you, if you do reach a place where you become mostly dissociated from reality you could very well find yourself in a psych ward on an involuntary basis and psych wards are not fun places.
 
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Yes was a daily user for years. At my worst ever I was sniffing up to 12.5g a day. It was a nightmare, came to in hospitals and ambulances numerous times and in the end I was in A and E and other hospitals as I had used so much that I totally ruined my insides.

Nothing good can come from Ketamine addiction other than agonizing pain!

I couldn't feel the mental effects really as I was so bang on it all the time and when I finally stopped it was because I cross addicted to heroin.

I went to rehab in the end and got clean and am working a recovery program now with nearly 3 months clean time from all substances.
 
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