Ketamine Addiction Support and Information thread -- share your story.

[ladinleeds]

I am a ketamine user, i have being using this drug now for 6 years. At first it started out doing it on nights out every weekend, to then suddenly doing it alone in my bedroom, at first i was able to get totally off my face on tiny lines so a gram would last me the whole night.... as time and months went on i started noticing that i was having to do atleast a gram line to feel the buzz. I am now currently sniffing atleast 3-6 grams per day. I have severe bladder problems, i am unable to hold urine for a long perioid, most i can hold it for is maybe an hour max, the pain when i piss is awful, i have pelvic pains aswell. I have had times when i havent taken ketamine for a couple of months and my bladder probems got better, but then i started sniffing the shit stuff again and it has all started to come back the pains. I know that the pains will go away if i stop sniffing ket, but i am totally addicted to it, its become part of my life. I have lost various jobs and relationships due to my habit, but still nothing seems to scare me or want to make me stop taking it. I am unable to function properly, i cant go on nights out with friends because as soon as i start drinking alcohol i am straight to the toilet pissing. I am afraid of using public transport due to me not being able to hold my urine in, and i end up pissing myself. I always tell myself that i am gonna stop taking the drug, but the power of addiction beats me and i end up sitting alone in my room snorting ketamine. I really do want to quit, but i have no will power or strength anymore and i dont know what to do, maybe the drug will be the death of me i dont know, but one thing for sure is that ketamine as ruines my life.

 

[methoxetaman]

I feel you OP on the going crazy. After a 2 week ketamine/mxe binge I finally lost it and began to think every person was a drone. Saw drones in the sky. Thought that you shouldn't press the "walk across the street" button with your finger because that's how they fingerprint you. Google is going to take over the world and make us drug users slaves. They give us smart phones and we think they're just awesome technology. But really it's just so they can track everything we do and everywhere we go and the cameras on our phones are recording our activity. Facebook is what they will use to judge us and either let us alone or make us slaves. We have to run away and hide and start our own cult family.

Hive mind.

I am definitely going fucking nuts.

At times I have believed that the world would end if I didn't use ketamine. And after I came down I would believe that I had saved the world by k-holing. Still sometimes believe that the world would have ended if I didn't do what I did while fucked up on shit.

Yes, ketamine (or in my case methoxetamine, or I guess dissociatives in general are the most psychologically addicting substances on the planet. I've definitely learned that in the past 2 years of my mxe and ketamine addiction.

I'm in rehab now and I'm clean for bit. I am choosing to stay away from things and people. But I kind of believe that I will always have the desire in the back of my head to k hole, for the rest of my existence. :/

Read my stories about my mxe addiction:

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/...h-MXE-DMT-Very-experienced-This-is-why-I-quit

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/585465-Methoxetamine-Every-day

Both of those threads of mine are very interesting. They deal more with mxe than ketamine, but they are very similar substances in terms of effects and why people use/become addicted to them.

 

[p0ly]

OK I tried Ketamine the day I turned 17 years old and fell into a long and winding addiction. I started off the first year using moderate amounts but by 18 I started getting a bit more hardcore. By 19 I was selling it and could no longer K hole and would go through 7 grams in a day easy when access was there. At 20-21 I wasn't even getting high any more yet doing 2 gram lines for little to no high seemed like a good idea. I've had around 5 major cramp attacks some lasting over 7 days. When the high started going I began taking Heroin and other opiates and also benzos to get the high back which also got me cross addicted to Heroin and benzos resulting in major ODs close to death. 8 months ago after just shy of 7 years sniffing k solidly I managed to quit... As for the bladder recovery it has got better to some degree but not really, I'm hoping things will get better as I'm sick of having to take about 20 pisses a day.