Keeping clean - Cocaine, long term wirthdrawal

[Buscon]

Hello

Been a while since I've used a form.

I'm currently dealing with anemia for the past year. Does anyone know anything about this? I've gone through many test and doctors still have no idea why or they won't tell me, or don't care. Most people think of an addict as a burden, I believe.

I have never been fully open or mentioned my addiction to anyone.

I've been completely clean since the 12th of August 2013. And off crack since Nov 2012 (I wen't 3 years hard). I have butterflies in my stomach. Spent many nights not sleeping because of the horrid things I've seen. It disgusts me yet I have fantasized about using again.

I'm finding it very difficult to integrate back into society, I have nothing to say to people8( I've been dejected and a recluse for a long time, plus I feel like I have to hide. And I am talking a lot about myself...

Please if you have any questions, suggestions or comments, feel free.

 

[tjaisv]

Congrats on your clean streak. What do you want out of life? What are your goals? Who do you have to help you get there?

 

[harmacologist]

Congrats bro.

You feel empty inside? Create some positivity and fill yourself up with goodness.

Work on exercising, being social (even if that means going to a mall or a library and reading around people), eating healthy, and most importantly have patiences with yourself and remember to accept yourself, because it will be a long, hard road, but it will be the most rewarding thing you have ever done.

If you want someone to talk to, there are a variety of outreach groups in Toronto, places that are happy to help you stay on the right track.

 

[Buscon]

Thanks guys. Good advice. Good questions. My goals should be my focus. Ill be giving it more thought.

 

[harmacologist]

I think its very important to structure your goals properly, both in terms of achievability and priorities. Sit down with someone and make a list of what you want to do, and set an order to work on baby steps to move forward.