I am starting this a way I can be responsible for my recreational coke habit. It constanting toes the line. Somedays I feel in control and somedays I am hit with the overwhelming need. I need to keep myself accountable for the actions I take in regards to drug use. I need to know that I will be okay if I don't use. I can't think of these hair brained schemes to get money. I need to eat.
I need to think of constructives ways to deal with my cravings. All I can come up with is smoking...hah. I just don't want this to get out of hand. I want to be in control.
My mind just starts racing sometimes just thinking
about it.
I will be okay. I will be okay. I will okay. No coke this weekend and that's okay.
When I say that in head I feel so disappointed. Not used to waiting. Ugh.
-S
I need to think of constructives ways to deal with my cravings. All I can come up with is smoking...hah. I just don't want this to get out of hand. I want to be in control.
My mind just starts racing sometimes just thinking
about it.
I will be okay. I will be okay. I will okay. No coke this weekend and that's okay.
When I say that in head I feel so disappointed. Not used to waiting. Ugh.
-S