Is deppression real? Is unhappyness depression? what is the state of emotionless. I wake up every morning take my suboxone then put on music to try and achieve a feeling. When was the last time I felt anything? Have I achieved numbness? God I hope so cause as soon as the bad feelings emerge you can be assured the drugs are applied liberally. I have this sense that I cant handle life it just seems so overwhelming to me I cant cope. I dont know what to do I feel so lost I want a degree but I dont think I am stable enough for college right now. I really want to move to Chicago or Trenton and start blasting dope see how that goes. Otherwise I am stuck here in this shithole part of alabama I refuse to die here. Being from here is one thing but choosing to stay here is quite another im getting the fuck outta here first chance I get. Drugs cant live with em cant live without em
