K might b really good.

thedawn

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well,i have the police,doctors and shit banging on my door,
wanting to commit me.

what do they know?N O T H I N G.

MY ex tries to destroy me and kill me that way.

she doesn't know that I'm already dead.lol.

i got 27 more xanaxx so I'm back on the benzo addiction,
BUT,
i do have so much anxiety that i can't walk hardly.
I've felt WDs before and thats of cousre hell too,but what can you
do when the police handles u a bottle.that was actually celexa so i threw it to
the wind.IMO fuck meds and be urself.


i still haven't seen my kid and I'm crying like a fucking baby.

the other night i drank some ketamine out of the bottle
and it inspired me.
it has benefits if NOT abused.

like 6 times a month perhaps.ketamine is so new so we don't really know.

the fucking thing is that I'm housebound.
but it's ok.
have food,CDs,cigs,subs.

no,I'm not paranoid re police.trust me.
i have gotten death threats cuz of some internet misunderstanding.

out of K now,take 3 xaxnax,SLEEP……………………


soon the ship will sail and take us all away.

best wishes and love from me if I'm not back in say a 2 months.
whatever could happen.
they want to do blood analysis,UA's……….lol.fuck em.

im not going anywhere until i have a signed paper i
can leave my app.

i was also right about AA.
fools.im sorry but they are.
REPROGRAMMING might b good if ur Manson ,but
for a guitar player it aint it.

i have met two good ppl over 6 yrs in AA.
Phil and Jeff.

only 2 to know.strange……
but life goes on and on and on and on
my heart keeps beating like a rolling stone.

and i hope the police kills me and finds these BL confessions.
my side o the story.

BL and TDS has saved me on countless occasions.
never shut this site.
i can start a Facebook thing if u get in trouble.

thanks.
 
/\ This... This post is very concerning. Try to relax and ride out whatever you're going through. Don't do anything rash.
 
Seeing the way people talk and think when they get truly shitty makes me want to avoid getting to that point ever again.

That being said, I wish ya well dawn.
 
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