Just woke up.....unable to stop moving.....freaked out

[FattyAcid]

I am still having slight (comparative to this morning, and I haven't fainted again) symptoms.... They are brought to rest when my body is actually at rest, laying down, I can totally shut it off....

I will be going there tomorrow morning, or like I said, if anything changes...... It all feels very related to my mind state, though.........which is jumpy, panicky, and tired.......

I seem to be @ regular body temp though..... WTF

 

[FattyAcid]

Thank you all for your responses, but don't think I am hanging on to you guys as a life line, I don't mean to startle any of you, just asking a community I've seen get close to the bottom of things like this before, and I do encourage continued speculation, so I can see what if anything I can tell the doctors, when I DO see them, to help them get to the root of the problem instead of taking a bunch of guesses based on me not knowing anything.......

 

[FattyAcid]

but like I said, or rather, mentioned, I woke up completely free of symptoms...... hadn't had much to eat yesterday, and haven't been taking care of myself as well as normal in the overall, and have fainted from similar situations before (jumping out of bed to urinate, things like that), so the fact that the symptoms have only come back since my roommate called the ER to the house and I had to send them away (not saying I don't need medical attention, but also don't need a completely conscious and coherent 1500$ ride), and have felt super anxious ever since then, the only way it seems to be able to be calmed is by trying to rest completely, that it very well could be a combination of all the things (wouldn't surprise me, but i'm trying to be somewhat clinical in my checklists, so that I can help the doctors when I do go in, tomorrow (after I wake up and dont go faint, heh....see if we can't get the symptoms to subside with my anxious mind)

 

[FattyAcid]

tetanus based tremors would not be controllable at ALL, am I correct?

Like I said, I don't feel ILL, I feel very anxious and that is causing symptoms to bounce back......which just helps me identify it, when I do go talk to the doctor, especially if they subside with my heart beat/brain waves

Thanks guys, a lot..... I cannot place a value on educated opinions, good guesses, as they help me keep me mind at ease when i do rest.....the fact that I can rest and control the symptoms SOMEWHAT (not like conscious, if I think about it I can stop it, but with bringing my heart rate/brain to rest) is the only thing I'm not able to understand @ all

 

[effie]

FattyAcid - I am glad you are feeling a little better and that educated opinions/good guesses help, but they are only that - guesses. You can't really tell if someone is giving you an educated opinion over the net or not too, and even if they are, it's impossible to diagnose something this way - doctors need to see a patient, talk to them and examine them in person. I really think you need to get yourself checked out, even if this turns out to be anxiety and nothing physical - we can't possibly make that call over the net..

Good luck!

 

[FattyAcid]

Hey guys....so, after going to the doc and having all kinds of tests run, I am here to say the mind is a strong thing....can trick the body, for sure..... Pretty sure this was related to the heavy recent benzos.... NEVER had these kinds of panic attacks before benzos..... I'm more afraid of them than I am of opiates.....

It's odd, because my ex broke up with me because I wouldn't drop methadone just because she wanted to be clean with her (unsuccesfully so at any point, actually, project much???), and I told her I guess I felt the same way about her benzo usage and that I felt like I couldn't be with her unless she dropped her xanax script, or just kept it from me completely so that I wouldn't be tempted (Not every night making me watch her count her excess)....she told me I was full of shit, that she could drop her xanax script way easier than I could my methadone maintenance..... I only wish that were true.... Not trying to change the subject, just adding a personal anecdote about the similarity of all substance addiction.

 

[effie]

FattyAcid, I am so glad you got it checked out and it wasn't anything serious physically wrong with you. How have you been since? Are you getting any assistance with your anxiety?

You are so right about the similarities between addictions.. physical dependency might vary, but psychological addiction is very similar no matter what the drug is. People are often very blind to their own addictions, while being able to see those of others crystal-clearly..

 

[FattyAcid]

Honestly, been on edge at least a bit every waking moment since that incident, with another attack wednesday night, but it was odd, I felt all this incredible anxiety, but I fell asleep fast and slept soundly.... Haven't had the incredible urges to move certain muscles, which is what really freaked me out, and is still kind of unexplained.... It wasn't a seizure, but it wasn't NOT a seizure, is about all the doc could tell me, but he was quite sure it was all related to my anxious state tripping one wire or another....

Yea, it really sucks, the thing I brought up about my ex. She went and told my family all about my methadone use, something I asked her to leave to me to tell them as we have a lot of experience as a family with addiction and other mental health issues, because she felt like "I needed to be honest with myself" And keeps telling my friends methadone is the reason she can't be with me, and they assume that's because of what it does to me, NOT what it does to her, which is the actual problem.... F'ing bitches!