Just stoppin by:)

[Oxy_Ghost]

Hello everyone before I begin, I'm sorry of any of this come a off as a trigger. I've read the rules and stuff an IMO it'll be fine. So again, I'm sorry if it does and any help on what to put or what not to out will be greatly appreciatedthanks

I'm currently going though detox from oxycodone and heroin. I'm doing it alone at home with no medication or anything what so ever. I have some L-Glutamine 1000mg tabs but idk what they could be used for. Well anyways. I'm on day 3, well it's only 2:00 in the morning so later on around 12 PM it'll officially be 3 days. I hear that the 3rd day is the worst and that it gets better after the 3rd day, is this true? I wasn't a heavy user. I used 15mg of oxy a day almost every day for 4 years and for the last month I was bangin H(not a lot, I would split a point(.1) with my fiancé, and that was a once a day thing but not every day). So I'm not as bad as the majority of ppl that have been doin multiple pills/bags a day every day. But by no means do I think I'm any better than anyone else or that my w/Ds won't be as bad cuz they so get pretty intense for me.

I don't get sever withdrawals, just RLS, Insomnia, and upset stomach. I'm thinking the physical withdrawals will last 6-7 days cuz one time I went a week without anything and was feeling great, I know this is a process that never stops but I know the physical pain from withdrawals isn't forever. I don't have much support at home. My fiancé is in a detox facility not too far away from me but DSS has been involved so my daughter has to stay at her aunts and I'm only allowed supervised visits until this is over with. So my dad is really the only personal support I have. My mom is also in rehab for alcohol but I'm no going into tha.

So I just wanted to stop by here in hopes of getting some extra support. Hearing stories of sober life from others that have used before gives me something to work for. It's been over 4 years since I was last "normal". I use it as motivation but I'm just looking for a little more.

Well thanks for hearing me out. I hope to be able to talk to some of you soon. I'll also post my progress and let you all know how I'm doing if you would like me too. Like a public journal entry haha

 

[herbavore]

Welcome, OxyGhost! Posting your progress can really help you and it helps others too, so please do. Jump into the March Staying Sober thread, too. It can be inspiring and reassuring to hear from fellow travelers on the same road as you have embarked on.

 

[love88]

Hey OG! Jus wanted to say that I'm just starting my 3rd day too! We are kinda starting at the same time. I also came on here for support bc I have no one to talk to me
Im using gabapentin and flexiral to get through the wds. I actually feel ok.... Jus alil emotional and my legs hurt alil. I'm trying to go to sleep lol

Keep up the good work!F:D

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

Hey OG! Jus wanted to say that I'm just starting my 3rd day too! We are kinda starting at the same time. I also came on here for support bc I have no one to talk to me
Im using gabapentin and flexiral to get through the wds. I actually feel ok.... Jus alil emotional and my legs hurt alil. I'm trying to go to sleep lol

Keep up the good work!F:D

Wow! I never expected to find someone at the same place I'm at. I figured it would be a lot of ppl who WANT to quit or have been off the stuff for a while now but I think we can use this to our advantage. Just as we both stated, we don't have really any support or ppl to talk to. So if your ever feeling doubtful or discouraged the you can always PM or come back to this thread and talk to. Me and the others and ill do the same to you.

I'm not takin any meds. I don't have any or the money to get any OTC meds so I'm just sucking it up. I could've sworn my mom had some Gaba around but idk where it is, I've heard it's a life saver. But I have a lot of faith in myself. But I'm still in pain. I've had terrible RLS all day but surprisingly it's easing up on me. My stomach is a little upset and yeah I hear ya on the no sleep, insomnia is a bitch. I've only gotten a few hours of sleep these past few days. I've tried some Lorazepam to see if it would help me fall asleep by it didn't, I figured a dose of 2 1/2mg would do it but apparent not but I'm out of them now. And THANKS! You keep up the good work to we got this, we can do it!

 

[Ziggy stardust]

Wow! I never expected to find someone at the same place I'm at. I figured it would be a lot of ppl who WANT to quit or have been off the stuff for a while now but I think we can use this to our advantage. Just as we both stated, we don't have really any support or ppl to talk to. So if your ever feeling doubtful or discouraged the you can always PM or come back to this thread and talk to. Me and the others and ill do the same to you.

I'm not takin any meds. I don't have any or the money to get any OTC meds so I'm just sucking it up. I could've sworn my mom had some Gaba around but idk where it is, I've heard it's a life saver. But I have a lot of faith in myself. But I'm still in pain. I've had terrible RLS all day but surprisingly it's easing up on me. My stomach is a little upset and yeah I hear ya on the no sleep, insomnia is a bitch. I've only gotten a few hours of sleep these past few days. I've tried some Lorazepam to see if it would help me fall asleep by it didn't, I figured a dose of 2 1/2mg would do it but apparent not but I'm out of them now. And THANKS! You keep up the good work to we got this, we can do it!

It's nice to have a jump buddy. When I quit subs I had three other people quit with me.
Really hot baths right before bed will help the restless legs....also Imodium and ibprofen, both you can get at the drug store.
Benadryl can help you sleep...but it can also make RLs worse, so be careful.
Good luck..your doing the right thing for you child and you!

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

It's nice to have a jump buddy. When I quit subs I had three other people quit with me.
Really hot baths right before bed will help the restless legs....also Imodium and ibprofen, both you can get at the drug store.
Benadryl can help you sleep...but it can also make RLs worse, so be careful.
Good luck..your doing the right thing for you child and you!

Yeah hot baths help me a lot. I usually try to take them at night so I can get some sleep but some times my RLS is just so bad that I have to take one earlier in the day but as far as getting OTC meds, I have a good chance of not getting them. You see, my family is in a very hard place. My parents literally have no money. My fiancé gave them $1000 of her tax money just so they could make the payment to keep the house. One of my brothers has had to pay the past payment for my dads car and yesterday one of my other brothers gave them $200 for insurance and groceries. So we're goin trough hard times. My dads job is screwing him over and my mom isn't working. She's in a rehab and I'm also out of work but I'm looking.

But anyways, My Official Day 3 Progress - Feeling a little worse than yesterday. My RLS isn't as bad but my stomach is hurting worse and I've got a headache. Although I'm feeling worse and I feel like I wanna use but I'm not going to. I don't have the money for anything but if I did than I still wouldn't. I'd use the money for a new BF4 copy since mine is scratched haha

I'm looking forward to see what tomorrow brings!

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

Day 4

Well day 4 is starting and I feel alright, better than the previous day. Although RLS has kept me up all night I can definitely feel a difference in its intensity, in a good way that is. My only concern is that I've fallen in a deep state of depression. Mainly due to my fiancé being away and me not having any contact what so ever with her so far hopefully I can get time to go see her on Sunday. That would cheer me up tremendously. I'm also visiting my daughter Sunday so that's gonna help too.

Well I just wanted to let everyone know how I was and that I'm still going strong. Hope all is well with everyone else!

 

[Ridethecircuswheel]

1. dude, you're doing it cold turkey. that's something most people can't even do. I certainly can't. I think the withdrawal always sucks when it gets into the depression.. there's a certain emptiness to it.

And you said earlier than you were feeling great after day 5.. just keep that in mind. Just keep thinking "Everyone else feels shitty on their 5th day.. but i feel great." it took me years to think that way. If you think you're not doing that bad and realize it's NOT THAT BAD and could possibly even be worse (imagine benzo withdrawal, ive never gone through it, but i heard it's worse) and start thinking stuff like "every other junkie out there is using.. but i'm not, because im special" and just remember and for gods sake REMEMBER you're on day 4 now, and the worst is over. it's all smooth sailing. you're gonna feel unhappy but its up to you to make yourself feel happy. make a list of ways your life is going to improve without using. my favorite is "that first paycheck ill get without spending it on drugs" and "the feeling of wake up and not take something to get me through the next 24"

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

1. dude, you're doing it cold turkey. that's something most people can't even do. I certainly can't. I think the withdrawal always sucks when it gets into the depression.. there's a certain emptiness to it.

Haha yeah I had to abruptly quit cold turkey. I wasn't a heavy user except for the past couple months, tax money! But I was usually doing 15mg oxy almost every day and then .1 of H every day for a month almost. My fiancé was supporting both out habits and it was her idea to get clean in the first place. Her dad just kinda came to our house and took her to the hospital. So there was nothing I could do. If her dad didnt come get her than we'd be using right now as we speak.

I kinda wasn't ready to quit but in a way I was ready. I loved the high but hated my life when I wasn't. So I'm glad he came and got her and left me with no choice. Shit was gonna start going down if none if this would've happnened. Apparently my dad was gonna have our daughter taken from us and was gonna kick us out of the house and I think he told my Fiancés dad that what he was gonna do and that's why he came and took her to the hospital.

Anyways, yes I'm glad it's not benzo withdrawal. I hear that it fucking sucks hard. And I do think some if those things. I'm trying to find a job and I can't remember the last time I had a paycheck that didn't all go towards drugs so it's gonna be nice to actually be able to save money and by myself stuff instead drugs. I think that's what I'm most looking forward to

 

[Ziggy stardust]

And you said earlier than you were feeling great after day 5.. just keep that in mind. Just keep thinking "Everyone else feels shitty on their 5th day.. but i feel great." it took me years to think that way. If you think you're not doing that bad and realize it's NOT THAT BAD and could possibly even be worse (imagine benzo withdrawal, ive never gone through it, but i heard it's worse) and start thinking stuff like "every other junkie out there is using.. but i'm not, because im special" and just remember and for gods sake REMEMBER you're on day 4 now, and the worst is over. it's all smooth sailing. you're gonna feel unhappy but its up to you to make yourself feel happy. make a list of ways your life is going to improve without using. my favorite is "that first paycheck ill get without spending it on drugs" and "the feeling of wake up and not take something to get me through the next 24"

THIS^^^^
Your going to be fine..
This is a fresh start for you and your GF. Hopefully you both can be strong for each other when she gets out...
Oxy abuse will only lead to methadone or sub, and both suck...congrats on your freedom!

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

Well it being officially day 5, physically I feel great but mentally I've gone from bad to even fucking worse. I visited my fiancé and daughter today and found out my fiancé isn't gonna be done with detox until next Friday then she's going to another facility for 14-28 days. This is exactly what I was dreading, my worst nightmare come true. My depression and stuff is through the roof. Idk what I'm gonna do. I was able to find out that I can email her which may help me a little but I wanna hear her voice or see her face.

 

[Ziggy stardust]

Just remember that detox magnifies sadness and depression. What your feeling in WD isn't really the truth.
The positive thing is your GF is getting clean...what's the negative? Do you think your dad will kick you out?
Your kids in safe hands until you both are well...right?
Detox feels like fucken forever, but it's a short time in the long run.
Your gonna get they this and be stronger for it...

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

Just remember that detox magnifies sadness and depression. What your feeling in WD isn't really the truth.
The positive thing is your GF is getting clean...what's the negative? Do you think your dad will kick you out?
Your kids in safe hands until you both are well...right?
Detox feels like fucken forever, but it's a short time in the long run.
Your gonna get they this and be stronger for it...

The negative is i cant be with either of them even though its only temporary it still hurts. and no my dad isnt gonna kick me out, not now. he was only gonna kick me out cuz i was using but now that im gettin clean hes not going to and yeah my daughter is at her aunts house but shes lives in another city about 45min away but we're trying to get DSS to interview my grandma so my daughter can move to her house for a while cuz my grandma lives 1min from me so it would be easier for me to see her and she would be able to stay in school, thats what im most concerned about. shes in a headstart program, kinda like preschool, but she isnt going right now cuz shes at her aunts. i just want her to be able to stay in school especially since shes gonna be starting kindergarten.

but as Day 6 approaches im feeling great physically. Mentally im alright, im doing better than i was earlier today. yeah having only an hour to see my daughter and fiance sucked and having to leave them sucked but as the night progresses im feeling better. i was in constant contact with my fiance via email ever since i left visitation. i really needed it, having no contact with her for the past 5 days was hard. i didnt know how she was or any info on what she was doing but now that ive been talking to her i feel better. shes told me everything i needed/wanted to know even though some of it was not what i wanted to hear

 

[Ziggy stardust]

Glad your feeling better. Sub WD comes in waves, so don't be suprised if you feel shitty again. Sub WD typically lasts two weeks or more, so hang in there!

 

[Oxy_Ghost]

Glad your feeling better. Sub WD comes in waves, so don't be suprised if you feel shitty again. Sub WD typically lasts two weeks or more, so hang in there!

I'm not coming off of subs. I quit cold turkey from oxycodone and H. I was using oxy for a little over 4 years and I was using H everyday for a month up until I quit