my dad will beat me with a belt when i mess up and say that is what god wants him to do something like "I don't like hitting you, but god has told me what to do" delusional shit like that. they think god talks to them all the time. god told me to get gas at this station. I don't know if there is a god but i'm prety F'in shure he isn't telling people where to or not to get gas.
Well, you said it yourself: delusional. Not to mention abusive. There are some things that used to pass muster and that just don't anymore. Beating kids with belts under God's orders ... well, that's one of 'em. Sorry, but this ain't the 1800s. Besides, how have you "messed up"? I'm really curious, actually. What could a 14-year-old have done to warrant treatment like that?
Sir Blue, I'm really sorry this is happening to you. (I know, I know ... you don't want sympathy!) Just understand that this is not your fault, your issue, your problem -- even though you're smack in the middle of it and bearing the brunt of it. Your parents need help and a solution -- not you. And I can think of so many ways to solve this that would be preferable to your committing suicide. Calling child protective services is a very good suggestion. Take it to the experts who deal with this stuff all the time. If you're broken -- as you say -- let someone else piece this back together. You've suffered enough. If you want out, you can get out. Just please consider trying a new life before ending your only life?
why do you people think dying is so bad?
Honestly, I don't think most of us know a lot about dying. A bunch of us know a lot about living, though. And you've got a lot of it left to do. That's what's "so bad" about the whole thing. I can't even begin to list the million and one things you're going to miss out on if you check out now.
Really though you guys don't get it, you do NOT want to be my friend trust me i'm in 8th grade and have had six different best friends who have all abandoned me, old friends make the worst enemy's and i'm weird I talk way to much and have ADHD, absolutely nobody likes me. let's just skip the friend part of my friendships and move straight to the - loser faggot go kill yourself, part of my friendships.
There are people on this forum who I wouldn't want to be friends with. You're not one of them. You actually sound pretty interesting and together -- for all you've been through! Not every 8th grader out there could sign onto a forum like this and interact with scary grownups (LOL!) the way you have. Some try and most fail. So give yourself some credit, man. The whole paradigm that says you can be friends with only this preselected group of people totally breaks down when you get out into real life. You've got plenty to say in order to hang here. And if you need a little refuge from real life, then you could probably do a lot worse than BL.
Speaking of real life, we were all in 8th grade once. Kids are cruel. I doubt there's a single member of this forum that doesn't get that on some level or another. Things change ... they just do ... constantly. You've had six best friends, which means you'll have another. And another. And in 20 or 30 years you won't even remember who these people were. They'll be a very distant memory. Don't you have distant memories even now? What was it like ten years ago for you? Do you even remember? Lots has changed, right? What's it going to be like ten years from now? 24 ... that's a fucking cool age. So is 34.
I know we're asking you to take a lot on faith, here. Take this, too: if life really did suck and it was worth ending, I'd tell you. I would. I'm not here to paint you an unrealistically rosy picture. I'm here to try and get you to expand the mental timeframe a little bit -- to look just a little further ahead and see that freedom isn't that far away. And that there are a lot of ways to get there.
