Just made the jump from pill popper to dope shooter

[User Name Here]

OP the needle addiction is terrible. I don't even shoot h anymore, but I cant even fucking look at my veins without jonesing. =( The craving doesnt seem to ever go away...

Needle addiction is just so much worse. Snick to snorting it, trust me!!!

I can't either. This is sick and I've never told anyone this before, but my boyfriend has seriously veiny arms and I sometimes look at them and think, "Man, that fat vein would be perfect..."

Yeah, needles are horrible (only stating the obvious).

I don't have much to say to the OP except please don't try this again and quit while you're ahead... Please.

 

[drscience]

lozgod.: you will probably be one of those bums on the street i DO NOT give money to.

pls reconsider your choice to become a junkie.

 

[brettonknight]

I've always felt blessed that the only drugs that ever hit psychologically fertile ground were psycehdelics. I like any drugs really. But the only ones that make my heart race when I think about them are psychedelics. That said Iv'e shot a lot of heroin. There is a solid line between junkie and IV drug user. When I stepped foot into the world of drugs I had a goal and a game plan. Had to lay some ground rules. Like never stealing money for drugs or OD'ing or becoming addicted. I am an occasional IV drug user. But im not a junkie. But when I first entered the world of drugs I didn't really know what I wsa getting into. I thought I'd never understand how people got addicted to shit. After mainlining meth and heroin and shit I get it. I always tell people to try anything once; or I used to before I saw how easy it was for drugs to consume people instead of the other way around. I'll give someone their first mushroom trip any day but I can no longer encourage anyone to try that first shot of heroin. Of all my group of friends who set off to experience every drug under the sun I'm the only one who came out intact. Now all the kids I knew growing up (theyre idiots) are in prison or crippled living with their dad because they hurt every friend they had for drugs. When your'e in deep enough though it starts to become hard to see the forest for the trees. They didn't see untill it was too late that whatever drug ship we were sailing on was headed straight for hell. I might not have if I hadnt had some revelation after a week that I don;t remember where I went through like grams of heroin and oxycontins and 2c's. I actually got to the point where I was putting thought into how I was gonna get drugs. The first time I ever considered theft. But after I unblacked out I was just ashamed of myself for actually letting it all get on top of me. I guess now I just don't do anything if it's not around. I got sick of the money and the drug deals and the bullshit. It was just a hassle. It's nice not to think about that shit anymore. Free drugs? Sure. But there aren't many people actually do drugs in moderation. If you can more power to you. But drugs just lead down a really short road to something usually negative and restraining. Like a coffin, or a jail cell. The worst jail cell though is the mental jail cell you build around yourself so you don;t actually have to face the reality of what your'e becoming. I'm glad I did all the drugs I did. I had confidince that I wouldnt end up like "that guy" and I was right. But nothing has ever had me closer to edge of that cliff that seperates addicts from the drug naive. It's just wierd my whole life I've been a strong stand up dude and I almost betrayed my heart and shit. Looking back I came close. Sometimes life comes and bitch slaps you in the face. But not usually. Your best bet is never getting started. Lifes got some awesome shit that I forgot about when I was worrying about getting drugs and shit. If you ever find yourself in over your head you can do different shit if you want to. I didn;t mean for this to be so long I'm just still kind of appaled at myself. But I figured mabye this shit would help someone. For me it was about respecting myself. Noone deserves to be disrespected especially not by themselves. I've got like 70 more years to do drugs. I'm no longer worried about it. It feels good. Just trying to bring some light to the dark side.

 

[missunderstood]

I've always felt blessed that the only drugs that ever hit psychologically fertile ground were psycehdelics. I like any drugs really. But the only ones that make my heart race when I think about them are psychedelics. That said Iv'e shot a lot of heroin. There is a solid line between junkie and IV drug user. When I stepped foot into the world of drugs I had a goal and a game plan. Had to lay some ground rules. Like never stealing money for drugs or OD'ing or becoming addicted. I am an occasional IV drug user. But im not a junkie. But when I first entered the world of drugs I didn't really know what I wsa getting into. I thought I'd never understand how people got addicted to shit. After mainlining meth and heroin and shit I get it. I always tell people to try anything once; or I used to before I saw how easy it was for drugs to consume people instead of the other way around. I'll give someone their first mushroom trip any day but I can no longer encourage anyone to try that first shot of heroin. Of all my group of friends who set off to experience every drug under the sun I'm the only one who came out intact. Now all the kids I knew growing up (theyre idiots) are in prison or crippled living with their dad because they hurt every friend they had for drugs. When your'e in deep enough though it starts to become hard to see the forest for the trees. They didn't see untill it was too late that whatever drug ship we were sailing on was headed straight for hell. I might not have if I hadnt had some revelation after a week that I don;t remember where I went through like grams of heroin and oxycontins and 2c's. I actually got to the point where I was putting thought into how I was gonna get drugs. The first time I ever considered theft. But after I unblacked out I was just ashamed of myself for actually letting it all get on top of me. I guess now I just don't do anything if it's not around. I got sick of the money and the drug deals and the bullshit. It was just a hassle. It's nice not to think about that shit anymore. Free drugs? Sure. But there aren't many people actually do drugs in moderation. If you can more power to you. But drugs just lead down a really short road to something usually negative and restraining. Like a coffin, or a jail cell. The worst jail cell though is the mental jail cell you build around yourself so you don;t actually have to face the reality of what your'e becoming. I'm glad I did all the drugs I did. I had confidince that I wouldnt end up like "that guy" and I was right. But nothing has ever had me closer to edge of that cliff that seperates addicts from the drug naive. It's just wierd my whole life I've been a strong stand up dude and I almost betrayed my heart and shit. Looking back I came close. Sometimes life comes and bitch slaps you in the face. But not usually. Your best bet is never getting started. Lifes got some awesome shit that I forgot about when I was worrying about getting drugs and shit. If you ever find yourself in over your head you can do different shit if you want to. I didn;t mean for this to be so long I'm just still kind of appaled at myself. But I figured mabye this shit would help someone. For me it was about respecting myself. Noone deserves to be disrespected especially not by themselves. I've got like 70 more years to do drugs. I'm no longer worried about it. It feels good. Just trying to bring some light to the dark side.

It never turns out the way you had planned..never...I had my game on too when I first decided to try heroin..I never became bodily addicted to anything else I indulged in..but that dope sure does have a way about her.....

 

[Decay]

some dude said once that the only way from here is Death, Jail, or Rehab.

 

[Decay]

and look after your veins dude. if you are in this for the long haul, you need them. I got mates that go through a forty five minute treadmill every morning of back of the hands, feet, legs, it makes even me sick to see. in fact most of the time I have to leave the room, cause it helps them concentrate better.... and I am happy to go
Be gentle,

 

[missunderstood]

I would just try to stop now cause shit gets hard...

 

[xsmith28x]

Cheaper for a short period of time till your tollerance goes thru the roof. At one point in time I was shooting $80 shots here in detroit and not even nodding thats how high my tollerance was.

Its a lose/lose situation!

*very much true, suckks! or sucked im currently recovering. took a lot to finally get to the point to where i felt like i could, sadly lots of trouble and such but in the end the trouble was worth getting my life back together although pretty much everyday i would think about dope, mainly when i go out or im mad but i have much better control of myself now. & i wish the best of luck to all that want to get clean.

 

[lozgod]

Congratulations, now you can look forward to the next step or "jump", which is either:

A: You end up in institutionalized, trying desperately to piece some semblance of a life back together or


B: you die.

How about C. 3 Days clean. Thats the current jump I am on.

 

[Detrevni]

The only thing I can say man, and you've already heard it many times, is to stop right now. Even though you are addicted doesn't mean you have to start shooting even though it seems appealing. From the post it seems like this is your first few times shootin' dope. If you only listen to one piece of advice from random strangers on the internet let it be this. Right now you could go right back to snorting and throw those cursed things out because I guarantee you if you stay on this path and come back a month or two from now and read this post again you're gonna regret the decision you made. Well time to get off the soap box cause you're gonna do what you're gonna do but hopefully you won't have to learn the hard way i.e. shooting dope 6 times a day/withdrawal day in and day out. Good luck man and I hope you turn back while it's still easily possible. And just to add I've been there...only shot dope once but used to be hooked to the needle with fiend, oxy, and later suboxone (nasty shit). The needle is just as addictive as what you put in it, imo.