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Just like to share a nice trip after being in a very personal dark space

DeepFriedFunk

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I've just gotten over a mild opiate addiction. Mainly Dihydro-codeine but with occasional bits of morphine if i could get my hands on them, still feeling shitty at times but oh well.

Im also coming off of benzos. So i'm on my reducing dose of 10mg of diazepam.

I've taken a small dose of shrooms I cultivated last summer (Psylocybe Cubensis) and I'd just like to say I'm an alcoholic - 18 months dry. I've had a lot of drug use issues in the past trying to fill a hole but never abused psychedelics, they were always there to learn, to teach me something about myslf.

It's so lovely to look over this minor blip (literally 2 months getting on and off them) I have come so far. I used to think of myself as so weak yet I've overcome so much. I'd just like to share this feeling of bliss I have at finally feeling I'm a decent, beautiful, intelligent person. Not in a selfish way, I am a practicing Gelug Buddhist (despite the obvious drug use issues) I do try. It's as though I could see the beauty in everyone but myself.

It's so nice to finally be free from that guilt and condemnation as a "weak" addict. I think your average joe really cannot comprehend both the stupidity/disparity that got you into the situation in the the first place but more importantly the strength of character it takes to overcome such powerful substances. And continue to do so.

Thanks for anyone willing to listen and just know you're lovely beautiful people too.

**EDIT I didn't do this without a lot of prior research into psychedelics and addiction. It helped me get through the alcohol and it's helped me get through this. They are a tool - I know it's something to be used wisely and not without thinking. Especially not as a replacement!!! God I can't imagine that hell.
 
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I've had my share of struggles with addiction too, and one thing for sure is it works different for everyone. I get mad when people who are able to 'quit' condemn others who can't as 'weak' but that is just the way it is.
 
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