Mental Health Just left a 3 day festival after the first night!?

[james125]

I was at a music festival this weekend taking MDMA & Cocaine. But by midnight on the Friday I was feeling really lonely & depressed, which seems really unusual for MDMA. Granted I did go by myself but 2 weeks prior I went to a festival by myself & I didn't have any problems. I ended up leaving Saturday morning. Has anybody had a similar experience? I'm feeling really disappointed now that my feelings seem to be beyond my control even with drugs, even more disappointed than the £300 wasted on a ticket.

I'm feeling now that I should just avoid drugs completely now. Which would mean not going to any social events because I never socialise sober these days. Which is really depressing. I know I should join some club or hobby etc but I have no idea what I like. All I like doing is getting high so that I don't feel shit but now I can't even do that. Any ideas where to start?

Thanks

 

[pentouch]

Not necessary ,but probably the effects of these drugs will make you unhappy in future and you will mock your self for it ,judging by your honest opinion on why you take drugs in first place. People tend have unhealthy behaviour ,committing to them and systematically repeating it. You feel its not making your life better,remember this feeling you will need it ,when things will get better for you and decide to go back.
All people decide what their hobbies are and maybe your hobby are drugs,but this hobby as well as street racing could lead to bad consequences. So I really dont know what you like and dont know what to suggest,but I have idea I want to really suggest you,it is hard and it is a challenge,but just for fun,try to go party sober,and do exacetally opposite of what you did before-socialise sober,try it again and again,make it happen,be your self,it will be probably awkward,but its only at the beginning and its only awkward if you are afraid,it mostly fun,talking some retarded shit,getting your self into some stupid situations. Everybody like movies,have favorite characters,try to attend acting classes,there are a lot of great people in there,some cute girls too,it could help you to open up,overcome your anxiety,and improve your memory ,by memorising the lines and all..
Great thing is sport,when you dont have your fix,you need to make your body work and occupy your self,working out makes you happier some how,there are plenty articles on that. Running really helps to get out my fruystrations and not think about them after,from there I would suggest to go attend judo or jiu jitsu sections,as there are great people too,and they teach you,discipline,not violence. Hmm...on the other side if you are not fighting type,there are bicycle groups that really are obsessed with biking,they might go on long trips and have good tourism program.
Also I would suggest to create,create,create,hobby,mainly is about creating,either you making a perfect playlist,or do music your self,if painting is your thing,then paint,maybe just splash colors,splash em on the walls,well maybe its sometimes illegal,but its fun mixed with dose of adrenaline. Graffiti pretty much saves my life.
There are lots of possibilities,enjoy them,its your life and you have it once,make your hobby to explore the world holy shit im getting motivated my self now haha...moving is life. Stay motivated my friend,start somewhere

 

[james125]

Thanks pentouch it's easier said than done but I'll give it a go. Think I may start off by seeking some counseling. I have go tickets to a couple of DnB nights in October but I think I'll have to give them a rest until I can get a grasp of reality. I'm trying to take up running...I even joined a club but the people there are so anti-social that it just gets me down.

 

[hydroazuanacaine]

sorry to hear it didn't work out for you. sounds like you have already identified the problem. i have zero temptation to take mdma or cocaine because, if they are good, i am without fail extremely depressed the next day. and that ruins my perception of the previous night.

yeah, being social after giving up substances you depended on for socializing is difficult. don't put it on other people though, because a lot of non-drug users are awesome at being social and do different, fun stuff all the time. not saying i'm good at finding those people, but surely they exist. running does help. best of luck.

 

[paranoid android]

Fucking hell the absolute worst comedown i have ever had in my life was when i shot up a gram of good coke after starting to comedown off a MDMA/MDA roll. My jesus fuck that was a very rough 2 weeks . If i had not had good friends to talk to i probably would have topped myself for sure. So it could very well be that once the coke or MDMA started to wear off you started to just get depressed which is all to normal. When i was 20ish i could go out and hit the Crack pipe or Dexedrine for days and be fine once i came down. However the last time i stayed up for 3 days on Dexedrine i damn near had a full blown nervous breakdown on day 3 and it took me a week to recover. Coke/crack does me in even worse. As i have gotten older comedowns and hangovers really do me in and i can rarely get away with a night of stimulant use without a godawful comedown that makes me wish i never had to touch the stuff.

Back when i quit drinking i had much the same problem as you. I had no friends that didn't drink so suddenly i had no friends left. I ended up becoming a total exercise addict until a shoulder injury stopped that. But it did work for me so i would say give it a shot. There is nothing wrong with going out and having a good time just don't over do it to the point whee you want to fucking kill yourself the next day.

 

[dmtmixalis]

Creamfields or Leeds/reading?

Unfortunately for some, years of indulging in substances compounds to the point where you can no longer tolerate the comedowns. It's sucks big time, I had to lay down the uppers for this reason.

Exercise helps get the endorphins swimming, but trying to find joy in sober life is a brutal journey. It is possible though.

 

[Phil.McKeer]

I was at a music festival this weekend taking MDMA & Cocaine. But by midnight on the Friday I was feeling really lonely & depressed, which seems really unusual for MDMA....

I didn't read the other replies, but in my experience, every time I've done MDMA and subsequently used cocaine (while the MDMA was still active), it completely destroyed the effects of the MDMA and ended my roll.

Never mix cocaine with MDMA unless you want to waste your disco biscuits. You probably cut off your roll and that's why you stopped "feeling it".