well to tell you the truth, i did DXm alot in rehab, and drank alot too. noo im defiantly not stopping E, but itl be sketchy rolincuz i get randomly tested 2 times a month
Thats a bad path to go down, the chances of you failing a drug test are gonna be real high, and if I remember your story correctly this is for probation? It's gonna take a lot of luck to drop clean and not avoid more charges or a felony.
Now I'm not talking down, I'm only a few years older and not much more experinced in life; but I do know the digging a hole like this when your young can feel imposable to climb back out of as the years drag on, this is the time in your life when you start to really form who you are, don't make your whole personality one focused on drugs, it's not to late, definitely not as you clearly are reaching out for help of your own volition.
Really you need to start by manning (or womening) up and really cutting back the drug use to nothing, quick, cold turkey if fesable. Ya just got to do. I bet it would do a lot of good to get some sober time and see thing from another prespective, you where using in rehab I would imagine it would be hard to honestly focus on treatment. I just feel that with your current situation if you really want to use you should wait a while and stay clean for a bit, else you get caught up using and put yourself in a bad situation where you couldn't get high if ya wanted to and could pay 10x street price.
I guess my point is if ya don't want to be clean, at least take a break from the drugs for the sake of being able to get high. I feel like thats horrible advice for TDS but a little clean time can do a lot of good.
Good luck DXM, I wish you the best of luck and truly hope things start coming together for you, they certainly will with enough effort, but I know those first steps are hard.