CyaLuvyaBye
Bluelighter
Ive been rolling for a while now workin at clubs and raving but i have just recently discovered the home pill
bout 4 weeks ago i had a dinner at my house the first real entertaining ive done at home since leaving my husband months ago and i invited MY type of people the ones he'd never approve of, i had a dancer a photogapher a gay couple and a dj to name a few, all e users and all feel plur even tho in melbourne australia we didnt no this word existed to explain the feeling until i found u guys
i made thai food we ate we did a few j's we rolled and we danced all in my little unit and everybody felt comfortable and close and plur
my friend said this is exactly wat this place has been waiting for-its so u! and it was. i think one of the best nites i have ever had. i have had alot of house parties but always i was worried if everyone was happy liked the music blah blah and if it was a sucess well i didnt feel that this time it was small and beautiful i fitted in it was me
well tonite/lastnite(its 6am now) i went to the dancer/photographers place for a similar thing. well i love raving but this was so beautiful too i love it, to feel the closeness and love u feel at a rave but with only ur true closest friends not just e friends (hope that doesnt sound bad cos we the e friends have such a bond too but u no wat i mean i hope, probly no one has bothered reading this far anywaz i no im raving but i gotta)
Anywaz it was the photographers birthday and we got him to say a speach he said something like this; for all the things before you and all the things you want to accomplish and all the things u thought were not possible its now here we r doing them we r living our lives
i cant remember exactly how he said it but this is the gist anyway i just felt like after all these years of torture not being who i truly am not loving myself never expecting to achieve i have arrived at this place everything is posible everything that i want i can achieve ive written a few poems in here bout loving myself and thats one thing i have never done i hated myself allowing myself to be wat others wanted and since i found this scene i am me we are striving to be the best but not in a selfish way like the others. WE are striving for love and peace......for plur
this is what i have searched for, exceptance to be me understanding openmindedness which really is unconditional love. i have found it thru my friends thru my e friends thru myself
its not about picking up guys/girls and takin them home its not about looking good and being the hottest person around its about exceptance about these people allowing u to love urself i love e i love u guys and im learning to love even me
i know we r spossed to spell properly in here and use correct grammer but ive taken artistic liberty because i needed to get this down on paper a.s.a.p.
and if u have got all the way here to the end i thank you so much for listening to me i thankyou and share with you....PLUR
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i thought it was you i needed nevertheless i have learnt thru the pain i needed me
bout 4 weeks ago i had a dinner at my house the first real entertaining ive done at home since leaving my husband months ago and i invited MY type of people the ones he'd never approve of, i had a dancer a photogapher a gay couple and a dj to name a few, all e users and all feel plur even tho in melbourne australia we didnt no this word existed to explain the feeling until i found u guys
i made thai food we ate we did a few j's we rolled and we danced all in my little unit and everybody felt comfortable and close and plur
my friend said this is exactly wat this place has been waiting for-its so u! and it was. i think one of the best nites i have ever had. i have had alot of house parties but always i was worried if everyone was happy liked the music blah blah and if it was a sucess well i didnt feel that this time it was small and beautiful i fitted in it was me
well tonite/lastnite(its 6am now) i went to the dancer/photographers place for a similar thing. well i love raving but this was so beautiful too i love it, to feel the closeness and love u feel at a rave but with only ur true closest friends not just e friends (hope that doesnt sound bad cos we the e friends have such a bond too but u no wat i mean i hope, probly no one has bothered reading this far anywaz i no im raving but i gotta)
Anywaz it was the photographers birthday and we got him to say a speach he said something like this; for all the things before you and all the things you want to accomplish and all the things u thought were not possible its now here we r doing them we r living our lives
i cant remember exactly how he said it but this is the gist anyway i just felt like after all these years of torture not being who i truly am not loving myself never expecting to achieve i have arrived at this place everything is posible everything that i want i can achieve ive written a few poems in here bout loving myself and thats one thing i have never done i hated myself allowing myself to be wat others wanted and since i found this scene i am me we are striving to be the best but not in a selfish way like the others. WE are striving for love and peace......for plur
this is what i have searched for, exceptance to be me understanding openmindedness which really is unconditional love. i have found it thru my friends thru my e friends thru myself
its not about picking up guys/girls and takin them home its not about looking good and being the hottest person around its about exceptance about these people allowing u to love urself i love e i love u guys and im learning to love even me
i know we r spossed to spell properly in here and use correct grammer but ive taken artistic liberty because i needed to get this down on paper a.s.a.p.
and if u have got all the way here to the end i thank you so much for listening to me i thankyou and share with you....PLUR
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i thought it was you i needed nevertheless i have learnt thru the pain i needed me
