Benzos Just got Clonazepam(Klonopin) prescribed, have questions

[Stay.Blazed.420]

so i've been tellin my doc i've been having bad anxiety over the years and its only gotten worse. then he put me on citalopram but that just made me more bi polar.

my doc already suspects i'm a drug seeker ever since i tried to get a script for dex. he was very reluctant but could tell my anxiety was bad. he also treats my dad (whom i havent talked to in years) and hes on all sorts of benzos and ssri's.. i'm assuming it's genetic. ANYWAY..

i am only prescribed to take two 0.5mg tabs a day. however i'd say i need about 3 or sometimes 4 a day. i honest to god havent ever used ANY benzo recreationally before nor am i doing now. the problem is, these things are fucking amazing and help incredibly. i'd say theres a very high mood increase and some incredible anxiety relief. (I'm rank as fuck bi-polar, depressed, and have anger issues, and have trouble speaking my thoughts or being ridiculously OCD)

the doc said i can only be on these for 3 months as a temporary fix.... but i've already used 6 extra days worth and i PROMISE (not that it means anything to anyone here) i have NEVER taken these to get high. after i noticed i was low (i gave my brother and gf a few because they also get anxiety but haven't sought help) i started taking them only when the anxiety got really bad. the past 3 days i have been taking one a day and i'm really feeling the urge to do a second and third to feel the appropriate amount of relief.

i was suposed to see my psychiatrist to get some real results but funnily enough the same hospital scheduled my nose surgery for the same time. now i have to way until may even though i got a referral and citalopram prescribed in december.... anyway the question im asking is, how do i get my doc to not take me off these? and raise the dose? they legitimately help me and make me function properly especially in social environments. these are fucking miracle pills words cannot describe the amount of relief i get from these.. but im only half way in my first month of having them and my doc already suspects i'm a drug seeker... what do i do? wait to see my psych doc?

quickquestion two. i took 2 dexedrine, and some dirty e pills that were just 2c-e, and a little meth and a little mdma last night. the e pills wore off comletely (time is now 1:56 and i took my last at 3:30am) I also consumed two 15 mg dexedrine before the e. the other two who took it stayed up until 11am with me and started falling asleep until i got us 2 more dex each. so now here i am with no sleep and all i feel is dex and e hangover, and i'm wondering if it's:
A) a good idea to take one (complications with ups and downs)
B) worth using my precious, rare anxiety pills over my own fault for feeling this way


like... the dex is feeling great. i just have anxiety.

sorry for how i typed this thread out i probably sound like an idiot. thanks in advance for any replies.

also, can i take these pills (little orange ones but only .5) sublingually? would that make a difference at all? ever since i realized im low i ONLY take one when i have an attack. i usually chew em if its right after an attack. but would under the tongue be better?

 

[chitown rollin]

First off yes it would be a good idea to take them right now. Coming off of stimulants I always need a benzo handy to calm myself down, plus it feels amazing. I would not recommend upping the dose of the klonopin, however. Although Klonopin is long lasting and has a lower abuse potential than, say, Xanax (the devil), it's only a matter of time before you start to buy benzos off the street because you ran out of your script and think that you need them so badly. My addiction to benzos became it's worst when I was prescribed to Xanax by a doctor that I manipulated for my own benefit and I regret it so much. You say you've only been prescribed these for half of a month and trust me if you already like them so much you will eventually wind up right in the spot that I did if you keep on taking them. Before you know it benzos will be your drug of choice.

 

[Znegative]

I always take my clonazepam sublingually. I've tapered down to the dosage you're on now. The thing you don't seem to notice is that the high that people speak of in regards to benzo's is the experience that you described as mood elevating etc... Then again, the point of the drug is to basically kill the anxiety, and for new users, that usually gets them high too.

 

[Stay.Blazed.420]

First off yes it would be a good idea to take them right now. Coming off of stimulants I always need a benzo handy to calm myself down, plus it feels amazing. I would not recommend upping the dose of the klonopin, however. Although Klonopin is long lasting and has a lower abuse potential than, say, Xanax (the devil), it's only a matter of time before you start to buy benzos off the street because you ran out of your script and think that you need them so badly. My addiction to benzos became it's worst when I was prescribed to Xanax by a doctor that I manipulated for my own benefit and I regret it so much. You say you've only been prescribed these for half of a month and trust me if you already like them so much you will eventually wind up right in the spot that I did if you keep on taking them. Before you know it benzos will be your drug of choice.

the thing is is that i want to save them.. i actually need these

 

[Eyes On the Roll]

wow, good on on getting the klonopin, im bi polar with high anxiety as well and always thought this would be a good medication. If you can, try to weather through the come down of dexedrine, some alcohol could help sedate you and make you feel better. I'd say to try and save the klonopin, you'll need what you have

 

[kmatrixg]

I was prescribed Klonopin for anxiety and was taking it for two months. When the last script ran out, I stopped taking it no problem. It lasts a hell of a lot longer throughout the day and works that much better than xanax which is why I loved it.

If you feel a worried sensation about running out, you may be addicted. Benzo's are normally administered to take away the acute effects of anxiety while you transform your life through therapy, exercise and a healthy lifestyle. Simply relying on these and these only will result in what you are feeling now.

Yes they work incredibly, but reliance on them for relief is not the way to handle anxiety and panic. You must change your lifestyle instead of sweeping the problem under the rug. Chances are, the doctor will not extend your prescription and if he does, he's not a doctor focused on your well-being.

 

[STEROIDS4kids]

Well i feel for you, whatever the reason is for your anxiety NOTHING works as noticeable and fast as benzos. I know that there's a lot of things that you can do to relieve your anxiety, but none of them compare to benzos. Thanks to Xanax i've been able to keep the same job for over three years and i'm able to live a somewhat normal life. I have no intentions of ever stopping them and yes i've done many rounds of therapy etc. but just try meditating in a public place when your heart is coming out of your chest and you feel like dying (literally)...

OK, so here's my advice for you, (take it for what it's worth)...

1. Stop or at least reduce the amount of stimulants, they exacerbate your issues...

2. Find another doctor, one that will give you the help you NEED that is, a bigger dose and more of them. I've taken benzos 8+ years and my dosage is pretty much the same as it was when me and my doc finally figured out my issues.

All the best!

 

[Alex000]

Find another doc if you have to, preferably a psychiatrist. Tell the current doc your seeing that the Klonopin is helping, but that you are still quite anxious, if he feels your doesn't need to be upped, ask for a referal to a psychiatrist, or find one yourself. Klonopin is quite helpful in anxiety management, and commonly prescribed.

 

[ro0ga]

Yeah, of course klonopin is going to be a miracle drug in reducing your anxiety, but you can't expect to solely rely on them for that purpose because you're going to build a tolerance and seeing how your doctor seems, he's not going to go for increasing your dose and you're just going to get them yanked and possibly experience a bit of withdrawal. I think the major key is, you can't expect to live your life completely anxiety free. Taking 3-4 of them will take your anxiety away, but maybe it's best if you try just taking 1 of them to slightly reduce your anxiety to a point where you can cope, and then work on finding out coping skills to deal with it. You can't expect to just take 4 klonopins all the time to erase your anxiety. It does work miracles, but life isn't supposed to be completely anxiety free, and relying on the klonopin to do the job for you is just going to open a can of worms. That's the problem that gets opiate users into trouble...they get a taste of that wonderful euphoria, and want to ALWAYS feel that way, and end up becoming physically addicted. Use it sparingly, and in the meantime try to find a new doctor that will prescribe them to you more liberally. Try taking just 1 pill though rather than 3 or 4, it obviously won't "erase" your anxiety, but it will help.

 

[Stay.Blazed.420]

i just had major nose surgery and have two huge cotton wads in my nose as well as a brace. it is constant anxiety. i usually take 3 or 4 just to ease it away. then i just woke up at 4am to see my girilfriend is missing, and so is my fucking car. so that means this guy my brother is friends with (fat black guy who has no physically attractive features at all) stole my fucking keys and took my girlfriend drinking to god knows where and now its 5 am and im panicking as fuck. dont even have my fucking car and nobody said a word to me where they were fucking going.
do i take more? like this is fucked im just sitting here wide awake at 5 am stressing the fuck out

these .5mg pills do fuck all i need like 3 to feel any relief. i still punch holes in walls when im on them

 

[Captain.Heroin]

i just had major nose surgery and have two huge cotton wads in my nose as well as a brace. it is constant anxiety. i usually take 3 or 4 just to ease it away. then i just woke up at 4am to see my girilfriend is missing, and so is my fucking car. so that means this guy my brother is friends with (fat black guy who has no physically attractive features at all) stole my fucking keys and took my girlfriend drinking to god knows where and now its 5 am and im panicking as fuck. dont even have my fucking car and nobody said a word to me where they were fucking going.
do i take more? like this is fucked im just sitting here wide awake at 5 am stressing the fuck out

these .5mg pills do fuck all i need like 3 to feel any relief. i still punch holes in walls when im on them

If you can't get in contact with them, and you don't know where they are, call the police. They stole your car and you need it.

Taking benzos isn't going to help the situation; do something about this, then take a benzo if it's necessary.

i still punch holes in walls when im on them

Sounds like it isn't working for you and you should try another benzodiazepine, lorazepam is a widely accepted benzo by many doctors. I think it could work better for you.

 

[Pegasus]

i just had major nose surgery and have two huge cotton wads in my nose as well as a brace. it is constant anxiety. i usually take 3 or 4 just to ease it away. then i just woke up at 4am to see my girilfriend is missing, and so is my fucking car. so that means this guy my brother is friends with (fat black guy who has no physically attractive features at all) stole my fucking keys and took my girlfriend drinking to god knows where and now its 5 am and im panicking as fuck. dont even have my fucking car and nobody said a word to me where they were fucking going.
do i take more? like this is fucked im just sitting here wide awake at 5 am stressing the fuck out

these .5mg pills do fuck all i need like 3 to feel any relief. i still punch holes in walls when im on them

It sounds to me like your doses are too high, actually. Clonazepam is a very subtle drug and if you are punching holes in walls, you are likely experiencing "benzo rage", which comes about from high dose benzos. If you decide to continue with clonazepam, I recommend doses of 1mg or less, it really is a very potent drug and I think you will be surprised at the results at this level. If this level of dosing does not work for you, I'm going to say that clonazepam is probably not for you and you should pursue another benzo, maybe alprazolam in doses of around 1mg, or possibly another category of drug altogether.

 

[NeighborhoodThreat]

^Agreed. Benzo rage is a sign that you're taking a bit too much.

Hopefully you were able to get your car back, I agree with C.H, contact the police, it sounds like they stole your car!

 

[euphoricc]

yes please pleaee please please do not over do it i cannot stress it enough! I know it feels so good but man the wd is so bad man i swear to u, i am a very experienced user im also on suboxone i got to .5 mg sub then off.........O MY JUS MY WORSE NIGHTMARE so i grabbed my green friends tryin to stop rls i ate them all called my dr and said ehhh o i lost my pills he jusst cut me off i dealt with sub/benzo wd oooooooooooo glad it over hopefully it was my last dance. but have fun tread lightly peace .,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,euph

 

[Stay.Blazed.420]

so 30 minutes after my last reply the police show up at my door with the guy who stole my car, and my girlfriend.

my car has been impounded for 30 days because the asshole had no license and was drunk. the officer asked if i wanted to let my intoxicated girlfriend in the house or to the drunk tank. i thought it would be smarter to let her in.

little did i know how blacked out off a 26 of vodka she was. i just had major reconstructive nose surgery 3 days ago and she ended up having an episode of extreme depressive/angry mania and punched me multiple times in the face, knocking the splint off my freshly fixed nose (which is now re-broken and has been bleeding for hours)

i had no choice byt to call the police. now my girlfriend is in jail, and i cant contact her for 6 days until court. i never wanted to press charged but i guess under the domestic violence act it's out of my control.

so now im sitting here with a re-broken nose (which i waited 8 months to have the corrective surgery), and my girlfriend is in jail being held with assault charges.

i have now taken 5 of my clonazepam and the last of my T3's. i'm still a nervous wreck. suicide is all i can think aboout.

 

[Pegasus]

^Benzos don't usually help with suicidal feelings, in fact they often make them much worse...

 

[Stay.Blazed.420]

before i took these benzos i was huddled in a ball shaking back in fourth like a nervous wreck crying my eyes out repeating over and over "i wish i was dead, i wish i was dead"

if anything these are helping.

and to the 'benzo rage' thing. i never experienced that. i just experienced rage while on only 1 .5mg pill when im supposed to take two. it was just rage, not 'benzo rage'

 

[Pegasus]

^How long before you were huddled in a ball sobbing had you last touched benzos? I'm not going to argue this with you, just keep in mind that benzos are known to make depressed people more suicidal (one of the reasons it is for anxiety NOT depression). It isn't just while under the effects that this is a problem, it is more after the effects wear off where the problem arises..

 

[Stay.Blazed.420]

i took 1 when the whole ordeal went down. i tried to keep her calm i tried to keep her hands away from my nose. but she kept striking me. I told her 'you hit me in the nose three times now and punched me twice. once more and i will slap you' and she hit me again so i slapped her across the face, and told her to snap the fuck out of it.
then she wouldnt let me out of the bathroom saying shit like 'you dont love me, you never did, you're a liar' etc.. until finally after i had been yelling for my roommate to call the cops for like 3 minutes he finally came in, bear hugged her so i could escape the bathroom. then i said im calling the cops, grabbed the phone and went downstairs.

i had no intention of calling the police yet, but when she hit me one last time in the nose and blood started gushing out i yanked her to the ground, put all my weight into my knees onto her arms and called 911 right in front of her

 

[Stay.Blazed.420]

this is all so fucked we've been having such a great relationship lately. just moved into a new place. fuck my life why did this happen. why did that fucking asshole steal my car and get my gf drunk off her fucking ass that she blacked out and would hit her boyfriend in the nose.

im going to fuck this jamie person up. badly.

ps her last punch to my nose was 4 hrs ago. im still bleeding