I've been applying for jobs, gone to interviews and it's always the same outcome - 'sorry but you've been unsuccessful on this occasion'. I'm doing all the right things and i've given 100% so what gives?
I might be over-qualified for the jobs i'm applying for. A supermarket probably doesn't want an undergrad working for them as a shelf stacker because they imagine they won't stick around for long and they'd be right, i can do better.
I just need a job though, any job. Anything is better than having too much free time to think. Me alone with my thoughts is a dangerous place. My shit tinted glasses begin to convince me i'm worthless and that my life is pointless so stop trying. I'm not using drugs other than some diazepam to ease my anxiety but i can see myself slipping into that hole again and it's a long way down.
I had a thought today that maybe karma exists and this is my punishment for all the hurt i've caused but if that's true then karma really is a bitch because my family are also hurting.
I'm not going to give up.
I might be over-qualified for the jobs i'm applying for. A supermarket probably doesn't want an undergrad working for them as a shelf stacker because they imagine they won't stick around for long and they'd be right, i can do better.
I just need a job though, any job. Anything is better than having too much free time to think. Me alone with my thoughts is a dangerous place. My shit tinted glasses begin to convince me i'm worthless and that my life is pointless so stop trying. I'm not using drugs other than some diazepam to ease my anxiety but i can see myself slipping into that hole again and it's a long way down.
I had a thought today that maybe karma exists and this is my punishment for all the hurt i've caused but if that's true then karma really is a bitch because my family are also hurting.
I'm not going to give up.