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Bluelight Crew
Ever since this covid19 shit has been going on I have been feeling more and more stressed out with everything. The main thing that bugs me is my job. I work at a mens drug & alco treatment center and I am grateful that I have a job now, but haven't been feeling to grateful here lately at work. Mostly because I feel like it's just the monitors there that are running the show because all of the program heads are only working 1 day a week, or just working from home entirely. Which I cant seem to understand why. I mean I know they do it because they dont want to be sick and all, but what about us? that are literally on the front lines of the shit, working with homeless men that are coming off the streets? Some of the staff there really fucking piss me off because they try to make it aware that they still get paid a solid 40 hour work week when they work from home, or only show up for 1 hour a day and call it quits.
Us/front line workers don't get the same privilege as they do, and we do not get any added bonus's for working our solid work schedule. wait I take that back, the 'upper management' had cooked barBq for all of the monitors for our 'outstanding service', and to be honest I could fucking care less. I am already struggling as it is with car issues, rent, groceries and everything in life that costs money, but they would rather cook us food.
I just don't understand it, and the more I think about it the more upset I become. Everyone here is flaunting their stimulus checks letting everyone else know that they got paid, while the rest of us either haven't filed taxes yet, or isn't getting a check at all due to the 'why wont you get a check' reasons.
Not to mention my fucking car broke down, and I wasted $50 on getting this 'cracked head gasket liquid' that you pour in your radiator which didn't work, and if all it started smoking even worse, now I am going to have to start walking to work again because the bus's here are unreliable during all of this shit.
Just been really struggling here lately, i have been diagnosed with depression awhile back and I feel myself creeping closer and closer towards the edge of a mental breakdown and have the slightest idea of what will happen when i lose my shit. The thought of getting high again has been more and more on my mind, and to be honest a big shot of h sounds fucking great right now.
Just can't seem to shake this shit.
Us/front line workers don't get the same privilege as they do, and we do not get any added bonus's for working our solid work schedule. wait I take that back, the 'upper management' had cooked barBq for all of the monitors for our 'outstanding service', and to be honest I could fucking care less. I am already struggling as it is with car issues, rent, groceries and everything in life that costs money, but they would rather cook us food.
I just don't understand it, and the more I think about it the more upset I become. Everyone here is flaunting their stimulus checks letting everyone else know that they got paid, while the rest of us either haven't filed taxes yet, or isn't getting a check at all due to the 'why wont you get a check' reasons.
Not to mention my fucking car broke down, and I wasted $50 on getting this 'cracked head gasket liquid' that you pour in your radiator which didn't work, and if all it started smoking even worse, now I am going to have to start walking to work again because the bus's here are unreliable during all of this shit.
Just been really struggling here lately, i have been diagnosed with depression awhile back and I feel myself creeping closer and closer towards the edge of a mental breakdown and have the slightest idea of what will happen when i lose my shit. The thought of getting high again has been more and more on my mind, and to be honest a big shot of h sounds fucking great right now.
Just can't seem to shake this shit.
