Nighthowl
Bluelighter
Hello all. Been reading this site for quite some time. Finally decided to join. Just a little about myself. I was diagnosed bipolar with PTSD, anxiety disorder, and OCD tendencies 2 years ago, following an intense 8 months of manic/depressive cycles. The strongest manic cycle I've ever experienced happening in February of that year. Looking back, I know I've been bipolar my entire life. Possibly even autistic in early childhood. I'm 38, so I don't believe much was known about these disorders back then.
I am currently at a crossroads of sorts. Prescribed 40mg Prozac, 200mg Seroquel, 20mg Pantaprazpanole, 30mg Buspar, 0.5mg Ativan. The prozac has basically pooped out on me. The Seroquel knocks me out for the day. However, the Buspar and Ativan do work well for the anxiety.
I have decided over the past few days to conduct an experiment of sorts. I work nights, and to counteract the Seroquel grogginess I've been taking OTC caffeine pills for the past few weeks. Years ago I took mini thins religiously and later Ripped Fuel ( the one with Ephedra before it was banned ). This would keep me wired continuously. Miss those days.
Anyway, back to the present, the caffeine pills I'm currently taking have me flirting with a hypomanic/manic episode. I SO MISS the high of the mania, so I'm hoping one is triggered although I fear the crash that comes after.
So that's where I'm at currently. Hit me up if you're having a similar experience as I. I should also note I have in the past used various drugs, notably shrooms, ecstasy, dxm, and my go to drug, marijuana. So I have some experience on that front as well. So that's all for now, hoping for some feedback. Peace
I am currently at a crossroads of sorts. Prescribed 40mg Prozac, 200mg Seroquel, 20mg Pantaprazpanole, 30mg Buspar, 0.5mg Ativan. The prozac has basically pooped out on me. The Seroquel knocks me out for the day. However, the Buspar and Ativan do work well for the anxiety.
I have decided over the past few days to conduct an experiment of sorts. I work nights, and to counteract the Seroquel grogginess I've been taking OTC caffeine pills for the past few weeks. Years ago I took mini thins religiously and later Ripped Fuel ( the one with Ephedra before it was banned ). This would keep me wired continuously. Miss those days.
Anyway, back to the present, the caffeine pills I'm currently taking have me flirting with a hypomanic/manic episode. I SO MISS the high of the mania, so I'm hoping one is triggered although I fear the crash that comes after.
So that's where I'm at currently. Hit me up if you're having a similar experience as I. I should also note I have in the past used various drugs, notably shrooms, ecstasy, dxm, and my go to drug, marijuana. So I have some experience on that front as well. So that's all for now, hoping for some feedback. Peace
